Rudy was our last son, we never dreamed we would lose both of our furry boys in the same year. Today we are devistated. But this is not about us, it's about Rudy.
He was big, fuzzy, and gentle. Like a good boy, he loved his Mama. He loved his Daddy too, but there is nothing wrong with having a favorite : ) Rudy was 16 years old and just lost his short battle with heart and kidney failure. We were fortunate enough to adopt him 10 years ago. He was incredibly smart and very playful. Just last night he played "pom pom ball" with the Daddy. He loved his treats and would have no shame when waking Daddy up every morning to get them. Rudy loved going outside, but was an indoor cat for the last several years. All summer we would carry him outside so he could chew grass on the lawn where we could watch him. We would open the sliding glass door in the evening so he could people and squirrel watch. At the end of every day Rudy would greet us at the door, how he knew we were coming, we'll never know. At night he would curl up next to his Mama on the couch, just to hang out with us. Rudy would fall asleep on my chest after we got into bed, and he'd keep coming back all night. We almost patted the fur off from him, that's how much we loved him. When he came into the room we would greet him, just as one would greet an old friend. If Rudy wasn't right with us, we'd call his name and he would come running to us. We always wanted him near us, and he wanted to be there.
My sweet kittie, I love you so incredibly much. I can't believe you are gone, but I think God for the last week we had together. God gave us an extra week, after we learned how sick you were. Daddy and I always smothered you with attention and pats, but this last week we made sure to make the most of it. We don't know how we are going to get through this pain, you were such a huge part of our lives. Know we love you, will never stop missing you, and are very happy you are now healthy. We have comfort knowing you have joined your brother, Cyrus, who we just lost in January. Be good to each other!
My baby, it's almost a week since you left us. My heart remains broken. A day has not gone by that I haven't looked for you, listened for you, thought about calling for you, felt you leaping onto the bed. The pain is sharp, and does not relent. I want the heartache to stop, but I don't want it to, because I don't want to stop feeing your absence. I never want to get used to being without you. I miss you so much, it hurts. Seeing pictures of you seems to help, but is still a raw reminder of what it used to be like when I could see you, touch you and sniff your fuzzy tummy. I love you, Rudy. - The Mama
Rudy, two weeks ago you left us. The wound won't heal, but that's fine. I don't expect it to for quite some time. I still think about you every day, many times a day. Please don't worry about me, I still cry, but know thinking about you will one day bring me more than just tears. There are so many good memories, and those will eventually fill my thoughts, not just saddness. I miss you incredibly, and so wish I could feel your fluffy fur under my hands and my face. Daddy said to tell you he misses you very much, too. He is still sad and still wishes you were here to play and whack him on the head for treats. You are such a good boy, and our home is so empty without you. I love you, little boy. - The Mama
Baby Rudy, I am sorry I haven't written to you in a while. Please know it's not because I have forgotten about you. You are on my mind every day. I even had a couple of mini melt downs last week. I really was hoping the welling up I do every time you are on my mind would stop. I miss you so incredibly much. I do, though, have wonderful memories, too. I smile a lot when thinking about you, as well. Daddy misses you, too. We still talk about you almost every day. I know you already know this, but we have a new kitten. We never meant to get a kitten, you know how we do with them! That's why we adopted you when you were 6! One day we went to the shelter to look at cats, but realized we just were not ready. Two days later a little kitten came running from the dark and almost ran over my feet while we were outside. At first we didn't know what it was! Long story short, we ended up adopting little Brewster. He is crazy insane and is tearing up the house. We do love him, and sometimes I feel so guilty about that. I think that's why I haven't written, I didn't know what to say! The Daddy says you would be okay and just want us to be happy. I hope that is so. I love you, Rudy!!! We miss you and Cyrus so very much. Love, The Mama. PS - Of course I am crying as I write this!
Sweet sweet kittie, I still miss you so incredibly much. You have been on my mind constantly over the past couple of weeks. I know you are doing well, and that makes me so very happy. Telling stories about you, and how wonderful you were, brings a smile to my face. I never thought I would actually smile after I said your name. The tears are not gone, though. But I am happy knowing I had you in my life. I love you, my fuzzy boy. Love, the Mama
My sweet, sweet kitten. A year ago today you went over the Rainbow Bridge. I can't believe it's been so long since I've felt your beautiful fur under my hand and your sweet smelling head under my chin. I miss you as much today as I did the day you left us. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and look at your pictures. I was so incredibly lucky to have you in my life for 10 wonderful years. I woke up at 5:45 this morning, the very same time that you began your decline and exit from my world. I long to kiss your little face and run my hands over your soft coat. I love you so very much, my fuzzy baby boy. Love always, The Mama.
Rudy, it's been two years and the pain is still real. I woke up at 1:30 this morning and started crying. It's as though my soul knew it was today, even though my every day life has been marching on. You are so missed. The Daddy and I emailed about you today. Even though we are no longer together, we still are your Mama and Daddy and love you very much. I have two kitties now, and I am incredibly lucky to have them in my life, but they are no replacement for you. Please do know that. I have your memorial set up in my bedroom, and your brother Cyrus is right next to you. To lose you both in the same year was horrendous. I am thankful for the Rainbow Bride memorial, I get to post my true feelings and emotions, because not every person understands. Especially given the date that we lost you. I love you so much my fuzzy yellow and orange boy. I continue to cherish the time we had together, and I continue to long to hug you next to me.