Memories of Maddy Walsh
Today is Thursday Feb 25, Maddy left sometime Monday morning. I am crying as I write this, have been since I got the awful news. I only remember crying one time before in my life, that was when my father died. My grief is beyond anything I have ever felt. She was only six, in good health, saw a vet frequently, stayed inside, and wanted it that way. This can not be real. Maddy is a sweet, loving, gentle, good friend. Never harmed anybody, or anything. I am filled with anger. It is not possible, this horror that has happened. No reason, no explaination. My Dad now has a great friend. I hope Dad, Maddy, and PC are hanging out. I hope Little Jack is there too, and Scardy cat. I miss everybody. I love you Maddy, I miss rubbing your big belly, and your head.
Dear Maddy, It is late thursday night. I love you maddy. I know you need a good brushing. The best part of my day is seeing you and Abby in the morning. I do not know how I can come back to that house without you in it. This is some kind of great cosmic mistake, I am not accepting it. In four days my life has been irrevocably altered in a horrible way, that will never get better. I will try to find you, anyway I can. This is not possible, you can not be gone. I Hope Shamus will find you, she took care of me when I was a Kid, Jack the Dog will help too, he lived with me up on the Mountain top in the DMZ, in Korea. He is brave and strong, a good fighter, he will love and protect you. Do not be scared Maddy, I still feel you in my mind, and always will. I am pretty sick myself, so maybe I will get to brush you soon. Since you left, I do not feel like doing much of anything, it is really difficult for me to talk. Things I was interested in, before monday, I do not care about now. I get very little sleep now, as soon as I awake. I wish I had found you, I wish I could have held you, and brushed you. I am pretty sure if I had not been down here in Florida I could have saved you, somehow, someway, I failed you Maddy, I was not there. I love you Maddy, I will find you soon. do not be scared, I am close.
Dear Maddy, I wake up after dreaming about you. I love you Maddy, I am worried about you not getting brushed. I should have been there. Dont be scared. I love you Maddy.
It is friday night Maddy and I am missing you. I can not watch my shows on tv, because you were always sleeping on my bed while I watched them. I love you maddy.
Goodnight Maddy, I am going to dream with you, See you in the morning, I love you Maddy.
Hello beautiful girl. Im loving you maddy. Do not eat too much. I keep thinking about the first time I saw you and Abby, in a cardboard box on the kitchen table. Abby looked at me and meowed. You never said much Maddy. We brought you guys to Dr. Norelli to get checked out, and he said that you had been taken from your mother too soon, and that shots would have to wait. How did you guys know how to use the litter box? That always amazed me. Everything about all you Cats amazed me. Thank you for sharing your life with me, and being my friend, it was an honor. Every cat I see is my friend. I love you Maddy, I wish I could wake up from this nightmare, but I dont think it will ever get better. Not for me. I am ready to explode. Poochie is Dad's dog from when he was a kid, Freckles also, they will be your friends and help guard you. They are Brooklyn dogs, and are strong and brave. I did not deserve you Maddy, I love you.
Dear Maddy, I have been thinking about you all day. I did my taxes on-line today, you are usually snoozing on the bed behind me as I do that. When I come home from Florida, the best part of getting back to Shirley, is having you and Abby come up to say hi, as I come in the house. I remember always being amazed that you knew Ed was home when his truck pulled in. How did you know it was him Madd? I do not know how I can come back to that house without you being there. It is a crappy house, but it had two true friends, unconditionally happy to see me. Your good life was sure more meaningful than the mess I have made. I love you Maddy. I miss the way you danced as you walked and tried to trip me, as I stumbled to the bathroom at night. I miss saying goodnight, I will see you in the morning. Most of all I will miss seeing you every morning of my life. See you in the morning Maddy.
