7/29/05
My Dear Little Gizzy, It's been 24 days now since I carried you out to the van for Momma to take you to the doctor, only to never see you come home again. And 18 days since the doctor told me you passed away while undergoing more stressful tests. Your body just couldn't take any more, and you went to sleep on the gurney. You hurt no more my little buddy, and I have memorialized you here at this beautiful place called "Rainbow's Bridge." You've got a lot of new friends now, and I want you to keep a special eye out for "Precious," and "Ralphie," because thier Mommies and Daddies have helped me a lot baby. Your stay with us here was so Short, it seems I brought you home yesterday. You were my comfort when I was in pain, and always with Daddy on the couch giving kisses and watching TV with me while Momma was at work. You were a kind and gentle baby. You knew when I asked, "Is it one O'clock?" to go right to the place we kept your denta-bone which I would split with you and your brother, BoBo. Then at four I would ask you, "Is it four O'clock?" "Is it time for a big cookie?" You knew then to spin in circles, run for the kitchen cabinet where we kept your "big cookies" and "sit Pretty" waiting to guess which hand I had it in by tapping each closed fist with your little paw. Then as always you'd run off and save it for later til I got down on the floor with you and acted like I wanted it. I'd crawl to you and ask "can I have a bite?" You'd stop chewing and move your head so Daddy could pretend to take his bite. You were always willing to share with me. It's that gentle nature you possessed that goes hand in hand with your precious memory. The clock has stopped little buddy, for it will always be "four O'clock" here for you, "Time for a big cookie."
Momma will write you soon. She misses you so much. It's still hard for her. Our writing can only be done through a veil of tears.
Talk to you soon, Sweetheart, and I'll see you in my dreams.
Love, DaddyAugust 3, 2005
Welcome home baby. We got your earthly remains back today and I'm going to make you the best final resting place you could ever want. Your Urn will be special, one of a kind, made with love and care by your Daddys' own hands. I'm sorry I haven't been able to visit for awhile little buddy, but I just had to wait til you were back home. It's just been so tearful here without you. Your Brother BoBo and Curly Cat miss you too. Go run now and play little Gizzy, with Precious, Ralphie, Boo Boo, Ozzie & Zack, Lucy, Reba, Daisy, and all the rest of your friends that are too hard to think of right now off the top of my head. And please, be the kind little gentleman you always were. I know you will. And yes, I didn't forget...There will be one "Big Cookie" in your memory tray right above your ashes, which my baby, is just the body that God let you borrow while you were here with us. I will see you in the rainbows, and I'll see you in my dreams.
Love, kisses, and tummy rubs baby, Your Daddy
8/3/05
Gizzy I'm sorry I haven't written before,but it's so hard to do with tears in your eyes. I miss you soo much. I miss you at my feet at night and the way you would pat me on the arm to get my attention when you wanted something. I find myself looking for you by the kitchen closet, where you liked to take naps. You would always hide behind the couch at bath time, but were a good baby once I put you in the tub. Gizzy I'm very sorry that I didn't make sure that Daddy got a lock of your hair as a memento. I should have cut it off myself instead of relying on someone to get it for me. There is nothing I can do now but say I'm sorry. I'll remember you forever. You are always here at my side in my memories. Love Momma
August 5, 2005
Today is one month little buddy, since I held you in my arms and placed you in your little bed on the seat of the van for your last ride through town. I prayed you'd come back from the vet all well and happy to be home. God answered my prayer, as he answers all prayers. Only this time, because of his compassion, he said no. He knew what was best for you. And since the doctor said that too much damage was already done, and he couldn't make you better, God decided you shouldn't suffer any longer. I am just thankful to him that he had to make that decision, and not I. I only wish I could have held you one more time, stroked your silky hair, kissed your little nose, and kissed your forehead like I used to do every day, before you had to leave us. You're in good hands now, and amoung lots of new friends. Now, run and play. I love you Gizzy, Daddy
August 11, 2005
It's been one month today little angel. I'm missing you more everyday. The days seem so long here without those beautiful eyes to look into, but for some reason this one month seemed to fly by so fast. It seems like you were here just yesterday. I guess that's because of great memories, and it shows that you have never left me in spirit. I still see you in all your favorite places. I still leave one piece of chow in the place by the refrigerator where you kept your "secret" stash of chow for snacking. I'm going to try to lift myself up from this deep depression of your loss by concentrating on all the good memories of all the fun and love we had together. I know you would want me to be happy here with your brother BoBo and to take good care of him and Curley Cat, and I promise you I will. I'll see to it that they don't meet the same fate that I caused for you. I only hope you have forgiven me for feeding you people food. I only did it out of love, and you looked so sad staring at my plate while you were "sitting pretty" waiting for just a little taste. I only pray that the rest of my time on this earth isn't going to be like this past month has been, so lonely, so sad, and so depressed. I love you little Gizzy, and I miss you so much.
