I'm so sorry.. by Juanita Nunn

I'm so sorry..

by Juanita Nunn

Jasmine, I a so sorry that you were so scared that day. I did everything I could to comfort you. You were so nervous and shaking . Then you started panting so hard. I think you knew what was coming some how. You always looked to me for protection and this time I let you down. When the vet put that needle in your leg you cried out and tried to jerked away. You looked up at me with wild scared eyes. I could do nothing but cry and hold you. I let you down. Then you peacefully went to sleep in my arms . I felt like my heart was breaking into. I know the cancer was taking over your body and to let you go on would be wrong..but I just wish you would not have been so scared and wondering why I was not helping you. I miss you so much. I come home and you are not here to greet me. I walk past your chair in the living room and it is empty. I look out on the deck and you are not there to keep the cats away. I think they too are looking for you and they miss the chase. I stepped out of the shower and you were not waiting on me. And as set here and type you are not at my feet asleep. Soon I will shut down the computer for the evening and that was always your Q to get up and leave the room with me.You knew the sound. You knew me well. I love You Jassie Girl ...Thank you for being my best friend. November 12, 2004

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