Alfie was born with a heart murmur. He has been under his vet and cardiologist's care since. He had to have medication every day and took it like a trooper. All I had to do was tap his mouth and say open and he would open his mouth so I could throw in the pill. There were no signs that he was going to leave us. We assume your heart finally gave out. I am so glad daddy held you as you left us. Blackjack misses you too. He is looking for you. Your hair is still all over and I cannot bring myself to vaccuum it up just yet. My heart is empty without you. Find your brother, Izzy and take care of each other. Mommy will always love you!|
March 11, 2016 - I am missing you so much! I cannot understand why you are gone. I wish I could hold you one more time. Blackjack still cries for you. Mommy loves you and my heart is still broken without you.
October 1, 2016 - Blackjack is gone. All my boys are gone now. You are all together at the bridge. We miss you still so very much. I still don't understand why you are gone. You were too young to leave us. Blackjack got very sick. We didn't want him to suffer so we sent him to you and Izzy. Mommy loves you and misses you!
Wednesday, October 5, 2016 - Hi biggest! Mommy is so sad without all of her boys. I cannot believe I lost all of you in such a short time. And you were taken from us too soon. It is still so hard. I miss you. Mommy always loves you!
Friday, October 14, 2016 - Hi biggest! Just wanted you to know I am always thinking of you and Izzy and Blackjack. I miss you! Mommy loves you!
October 19, 2016 - Hi Alafer! Just wanted to tell you that I got two BEAUTIFUL stones to mark where you and Blackjack are. I will post a picture. I think of you every single day. I miss you. I can't believe you are gone. You were taken too young. Mommy loves you!
October 23, 2016 - My heart is in so much pain I don't know what to do. I miss you so much! I miss my boys. I miss holding you. I miss hearing you. I miss everything about you.
December 29, 2016 - I can't believe you are gone a year today. I miss you still so much. Both of my boys are gone. I am glad though you are safe with Blackjack at the Bridge. Our house was on fire on Christmas Eve. Everything is destroyed. Even though you are both gone all I could think about is what would have happened if you boys were there. I would have saved you but we have no place to go right now and it's just awful. And maybe the worst would have happened. But then I think. It did. You were taken from us too soon. The pain is still in my heart. I love and miss you my Alafer. Please come to me in my dreams. I need you. Mommy always loves you!
February 9, 2017 - Hi biggest! Thank you for coming to me in my dreams last night. I was a little out of it and don't know if I got to pet you or not. So please, come again. Mommy and daddy are still at the hotel. Mommy is very sick. I miss you and Blackjack and our home together so much it hurts. I wish I could turn back time. Just know that even if I can't get here very often that I am thinking of you all the time. Mommy always loves you!
October 1, 2017 - My biggest boy! I'm sorry I haven't been here. You know I love you. We are still not living at home and it has been such a hard year for mommy and daddy. My heart is still so empty without you. Blackjack and Izzy came to see me this past week. Please come to me. I need to hold you and pet you. I love you! Mommy always loves you!
April 9, 2018 - Hi Alafer! Been a while. Daddy and I are home. It's so different there. Even though it's different, I still "see" you sometimes. I miss you still. I know I'm still your mommy but I miss being a mommy. Mommy always loves you!