Love, kisses, and tummyrubs, Daddy
Sept. 11, 2005
Hi baby, another month has gone by already since you left for your final home. Not a minute of any day goes by without me thinking of you and the unconditional love you showed me while you were here. You were my comfort, my support, and my relief from pain. You numbed my pain just by being there with me kissing me awake in the morning, and hopping up on the pillow next to me at night to go to sleep. I miss you so much Gizzy that some days I just don't know what to do. Your brother BoBo is really doing his best to take care of your Daddy. He's starting to do some of the same things you used to do, share your cookie, lie on the couch with me, and wake me up with kisses. You can be proud of your little brother.
I was hoping that this would get easier with time, but it doesn't. I know you are happy and free of pain, and that's what I must keep thinking of. Stay happy little buddy and remember that you're in my heart and mind forever.
I love you and miss you Gizmo.
Love and Kisses, Daddy
October 11th, 2005
Hi Baby, This date is here again, the third time already. I wish someone could take the 11th out of every month so I could only be reminded of good days with you, and not that horrible day. I miss you more every day, so much that most mornings I don't even want to get up. I'm hurting so badly little Gizzy! I realize that writing here in your Memorial Residence is just an open expression of my feelings. But I keep praying that God will somehow let you hear my writings. I'm sure he will.
No-one in my lifetime has ever shown me the kind of love you did while you were here with me. I guess that's why I love you and miss you so much.
I want you to show that same love to all the babies there with you. Show them your kind and gentle nature, and take special care of those smaller than you, like Precious, Ralphie, and Cujo.
You were my life, little Giz!
Love, kisses, and one big rub on that chubby little tummy,
Daddy
November 11th, 2005
Hi little Gizzy,
Four months already little buddy, and things aren't getting much easier for me. There are days I think of pleasant memories of you and there are days that I just break down and cry for hours. It will never be the same here without you. Your brother BoBo is snuggling with me now on your spot on the couch and giving me kisses like you used to. I know that part of you lives on in BoBo because you're twins. That helps me quite a lot. Maria, Ralphies' mom sent me a picture of a little yorkie at a rescue center yesterday. This little guy, Rocky, reminds me so much of you. I know that with your kind and gentle heart, you wouldn't mind at all if we took this little 3 year old in to give him a permanent, good loving home. He would also make a great companion for your lonely little brother BoBo. If I get Ok'd for the adoption he will be coming here to get a chance at having a good life with the loving daddy and momma you had loving you while you were here with us for that very short five years. He's not coming here to take your place, because that could never be done. No yorkie could ever take your place. You were my baby and will always be my baby. I want to show Rocky the love I showed you, and maybe Rocky will help your daddy through some of these rough days without you. He even has a lot of your traits. He's kind, loving, a little timid, and yes, he even has the ocassional little "accident" in the house. I'm sure he'll help daddy regain some happiness, and if you approve, I'm sure you will give me a sign. I love you sweetheart, and I miss you so much I can hardly type this. Rest with the Lord little Gizzy, and run and play with all your little buddies there. You're always here with me Gizzy,and always in my heart and mind.
All my love, kisses, and tummyrubs,
Daddy
December 11, 2005
Hi little Giz,
Five long months already. Christmas is coming and I don't know how I'll handle it without you here for the first time in five years. I want to cancel it and have no-one over, but mama wants to go ahead with it. I guess we'll go ahead with it, though it just won't be the same without you. I pray I can keep myself together emotionally with the kids and grandkids here. But if I can't, I know they will understand because they know how much you meant to me. I wish you a "Merry Christmas" Baby, and I want you to tell Jesus "Happy Birthday" for me, and thank him for me, for blessing me with you for five wonderful years.
I love you my dear gentle little boy, and I miss you so much. Have fun with all your new friends, and before you know it, we'll be together again.
All my love and kisses,
Daddy
January 11, 2006
My Dearest Gizmo,
Today is the half year mark since you've been gone. It seems as though it was yesterday that we were sharing a big cookie by the coffee table. Yet in a way, it seems like years since I've held you on my chest as I lay on the couch, watching TV together with you cuddling your face under my chin. How I miss that every night. Christmas was very difficult for me, but I made it through it. I found myself mostly staring at the two candles next to each side of your urn. The flames flickered, reminding me of your lasting spirit still here with me, as it will be for always. I pray, my little Gizzy, that God will allow you to keep an image of me and momma always with you, and allow you to still hear our voices and the loving things we always said to you. That way, we will always be with you as you are always with us. I love you little buddy, and I miss you terribly. I know it's going to be a long, "rest of my life" without you. Be patient, and I will be there.
For now, all my love, kisses, and tummyrubs
I love you sweetheart,
Daddy
February 11th, 2006
Hi baby. Seven months today since you went to the bridge. I miss you as much as the day you went away. I'm trying to get my life back on track, but it's so hard without you. I will visit you every month on this day. The letters will get shorter, but I will love you no less. I just have to try to be brief because it's easier on me that way. So take care little buddy. There's not a day goes by that I don't see you sitting by the couch. I love you Gizzy, and I miss you so much. I'll see you next month.