I love you Maddy. You left one week ago, today Monday. This has been the longest, worst week of my life. I feel worse everyday. I did not see you for 28 days, and you are gone. I dream about you every night, I wake thinking about you. You are my best friend, I did not deserve you. I wish it had been me, not you. I will love you forever. Everything feels empty, I am used up. My back really hurts today, and my feet feel numb. Whenever I felt this pain, you always seemed to know something was wrong, and you would lie on the edge of the bed close to me, I always felt less pain when I would pet you. It feels like it has been a lifetime since I last saw you. When I left for Florida I kissed you on the head, and told you I love you. If Ed or I had been there I know this would not have happened. I was not there for you, and nothing will change that. I love you Maddy. If I come back there, this will be the first time I will return from a trip and you will not be there to greet me. This can not be possible. I hate that house. We all should have moved to FL when we were going to. I love you Maddy. I feel more alone than I ever have, my heart feels like a block of ice. I constantly think about the really special connection we had, I remember sitting in the green chair in my room in Florida, and thinking about you, and suddenly I felt I was looking at the house in Shirley, thru your eyes, I could feel your deep purring, felt you were smiling, and allowing me in. I was, and am, delighted, and astounded by this experience. This happened maybe three times, and if it was not real, it sure fooled me. Maybe all of you special, magical beings, have this connection. I am grateful for you making me part of it. I will always love you Maddy. I was not there, when it counted, I did not deserve you. I failed you.. Today is 2 Feb,
I am crying again maddy, I have never felt such grief. I love you Maddy.
I love you Maddy, I am worried about you. This will never stop. I will visit your place here everyday, until I see you again. I do not think i am ever going to stop crying Mad. I miss you.
I love you Maddy, I will love and miss you forever. I got a new tattoo today, It says Maddy Walsh in beautiful script, and has a great tattoo of a fierce, brave, warrior cat under your name. You will love it Maddy. My world is small and slow without you. I am thinking of going to Petsmart, and looking at the cats the rescue society has there, I would like some old cat nobody wants,. What do you think, not to take your place, nothing could take your place. I like cats a lot more than I like people, generally. I need a cat friend. It is a lot better world when a cat chooses to share their life with you. This only happens to very lucky people.
Dear Maddy I love you. Two weeks ago today, we did not know how lucky we had been until you were gone. The fabric of our happy small world has ben torn and ripped apart. Everyday without you seems forever. I am lost.
Dear Maddy, I returned back to MA last Friday. Our house seems so sad, so empty, so strangely quiet without you here. I love you Maddy, I miss you more each day. The days seem empty and last forever. I feel like i do not belong anywhere now. I think Abby really misses you. We all love and miss you so much it is beyond reason. I cry every day Maddie, I wake up and cry, and go to bed crying. I should have been home. I love you Maddy, I will find you.
Dear maddy, it is hard to type while crying. I love you Maddy. Everyday is like the first day, I am back in Fl, where I got the terrible news, it is not the same now you are gone, nothing is. I feel like I do not belong, or fit anywhere. The weekend before I came down here, Abby and I were alone in the house, and everytime I saw the one bowl and water dish I cryed. I sure wish I somehow could trade, and give my life for fourteen more years for you. That is my wish, and I wish it every day. Evil has prevailed, somehow. I have always thought there is more evil than good, but I always thought good was stronger, and would prevail. I know better now. I miss you and worry about you, that is now my life. I worry a lot about Chief the dog also, and he is suffering greatly. Sometimes I visit this site, and just lose it when I see your picture. Sometimes I write on the visitors page. Ed drew a great picture of you, on pink paper, I put it in your box, with some other stuff important to me and grandpa. Usually when I think of you, I think of grandpa too. I let you both down. I love you Maddy.
It is now the middle of april Maddy, as soon as the song starts on your site ,I start to cry. I love you Maddy, I miss you more every day, I think of you all the time. Ed is getting his teeth all fixed up, you remember how worried I was about that.So that is is good thing, and I know you are smiling and happy for him. Ed says Wildy the cat stares at my window every morning, I think he is looking for you. I think Abby is very lonely without you, I do not know how to fix that, without making it worse. Life is empty without you Maddy, I think it will always be that way for me. I love you Maddy girl, forever and a day. So many good friends gone in such a short time, so unfair so sad, with each passing the world is a much colder and more lonely place. All good friends and gentle, magic companions. Knowing them all, has changed me for the better. They all deserved life more than I, yet I am still here. I would trade me, for any of you guys. I love you Maddy, I love you all. Be careful, be safe, do not be scared. I love you across time and space.
