My Little Girl, Mdchi by donna maahs

My Little Girl, Mdchi

by donna maahs

I put Mdchi down this morning. Turned out she had a liver tumor that was bleeding into her abdomen and was causing her weakness (anemia); and then, later, fluid built up in her lungs. That's why she couldn't raise herself up from the floor on Friday. She is a sweet and loving girl and I know I'll miss her terribly. I took her just about everywhere I went from 7 weeks of age on. So she had all kinds of friends, in all kinds of placeslike the service station attendants at the Mobile Gas Station,. the cashiers at Larry's Market, the Culvert's cashier where we went for ice cream, all kinds of helpers at Wild Birds Unlimited, postal attendants, attendants at Friends of Nature, where we bought lots of her stuff and where someone always gave her a treat. (She even enjoyed going to her vet largely because the attendants always offered her treats and even though Dr. Ryce always seemed to prick her, she wanted to turn him into a friend nevertheless.) She was a friend to my hair dresser, David who always came out to give her a scratch and to get a kiss, and a friend of my chiropractor who gave her an adjustment or two when in need. In fact, if you are getting this email, she probably counted you among her friends. (Or, at least, I probably count you as one of mine!) In the end, perhaps I should have kept her at home to pass on in peace rather than taking her to the Emergency Clinic. But at the time, when she couldn't raise herself up from the floor, I felt I had to do everything I knew how to do, to keep her with me on this earth plane. But, she couldn't stay no matter how much I wanted her to. It feels that there is a great void in my life right now. She was so much a part of my plans and daily routinesand my dreams. It will be hard to go on "walks" without her and I will miss her bark alerting me that the deer are feeding at the corn feeder. I'll miss her pounce on the bed in the morning (right between my legs) where she would begin to nibble at me to roust me "up and at 'em" for the day! I'll miss seeing her "check" for me every time I left a roomeven checking in at the bathroom to see if I was there. I'll miss her bark that told me to stop talking and continue to work on her breakfast (or her dinner meal.) She would always finish her meal and then pick up the bowl and bring it to me for an extra couple treats! Oh, I will miss so many different ways, and the so many different "ways of being," of My Little Girl. She had some difficulties in her final hours, though. I think she felt she had to stay for me. Finally I told her, "It's Okay! You don't have to take care of me any more." And then I had a realization. "You were my Guardian Angel here on the earth plane," I told her, "and now you can be my Guardian Angel in Heaven." That seemed to calm her. She began to rest peacefully in my arms! I thought you would want to hear about our loving friend, my Sweet Girl, and my beloved companion, Mdchi. April 11, 1991September 19, 2004 Love, Donna, Mdchi (because she's still in my heart) and Mudgi (Mdchi's new kitty cat buddy)

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