Final Farewell to our Luckygirl
by Pam,Rich,Blazeyboy &Angelgirl McManus
Tue Sep 14, 2004 6:05 pm Post subject: my lucky girl is gone w/o pain..: ( -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We have been blessed so much to have lucky, when i seen she was a special needs girl i imeditaley became attached and could not give up untill she was in our home with us, i found out she was born the same year but differant month as my boy blaze but had the same dad,,, country barn... . lucky has been a good girl, i could tell there was a sad story behind her but did everything in my power to change that, she was loved here, ... she had many phobias, one being that she was so afraid of the camera, she would literally shake at the site if it, so needless to say we do not have many pictures, which breaks my heart now, rich (my husband) loved her so much as i did, she had a little tiny face and a button nose and a smile that would make even you show all teeth, we constantly smiled at each other... we loved her beautiful little face... . well last tuesday lucky seemed to have a problem walking, i took her in for xrays and there showed a narrowing in her spine, i was given holistc rememdies for any inflammation or pain, the next day she was unable to get up at all, if i stood her up she would stand a second and start to go down, id catch her of course and carried her around with me, then took her back to dr for steroid injections, thursday she showed much worsening, i rushed her to waukesha were she stayed thur fri they did a mylogram and still were not sure what the cause of this was, suspected spinal meningitis or a spinal tumor, a spinal tap was also done and found that ruled out both,,,now what,?? i got in contact with dr podell a neuroligist in northbrook who was highly recommended by a dear friend of mine, we went to see lucky saturday in waukesha and when i seen her i knew she would NOT be staying in waukesha another day,,, (mad) so we brought her home saturday , she had excessive urnation and severe diarea, i diapered her massaged her body, rubbed her legs she could not feel and hugged and kissed her through the night, i cry as i type this part. we took her to northbrook in the afternoon sunday, they ssaid the dr would check her first thing in the morning, he called me at 8 am and said he would do the mri to determine the cause, i waited , he called at 12:20 yesterday (monday) and said he was very sorry, that she had cancer in 80% of her spinal cord, and was untreatable,,, rich and i went to pick her up , we brought her home, she was afraid on the way home but i sat with her in the back of the blazer and spoke softly to her kissing, hugging and massaging her body, she opened her eyes and nudged me for water, she was so thirsty,,, we got her home and carried her in the house, layed her on a nice clean bed, i thought maybe we could wait till morning since she seemed so peaceful, once i removed the blanket for her rear i seen ( i can hardly type this) her anal was wide open, red and raw from severe diearea, it was time to say good bye and fast i could not even imagine if she had to go again, no not again!!! i put a small fan blowing on her behind, it was something i wish i had not seen, this haunts me now, so much i cant begin to tell you the pain she must have been in. i feed her some ground beef, choc milk, cookies and milkbones, all her favorites, her appitie was fantastic, she ate like a she always had,,, we had candles burning, soft music playing and the lites down low, luckys was sound a sleep as rich and i cryed over her, telling her we loved her so much she was totally ready to leave this earth, it was evident, she slept sound, the vet stepped in at 8:00 pm , blaze watched and looked so worried and would come up to us frequently to lend his paw,,, angel stood by and sniffed but kept her distance, they both loved their little sister dearly angel bonded with her so much, they were buddies, the cathadure was still in luckys arm as we didnt want to have to poke her again, before the drug was injected lucky raised her head and looked at me and rich as if to say thanks mom and dad and layed her head back down, she slept again, the drug was injected, she never opened her eyes, or even took another breath she left with angels carrying her away to the heavens above, i miss her so much, the tears continue to flow and will for a very long time, we are heart broken for her loss, she was creamated today and will be back with us soon,,, we miss her terribley,,, pam, rich blaze angel, lucky and barkley looking beautiful with their wings,,,
Comments would be appreciated by the author, Pam,Rich,Blazeyboy &Angelgirl McManu
 
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