unconditional love by Mai Nakajima

unconditional love

by Mai Nakajima

Honey was born on a Halloween of 1999. He was a lil devil with an angel heart. Whatever he did we couldnt get angry at. When the australian agility winner/trainer saw Honey he said that Honey could be the next aus agility winner. He was the most beautiful, clever, perfect pup I have ever met. He had two gorgeous blue eyes and was the breed of Australian Koolie. He was so beautiful that whenever we took him somewhere, strangers would come up and ask us if they could take a photo. I was so proud to have such a pup. You stayed by myside through thick and thin. You made my life full. You loved the sea ... the waves... and most of all you loved your mate Darling. She misses you alot. When we knew that you had a brain infection we thought you have a great chance to survive since 85% of the cases the dogs live to their old ages..... but why did the vet say you had no chance? I dont understand. I thought you will be ok. I made trips to see you everyday to the vet specialist. When you couldnt even walk... nor could you respond... I felt like my life was ending. When the vet told us you had no chance and we should put you down... I just had to take you home. You gave us full 2 days to look after you and kiss you and say how much we love you. When you showed your signs that you were responding to our voices I thought there still was a chance. I promised you I will never let you go... I promised you that I will be good... all I wanted was more time with you. I just couldnt stay awake that long... had to sleep for 10 min.... but I never did let go of your paw did I? When you took your last breath you showed me that you were going by pressing my hands even though I was asleep. I just couldnt let you go. I tried my best to revive you. When I knew that you chose to go I just cried so much that I couldnt see a thing. I still do.... You went on 7th March 2005. I always knew you wont stay with us long since you were an angel sent from god to help me and mum patch things up. When mum was driving you to be made into ashes she thought of crushing the car with all of us inside. I so wanted to chase after you straight away. Even though your not in your usual spots in the house I still try to find you... Darling still looks for you in the dog park. I still yell out for your name despite the fact that I know your not gona come running from the corner. How long does this pain last? You taught me so much.. you were center of our lives. No word can tell anyone how much I loved you and miss you. Is it so wrong to hope that the day I see you is tomorrow? Its been 3 weeks without you now. Life is never going to be the same without you. Nobody will ever take your place in my heart. I wish I could have understood earlier how much you were suffering with headaches. I'm so sorry. I thought I understood every word you were saying to me... but I apparently didnt. I am so so sorry. and last of all thank you for choosing to stay with me , mum and darling for full 5 years. Thank you for all that you have done for us. Me, mum and darling wont be long until we come and see you soon baby. You wont have to wait long. My dearest Honey bunnie.... please wait for me.... I will find you where ever you are!

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