I will never forget the day I found you. It was 4 months after I lost Ginger and I was going through that other terrible time in my life. I had gone to look at a few other puppies but turned and walked away. I wasn't sure I was doing the right thing. Was I stable enough to care for you. I called Grandma and we went to see you. I knew with one look into your eyes that you were meant for me. You healed me as I took care of you. You were so quiet and never any trouble. I remember the first morning when I woke up and looked over the side of my bed and there you were sitting up and looking straight at me. You were totally MINE.
There are so many good memories. You were always so gentle and you liked to get your belly rubbed. You always listened for the garage door to open and were waiting for me at the top of the stairs. This past week I stop on the top step and hope to hear you again but I can only hear you in my heart.
I will never forget that awful night in 2003 when I was so low. You didn't climb steps anymore because your hips hurt but that night as I lay crying in bed I heard your footsteps in my bedroom and you slept next to me to comfort me. You always knew what was in my heart.
Watching you the last few months was one of the hardest things I will ever go through. I hope you will forgive me for doing what I had to do. I will never forget the feel of you as I had my arms wrapped around you when you left me. There is now a void in my life that will never be filled.
Somehow I know that you would be sad to know how much I am grieving for you. I always remember my mom's words. She said, "Don't cry for me or you won't let me rest in peace".
Well I have cried but I am trying to be better now because I want you to be happy until I can join you. I know you must feel my hugs every night when I close my eyes and think of you.
Please be waiting with Grandma when it is time for me to join you both. I love you so MUCH. Forever and always, MOMMY
February 13 - Mommy has been so sick with the flu. I missed you by my side. You would have been 13 years old February 7 but instead it was your 1 month birthday in heaven. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day and I will be thinking of you and of Grandpa - who will be in heaven 23 years on Valentine's Day. So many people think of you and talk about you. My life is so empty. I pray that you know I am thinking of you, my precious Tasha. Love, Mommy
Well, I've got to go now. I will NEVER forget you my precious. Love Mommy
11/7/06 Ten months gone my precious. I still call your name and will never forget you. Love Mommy.
1/5/07 Tasha this weekend will mark one year that you are gone. It is a TERRIBLE MEMORY I wish I could forget. When I think of you I try to focus on the good times. You are in my prayers at night. Rest well sweet baby. Love Mommy
1/7/2008 Still hurts so much to remember this day. You will always be in our hearts. Love Mommy and Tom.