Love, kisses, and tummyrubs,
Your Always Daddy
March 11th, 2006
Hello little Giz,
Another fast month has gone by and it's been eight months already. They seem to go by so fast and yet they seem so long without you. I hope you're having fun with Precious, Ralphie, Boo Boo, and all the rest of my friends furbabies there with you. BoBo is doing well, and Curley too. You never got to meet Hannibal the bearded dragon. I only had him about two weeks before you went away. He was just a tiny baby, and I couldn't introduce you two. He's real big now. You be a good little boy like you always have and respect the Lord Jesus. If it be his will, I will be rejoined with you before you know it. I love you baby, and I miss seeing your sweet gentle little face. I'll be back next month.
Love and kisses,
Daddy
April 11th, 2006
Hi sweetheart, my dear little couch buddy Gizzy.
Nine months ago today I lost the best friend I had in the whole world. Today I'm beginning to realize you are Ok. I'm feeling a little better knowing that. Every minute of every day, you are in my heart, my mind, and my soul. And I'm sure that God is letting you hear my voice, talking to your picture and your urn. I want you to rest in peace baby, and run and play all you want. I want you to remember that before you realize, I will be with you again, holding you and loving you.
Be a good little boy for the Lord, like you always were for me.
I love you and miss you baby with all my heart.
With Love Forever,
Daddy
April 27th, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIZZY! Today is the day you would have been 6 years old. It sure seems like yesterday that I brought you home in that little basket with your favorite toys, just a 10 week old little black and gold furry bundle of love.
I miss you so much baby. How I wish I could hold you again.
I got you a teddy bear for your birthday and put it at your resting place. I hope you like it.
Daddy loves you baby, and in time I will be with you again. Life here is really incomplete without you.
You be a good boy as you always were.
I love you little Giz,
Love, Daddy
May 11th, 2006
Hi little buddy. The dreadful 11th of the month is here again. Ten months today since you went to the bridge. I miss you and love you as much as ever, and always will. I know that you are in much better hands than all of us here. And for that, I am thankful to God. I'm doing somewhat better accepting the fact you are gone, but I'm still having a hard time trying to forgive myself for feeding you people food. I know in my heart that you have forgiven me, and that helps me so much. I'll keep visiting you baby, and remember, you're always in my heart and mind. Now, go play with Ralphie, Precious, and all your other new friends at the bridge. Be a good boy for Daddy.
I love you sweetheart!
Love, Daddy
June 11th, 2006
Dear Little Gizmo,
Hi baby, I had to say a few words on this, the worst anniversary ever to occur in my life. I just want you to know I will never stop loving you or missing you. I'm doing somewhat better now, and maybe after next months' one year mark I may try not to bother you so much. I know you don't mind hearing from me here, but I also talk to you all the time at home. And, if it's Gods' will, I'm sure you can hear my voice and see my face.
Your brother BoBo was in the pool with us this past weekend. I remember how you hated swimming. Your little brother sure loves it. I got to go now baby. God bless your little soul. I love and miss you very much.
Love you forever,
Your Daddy
July 31, 2006
Dear little Gizzy,
I'm so sorry for not writing on the 11th of this month. I just couldn't do it. I broke down too badly. But believe me, you were in every thought I had on that terrible day. You were all I thought of on that day. I've calmed myself down enough to write on the last day of that fateful month. I still love you and miss you as much as ever, but I've got to try and pull myself together for Mama and the rest of the babies still here with me. I'm now fairly comfortable knowing you are in a much better place than we are. I accept your absense now, just knowing that. The visits may become less frequent now here at Rainbow's Bridge, but as always, I'm with you every day from the minute I turn the computer. You'll be my wallpaper forever, and we'll talk.
I'll always love you baby, and I'll always miss you. Rest with God, and be a good boy as always. May God bless your kind sweet little soul.
For now, all my love little guy,
Your Daddy for always
December 24th, 2006
Dear Gizzy,
Merry Christmas Baby! I miss you and love you very much.
Love Forever,
Daddy
April 27th, 2007
Happy Birthday little Gizzy! You would be a big 7 today. Have a little play party with Precious and Ralphie today! I just realized this entry didn't go in. I'm so sorry. I would never forget your birthday. I think I didn't click the button when I first put it in. This day and July 11th are so hard for me, I just don't think straight.
I love you and miss you baby! Be a good boy as always.
Love, Daddy
July 11th, 2007
Two years today my little buddy, and I'm still missing you as much as if it were yesterday. When I see you looking at me from my monitor, sometimes the tears come and just don't want to stop. I guess some people can go on, and some people can't. I still haven't slept in the bed that you, Mom, and I shared every night. I've been on the couch for two years now. I just can't go back in there. I sure wish you were here to help me baby. Your brother BoBo is doing a pretty good job of comforting Daddy when he's in pain. He'll jump up on the couch for kisses when he hears me cry out in pain from my leg, just like you used to do. I believe you told your little brother to take care of me just before you left the house for the vet.
You rest with Jesus sweetheart, and Daddy will be along before you know it.
I love you and miss you Gizzy, and will forever.
All My Love,
Daddy
