Some days are hard, some are extremely hard and some are unbearable.

My dearest beautiful Luna. Three weeks has passed since you left my side. Three long weeks. Never have I been without you for this long since you came into my life at the age of 7 weeks. This has been the hardest weeks of my life. I miss you SO much, and my heart aches to just see you walking up to me again to cuddle or just wanting me to play with you.

You left this life so sudden. So unexpected. I thought I had many more years with you. I believed the best was yet to come. You turned 9 in June, and as the senior you were I felt like I had to spoil you even more than before. You were healthy, you looked young and you were so vital. So full of life and happiness.
You loved life Luna. So much. Every season you found joy. And you brought joy to everyone who were lucky to have you in their life.

Oktober 12th will remain as the worst day in my life. My day turned to night, my happy turned sad, my full heart broke into pieces and my dreams became nightmares. I lost a big part of me, and I have NO idea how to even begin to feel happy with you not being a part of it.

My big gorgeous German Shepardbaby <3 I have a glass framed photo of you on my wall. I have a memory box with your stuff. NO one else will ever play with your favorite toys. They will stay there forever. Everything at home is you Luna. YOU are everywhere, and you will walk with me for the rest of my life. Yesterday I got a tattoo of your beautiful face.

"If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever".

Miss you baby. Every moment of the day. One day I will see you again at the rainbow bridge, where you will be running towards me and stay by my side forever. Now I need to figure out how to live the rest of my life without you. And I can't even write that down without crying. </3

7.11.19

I miss you Lunababy. I want to stand on the top of a mountain and cry my heart out loud. Today at work was rough. It was quiet. It was Thursday. A day you ALWAYS went with me to work. Closing the door, waiting for you to run up to me being sooo happy. It feels empty all the time, but it felt extremely empty today closing up and leaving the store without you. Pia mi ;( Exactly four weeks ago at this time, you were coming up to me with your ball because you wanted me to throw it to you. EVEN if you never wanted to let go of the ball. But you stood there, as you always used to. With the ball in your mouth looking at me with your beautiful brown puppyeyes. I threw the ball to you a couple of times, maybe even three times this evening before you went to lay down on your bed. Then you have had enough.
What if I had known this was your very last time I would throw you a ball? Did you feel that your body wasn't like it used to? Should I have seen the signs earlier?

Your eyes; I thought they began to look a little cloudy at times.. and the mark on your skin that we went to check out only a month earlier..was that a part of this sickness too? It hurts so extremely much to NOT know, and being unable to see certain signs of your body being sick before it was too late.
I can't believe I lost you at the age of 9, I would've done everything in my power to keep you here with me longer ;(
I was looking forward to your senior years Luna..I even made you a passport so we could travel down Europe next year..
Every dream I had, you were involved in. I never thought any further than not having you in my life anymore.
The light in my life. I miss the sound of your collar, I miss your lovely furry ears..I miss how you were drooling all over the floor when drinking water <3
I miss letting you of the leash so you could run in the woods and pick up a stick or a pinecone(kongle)to carry with you (you were always SO proud). I miss your head tilting to the side when I talked to you, I miss the cosy sound you made when you were tired, SO much...I miss your intelligent eyes and the sweetest nose in the world. I miss you barking when someone rings the door, I miss you jumping out of the car being ecstatic before a trip. I miss how you stopped and peed whenever you felt like it. (Like in the middle of the road). I miss the long walks, I miss the extremely content feeling I had around you. I miss coming home to you, to your wagging tail and all those wet dogkisses. I miss how happy I felt with you by my side, and your unconditional love..
My shadow, my baby, my best friend <3
I love you and I miss you every single moment of the day. Nothing or no one can ever replace you. You were and always will be my number 1.

9.11.19

Today has been very hard. The weekends have been extra rough, but this day has been very painful </3 I MISS YOU!! Today it has been exactly 4 weeks since you tragically passed away.. The way the moon shines these days make me believe you are with me at all times..and when I asked for a sign, I saw a sparkle in the sky a few minutes later. My angel baby. I have cried so much today.. I remember how you used to make bad feelings disappear, you always made me feel better when I had a rough day. How am I supposed to go on without you?

14.11.19

My baby. I have found a couple of groups on facebook with people who are going to the exact same thing as I am. Loosing the best thing in their world ;( Last night was my first night home alone after you left. You visited me in my dreams, and in the dreams I knew you were gone.. Then I woke up, feeling more empty than ever. Always when I've had a bad dream before I have been SO happy to see your face. You gave me so much comfort Lunababy. I have cried so much today as well, it has been hard being home. No routine. I miss making you food, I miss taking you out for a walk, I miss how you always knew I was done in the bathroom when I put mascara on.. I miss feeling safe. You made me feel so safe, so happy, and so at ease. I didn't care about anything else, as long as I had you. The most important thing in my life <3 The snow is here..the weather has literally been perfect since you left. I hate that. A little bit of snow.. you would have been ecstatic. You loved the snow SO much, and I loved watching how happy it made you. The winter was your favorite, no question about it. And you made me love the winter too.. Now Christmas is around the corner. I hate that. Just before Christmas last year we moved in to our new apartment. You got your huge bed before I got me a sofa. (You rather wanted to lay on the floor). I don't want Christmas now. </3 Savner deg babyen min, hele tiden, hver eneste sekund ;(

22.11.19

Everything feels so unfair. it wasn't your time to go, you deserved more years with happiness playing in the snow, swimming, chasing balls.. </3

It has been 6 weeks since the last time we went for a walk.
The last time I got to stroke your furry ears,
the last time you looked at me with your beautiful eyes,
not understanding what happened to you.
The last time you walked out the door..
The last time I got to hug you, feel your warmth and tell you how much I love you.
The last car ride, not knowing it would be our last together.

