Peppy by Pat Thomas

Peppy

by Pat Thomas

10/31/03 - Well, here we are at Halloween, once again, my sweet baby. My second one since you left me and it is no easier than the last one. Remember your little pumpkins that you and Poppy had, the ones with the lights inside that we put in the windows every Halloween? Well, I can't bring myself to get them out this year. They are still in the closet where I put them the last time we lit them and your little face lit up every time the light came on. Just another tradition gone, because you are gone. Not out of my life and my heart, just not in my arms anymore. Your mamma still loves you and misses you just as much as ever. So, my baby, it's one day at a time, until we meet at the Bridge and cross it together. Some day, my baby, our family will have all of its links connected once again, and forever this time. I love you, my sweet baby.
11/27/03 - Another Thanksgiving Day has arrived, my second one without you, my precious baby. I try to think of all the things I am thankful for in my life ...and there are many...but there is one thing that is missing on my list. I don't have you here with me to celebrate the holidays. And that is a loss that will never be replaced in my life or my heart. I am thankful for the time we did have together and all of the Thanksgiving Days we were together. Someday, my baby, we will celebrate together, again. Until then, know that I love you with my whole heart. Happy Thanksgiving, Baby. Your mamma loves you now and forever.
12/25/03 - Merry Christmas, my precious little baby. This will be my second one without you being here to enjoy it with me. I hope you know that it will never be the same as it was when you were here with your big, shining eyes looking at the tree and all of your presents that Santa brought you. It was always our favorite time of the year, wasn't it? I pray that you can still enjoy the holiday with us and that you will have your very own special celebration there at the Bridge with all of your new friends and your little mother, Minnie, and cousins that have joined you. I love you, my baby. Little did I know that I had Christmas every day when you were here with me. Every day was special. Too bad I didn't realize it, then. But just know, my Sweetsie, you were the best present I ever had and the holidays and celebrations will never be the same until we are all four able to celebrate them together once again. Just know that your mamma loves you so much. Look in on us as Daddy and I help Poppy enjoy his Christmas day and all of his gifts. And know, my baby, that you will be in our hearts all day. I love you, my precious baby, today, tomorrow and always. Merry Christmas, Precious.
01/01/04 - Happy New Year, Baby. Here we are at the beginning of another brand new year, full of hope and surprises and, hopefully, no pain. The pain we share by not being together is way more than enough pain for the full year. But at least we do have the promise of being together, again, some day to look forward to. That's what I'm trying to do, Baby, is look forward to the future and remember all of our days together as wonderful, wonderful memories, never to be forgotten. Never forget how much I love you, my precious angel, and don't forget me. I'm depending on you to be there waiting for me when it's my turn to come to the Bridge to be with you. Until then, my precious one, remember the love we shared and none of the heartbreak when we were torn apart so suddenly. Your mamma loves you, Precious, now as much as ever. Never forget how strong that love is.
01/22/04 - No special day, my baby, just another day that I'm missing you so very much. What I wouldn't give to be able to hold you in my arms just one more time. How wonderful that would be. I know that is probably selfish of me, since I know you are in a much better place than I am right now, but I still love and miss you so. I would never take anything away from you. So, I guess those times are over for us, Baby, until we meet once again for that final meeting and you are in my arms for eternity. I love you my precious baby.
02/12/04 - Hi, my sweet baby. It's Mama's birthday, again, my second one since you left me. Remember all the presents and cake and ice cream and fun we used to have on birthdays (including yours and Poppy's)? You used to have so much fun playing with the discarded paper and always begged for some of the cake, which you could and did have, unless it was chocolate. You always had to help me unwrap my gifts each year. Well, this is the second year I've had to do that all by myself and I sure miss you. Birthdays are always special days, so I know you are still here with me, even if I can't hold you in my arms and watch you play. I know in my heart you are and will always be with me. And some day, my precious baby, we will be celebrating birthdays together, again. Some day, Sweetsie, the four of us will be reunited for eternity and our chain of love will be linked forever. Until then, remember that I love you and will always miss you, my precious baby.
02/14/04 - Well, my baby, the second Valentine's Day since you left me is here and my special little valentine is gone from my arms, but never from my heart. Your heart may have given out, but mine is still full of love for you. Eat all the chocolate you want, my precious, and think of your mama and how much she loves you and will until we are together once again.
05/01/04 - Happy birthday, my precious angel. You would be sweet sixteen today if you were still with us. I know, though, you are in a much better place than we could possibly offer you, but I can't imagine you are loved any more than when you were in my arms. You are and will always be in my heart, thus a part of me. I remember like it was yesterday the day we found you and your brothers in that box, squirming around with your little mother. Ask her about it and remind her, if she needs reminding, that it is your birthday. We will have a little party for Poppy, as we did every year for both of you, with cake and balloons and gifts. He will be sweet sixteen, also, and we pray we will celebrate many more birthdays with him in the years to come. I know you will be with us at the party, my precious one, for your presence is always with us. I know that you can feel the love that still exists and pray that yours is still as strong as the day you left me. I love you, my sweet angel. Happy Birthday!!!
06/07/04 - Time is flying by, my precious baby. Soon we will all be together, again, never more to be parted. Just be as patient as you always were with your mamma until that day comes and never forget how much I love you. Until the four of us are united once again, our love will grow stronger each and every day until our circle is joined in a link that will never be broken. Never forget how much you are loved, my precious, precious baby.
08/28/04 - My precious baby, it has now been two long years since you left me and went to the Bridge, two of the longest years of my life. My heart still aches every day to hold you in my arms once again. I have relived the night you left me so many times, but I can never change the ending. But my love for you will never end and all I can do now is wait for the day we meet at the Bridge and cross it together. Until that day, my precious one, you will live on in my heart and my mind. I will love you throughout all eternity, my precious baby. Until it is my turn to come to the Bridge, watch for me, for I am lost without you.

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