Hikes at Gay City state park, Walks on Juno beach, Many furry friends here in Fl, Phaedra coming out of her skin when Jeremy came home from college for the weekend, Hanging out laying on Rachel's bed ( I think she liked the smell of her), Frisbee 24/7 and in between please hide the tennis ball and I will find it, squeaking ducks toys (I need to find that noise), Biting anything that sprayed water, How dare that cat (Mario) slap me in the nose Im going to eat him, (4 years later) sleeping in the living room chair with the cat best of buddies, running out of control from bed to bed knocking every thing off of it, I don't like the pillows that mom has put on the coach and therefore they look so much better on the floor, Always being at my side.
Phaedra was one of the smartest most loyal companions I have ever had. So much dog so little time.
Consider, friend, as you pass by: As you are now, so once was I. As I am now, you too shall be. Prepare, therefore, to follow me.
Hello sweetie hope you made it over to the other side and have reconnected with the Britt, give her a big hug and kiss for me, and please behave, I hope the alpha in you is not allowed over there. I found a poem that I am sending you, it touched my heart. Missing you sooooooooo much, I cant stand being in this house with out seeing you. LOVE YOU Dad
Treat me kindly, my beloved master, for no heart
in all the world is more grateful for kindness
than the loving heart of me.
Do not break my spirit with a stick, for though I should
lick your hand between the blows, your patience and understanding will more quickly
teach me the things you would have me do.
Speak to me often, for your voice is the world's sweetest music,
as you must know by the fierce wagging
of my tail when your footstep falls on my waiting ear.
When it is cold and wet, please take me inside...for I am now a
domesticated animal, no longer used to bitter elements...
and I ask no greater glory than the privilege of sitting at your feet
beside the hearth...for you are my god, and I am your devoted worshipper.
Keep my pan filled with fresh water, for although I should not reproach you were it were
I cannot tell you when I suffer thirst. Feed me clean food, that I may stay well,
to romp and play and do your bidding to walk by your side,
and stand ready, willing and able to protect you
with my life, should your life be in danger.
And, my beloved master, should the Great Master see fit to deprive me of my health or
do not turn me away from you. Rather hold me gently in your arms as skilled hands
the merciful bounty of eternal rest...and I will leave you knowing with the last
breath I drew, my fate was ever safest in your hands.
Remember me not with tearful eyes...but instead with an abounding heart.
Should you choose to fill my bed, feel no guilt,
you have not betrayed me. Love another as you always loved me...
and they too will love you as I always have.
5/20/11 Sweetie I am thinking of filling your bed out of no disrespect for you, the house is so empty with out you. I will never forget you, you will always be on my mind, you were the cream of the crop. Send me a sign of something making it ok from you.
Good morning sweetie, I so miss seeing and saying that to you.
Yesterday I went to SC to see some puppies and there were so many that I wanted to move my bed there and volunteer working for them, there had to be 30+ German Shepard,s ( none of them were as smart and pretty as you though) . The people Shannon and Frans were so nice and we talked for hours playing with puppies and the elders.
We got to talking and they asked about what mom thought, so I started to tell them that she wanted to wait due to having to watch you through your sickness and watching you fall to sleep. It took more than I thought out of here and maybe I should wait. Frans said why wait this is what I do Im a dog person and theres a void in my heart, I guess they could tell by the way I talked about you and showed them photos. I was thinking to my self I will buy the dog leave it here and pick it up in a month or so when mom comes around. This strange thing happen all of a sudden, the concrete bench that I was sitting on, Ivie (a little 5 month old female) climbed up on all fours on the bench walked over sat in my lap rested her head in my chest and started to lick my face. I thought I was going to cry, could you have put this little creature of god in my lap?? I hope so and it sure feels right. We got in the truck and drove 600 miles back home ( shes not as good a rider as you) I will keep you posted. Sweetie you will always be in my heart and thoughts sweetie and I will never forget what love and joy you brought me.
Stay in touch with me Ill be watching for you.
Love your Dad xoxo
Hello sweetie have been thinking of quite a bit lately. Had Ivie at the park where you and I use to run. Lots of great memories there with you, even on the hottest days you still want to catch frisbees, you were to much. Ivie picked up a pine cone the other day and looked up at me the way you use to, I swear you put her up to that. And if you did thanks. Well I hope all is well and just remember someday will see each other again.
Love you Dad xoxo
Hello Sweetie one month today and I have thought about you every day sometimes all day every day. I miss you so much, only you would understand me. We indeed had what most people could only dream of having, Unconditional love is the greatest. And you made it possible. People have questioned my grief methods about getting a puppy but I don't care I know your with me on this and have my back 100%.
I saw Dr Harrison the other day and he walked in looked at Ivie and said is this the new one, I said yes , he looked at Ivie and shook his finger and said YOU have some big feet to fill. I laughed but wanted to cry thinking of you, but didn't, you would not have wanted me to. I stayed strong for you although my heart was aching. I hope all is well there and I look forward to seeing you once again someday. This was the longest month ever to pass.
Love Dad xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Hello Sweetie thinking of you often, cant tell you how many times I call Ivie, Phaedra, I catch my self all the time. But thats ok you were very special to me and I have never stopped thinking about you. Here we are coming up on 3 months since you have been gone still seems like yesterday. Hope all is well in Phaedras world.
Love Dad xoxo
Hello Sweetie its been some time now but it seems like yesterday, for it is still very fresh in my mind. The new pup (Ivie) turned 1 year old last weekend, she still is such a handful. I think she runs on high octane. She is been staying with a friend for a few days so I can recover from shoulder surgery.
I received the new Fidelco News book the other day and to my surprise your name was in there under in Fond Memory of our beloved guide dogs. So see your Fidelco family did not forget you either. Once A guide dog always a guide dog.
Take care till we meet again.
Love Dad xoxo
Ivie and I lost a dear friend yesterday to the same sickness I believe that you had, His name is Buddy he's a Golden Retriever, look for him, you wont miss him he'll be the one with a tennis ball in his mouth. And good luck getting it from him. He,s a good boy take good care of him. Also today I found out Joey also passed last Friday of cancer of the stomach. You knew him he was Backys dog he always use to growl at you. He was the Pourgesse water dog. Joey was 12 and Buddy 10 same age as you. You all left us way to early :( Sad day
I miss you and think of you often, till we meet again
Love Dad xoxoxo
Good morning Sweetie
One year ago today you left us, where does the time go it seems like yesterday. I think of you often and miss you still like it was yesterday, sure do hope we meet again that would be the plan any way. Hope you found Buddy and Brittany ok and your all having fun. Love you and just needed to let you know your always on my mind.
Love Dad xoxoxoxo till we meet again
Good morning Sweetie
2 years today I lost you, where does the time go, I hope all is well in your world. Ivie is such a handful compared to you, I have to be so carful around stangers something I never worried about with you. I miss you like I lost you yesterday.
Till we meet again, LOVE Dad