Hi sweet baby, today was a really bad day! I have so much to tell u. I adopted a toy brown poodle and named her Lola. She is as cute and sweet as can be. I was so confused about getting her, because I still mourn you every day but she needed a home. I am happy with her but sad at the same time because I feel like I should not b happy with another dog?? like I'm cheating on u. Please know that you are and will always b my greatest love no matter how many dogs I have in my lifetime, and I will never forget you or stop loving you. I keep talking to Lola about you and comparing you to her!! (good thing she is not human or she would need a lot of therapy later!!) I wish you could come tell me that's it's okay for me to love another dog. You two would get along great, she is very much like you. she loves to cuddle and put her head under my neck and sleep, and she does not like to eat!!! what are the odds I would get 2 dogs that don't like to eat, weird!! she doesn't beg and I had to spoon feed her on the kitchen table like I did with you when you were a baby. Anyway today we had to go to Dr. Cattiny for her first exam and shots. It was so hard Maddy to go back there, My heartache was to much to hide and I brokedown, everyone there loved you so much too so they understood, but the lump is still in my throat, and the emptiness in my heart won't go away. Maybe you can come visit and meet Lola and let me know it's good that she is here, and can you give her some tips on potty training PLEASE!! lol she's not getting the hang of it like you did. But then again you were a special and amazing furbaby!! I miss you so much sweetpea. Love you always, Mommy