I never shared with anybody, including my own sons, what happened that afternoon, but now I think I am due to let it out because of my many friends across that ocean to remind them that this wonderful site wasn't created without a purpose.
I was standing at the window, my heart barely beating. It was a sunny day suddenly turning into a brief shower, I could hear raindrops hitting the glass, but I didn't pay any attention. I kept looking onto the garden where we had spent so much time, I working and you barking at anyone who would want to approach us. All I could think was that I lost the most precious being in my life and that there was no way to bring him back. Suddenly the sun reappeared and its rays struck raindrops in the air. And a few moments later the rainbow came. It spread over the sky in its many magnificent colours, its shape of a long round arch and its two ends reaching beyond the horizon. I read once that in the ancient past people considered this wonderful phenomena of colours as a bridge which the gods leaving earth passed on their way home to the sky. No wonder that at that moment for me it was a miracle. Love and despair often make people do most irrational things, sometimes your own mind reacts in a way your common sense would otherwise refuse. I still don't remember and probably never will what happened then. I just know that I was sitting at my computer desk, subconsciously hitting the letters on keyboard. I always considered myself as a reasonable person, but still I typed these words to yahoo: "Rainbow, where is my dog?" The first site that appeared in front of my eyes read as rainbowsbridge. Still not realizing what I was looking for I opened it and when I saw it was a memorial site for pets I was rather amazed. I had never had the slightest idea there were any pet loss sites on Internet. I never even thought or planned about making you a memorial, Puck, you know that.
First I read the Rainbows Bridge poem and normally I cried like a baby. Reading page by page made me more and more confused with such a coincidence. There were so many stories about other pets whose parents were grieving in the same way I was. At that time my doubts were still at high level, my faith very vague and elusive. I had never believed in heaven or afterlife, I never believed in one absolute truth, my attitude to life and death was purely pragmatic, my stoicism based on life facts. But something in my mind changed, I repeatedly started asking myself if it was really just a mere coincidence that brought me to this site.
After another sleepless night I finally made decision. I e-mailed Ginny, she kindly answered me back and in a few hours you got this resting home, which, if only virtual, means so much to me. It is here that I have finally found some peace; it's here where I have met so many wonderful people, who understood me because they have been going through similar pain.

But it was only much later that slowly, step by step, I realized that it was actually you, who brought me here, it was you who made me put those words to the rainbow. Your kind heart just wouldn't stand your mami being in such a desperate state of mind. You knew that there were no such sites in our country and as I later found out very few in Europe. It was really the first sign I got from you, Puck, you wanted me to know that our bond had never broken, that you were still there for me and that I could count on you whenever I feel the need. And it was then that I started asking myself if my previous philosophical views were not basically shattered that very day. I do have much more faith now, I began to believe that there has to be more than just life and death. And I do firmly believe, my boy, that one day I will see you again.