Dear Maddy, I miss you more everyday. Abby is very different withou you, so am I. I hope I see you soon. Dad's birthday is 31 Aug. I hope you live with him now. Do not be scared, I love you.
Dear Maddy, I love you, forever. I am back in Fl for a while. it is horrible down here now, because what kept me going down here, doing all the miserable junk I have to do while I am down here, was knowing you and Abby would be there to greet me when I got home. That was the only good part of the trip. I think about you and my Dad all the time, both of you deserve to be here so much more than I do. You and Dad are a great pair. Tell Dad what I am thinking, I will see you guys soon, I hope.Dear Maddy Happy Birthday, it is Christmas Day 2010, I love you forever Maddy, I miss you forever. My life really sucks without you in it. I hope to brush you soon, and rub heads. Abby is sad, and different without you. Everything is different without you. I failed you, I love you. Be strong and brave, do not eat too much. Be careful. A big squirrel somehow got into the bathroom, and i found another big one under the house. I am different without you, no more false hope in me now about anything. I love you Maddy.
Today is 1JAN 2011 Maddy. I love you Maddy, I think about you everyday, and the more I have thought about everything ,the more convinced I am that you could have been saved if one of us had been around. I know there had to have been signs that were ignored. I hope to be with you soon, me and you and Dad. I love you pretty girl.
A year ago. It seems like forever, it never gets any better, I love you forever, I will find you on the other side. I never stop thinking about you Maddy, I cry everyday. Be careful, I love you.
I have been down here so long I feel like I am fading away and will soon disappear. I love you Maddy, I think about you every day. I wonder what you would think about Abbie's new housemate, Chief Walsh, I think he must be a swell guy, and I love him, even though we have never met. I guess you already know about all that. I miss you and Abby everyday all day. I miss Chief too. I miss living next to Jack, and all my friends that live in, and have lived in his house. I think about Little Jack everyday, I really miss him. I miss Yashi a lot also. I miss you Mad, see you soon, on the other side.
I have been down here a long time now Mad, I have thought about you every , many times a day. I never miss you less, I miss you more each and everyday. I cry everytime I come to this page. I look at your picture and think of you many, many, many times each day. I am still angry, and always will be, I will make somebody answer for this, on this side or the other. I love you forever Maddy, thru time and space, and life and death. I will find you in whatever is next. I will brush you again, many times,do not eat too much Maddy, do not be scared, I promise I will come.
Dear Maddy, I love you forever, I miss you more everyday and I think about you everyday. Chief the dog is doing really good, he knows the sound of ED's truck, just like you did. he keeps Ed company and even seems to get along with Abby, you know how hard that is to do. I still can not believe you are not there at the house when I fly home, that was always the best part of my trip, seeing you again. I still think I see you moving around sometime, is that real? Had some really terrible sad news down here today, Abie the dog, Ann's friend went to Rainbow Bridge this morning. She was a great friend, I will miss seeing her very much. When you see her show her around, she was a truly great dog. I love you Maddy, I still can not believe you are gone. Be careful, do not eat too much. I love you Mad.
Dear Maddy, another year gone by somehow. Chief has being living in our house almost a year, and is much better than before but still has some difficult times, he really had a terrible life before Ed rescued him, some people hurt him, badly. But he loves Ed and Ed loves him, and we all try to make everyday a great one for him. he is a brave heart, and a really good guy. Chief and Abby get along pretty good, but you know Abby she is a tough old gal now. i think she really misses you, and always has. i know I do . i think about you everyday, and i always will. i love you forever Maddy, and i know i will see you soon. be careful, don't eat too much, can't wait to brush you again. Love , Dad.
Seems like yesterday, but on Friday morning you have been waiting at the Bridge for three full years. I still cry every time I think of you Mad, and I think of you every day. Never gets any easier, never gets better. This has been such a sad year. I close my eyes and I see me sitting in the green chair watching the Office, and you snoozing on the bed next to me. I love you Mad, if it is there I will see you on the other side. I will find you, I love you, Dad.
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