I miss you Luna, so much that it hurts in my bones. My life has fallen apart. I am standing still while the world is moving on. I don't want to leave you behind, I want you to come back into my life. I know that's impossible. But I feel like I'm in a bubble. My emotions are extreme, I cry, I hate, I love, i smile, I laugh.. You are with me through every emotion. I don't know how to handle this. It scares me how life goes on, and you are not a part of it. For ME you will always be a part of life. But how about everyone else? It hurts so much when you aren't included in future plans. When your name aren't mentioned. It was always me and you. We had a magnificent bond, and you were truly the bestest friend in the whole wide world. There will never be another you.
Thank you for visiting my dream again, my love. It feels so real, all of a sudden you were right there in front of me. I screamed your name out loud as I hugged you SO close to me. We connected. Just as the last time I dreamt of you just after you passed. I believe you are still here, that your energy/spirit is watching over me. I woke up, holding my necklace with you in my hand. it was so warm. It is hard to explain how it all felt. But there is no doubt that I felt you here. Kira is here now, she is so quiet here..sleeping on your spot, or in the sofa. It's like she feels your energy too. Probably even more than I do.
I believe you also have Chica and morfar with you. Even Diba, who you never met <3 You all make an amazing team. And I will see you all again, I believe that. But, it doesn't help on the pain I'm feeling now. Because you helped me through difficult parts of my life. You came into my life and made it so much better Luna, exactly when I needed you most. I love you, to the moon and back and forever and ever. You are with me in everything i do, in everything I think about and in all I see. As long as I am alive, you will be too.

2.12.19

Luna. Lunamor. Gamlemor. Lunababy. Supergirl. Babygirl. Baby. Gullet. Kospia. Engelen. Vakkerskatten. Toillsjura. Luniz. Luneytunez. Lunze. Boble. Dronninga. Pia mi. Oh how i MISS calling your name and nicknames. </3 I feel so lost without you. I need your support, I need you in my life. Come back to me, let this all be a terrible nightmare..please, please!! I cant bare this emptiness. You were SO much life. Now it's all so silent. So extremely silent. I have dreamt about you lately. First, a bad dream.. I felt awful, I begged for your to appear in my dream again and you did <3 It was a much better dream, but so hard waking up not seeing you beautiful face wanting your mommy to wake up. It kills me not being able to just feel you close to me again. I wish I had appreciated our time together so much more. Jeg savner å kysse den bløte kalde snuten din, jeg savner å klø deg mellom potene, som du elsket fordi det klødde så mye..jeg savner lukten av deg. Jeg savnet ALT.

Christmas is coming up. I hate that. Soon you have been gone for 2 months..two whole months without you. It drives me crazy. I still can't believe you really are gone. I don't want to celebrate Christmas this year. I have nothing to celebrate. Nothing feels fun. You were the good in my life. You brought the happy to my life, the joy and the laughter. And of course, so much love. So much unconditional love.

I miss you, I love you, and I think of you all the time. As long as I live, you will live too, inside what's left of my heart. Til I see you again my little big baby.

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14.12.19

Dagene går min kjære Luna. Men det går ikke en dag uten at jeg tenker på deg og savner deg noe så inderlig. Mitt hjerte er knust i tusen biter. Jeg kan virkelig ikke tro du er borte fra meg for alltid. Når Burre var i bilen igår, og måten han sitter på..det så ut som deg. Hjertet mitt synker i et hull, hvor jeg prøver å finne tegn fra deg, å se deg, føle deg og være nær deg igjen. Every day that passes in one day closer to being with you again. I dont feel happiness. I feel like an empty shell. I know you wouldn't want me to be miserable, but i also know you must miss me too. :( I believe you are with morfar and Chica, and all the other sweet dogs that has been in our lives that you never met. I hope you don't hate me f0r not being able to save you. I would have done everything. ANYthing. I hope the place you are now is better than earth.. it must be. And thank you for the signs you have shown me. Please don't ever stop.. U are the moon. U are in everything good I see and feel, you are my sweet little babygirl, that I miss so extremely. I had no idea I had so much tears Luna.. At times I still think this is all just a nightmare. An awful nightmare. My days are constantly dark. I drown myself in work, which keep me occupied. But, it doesn't take the pain away. It doesn't make me miss you any less. </3
I see all the pictures I took the last year, and the last weeks before you passed. So many pictures, you don't look sick at all. How could I have known? You were such a tough girl though, you didnt show any signs before it was too late.. I wish I could go back in time, so much. U deserved SO much more than this Lunalove. My heart dog forever and always. I am so lost without you :(

26.12.19

Christmas used to be one of our quality times. Long days at work being rewarded with many days off work at home with you. I miss you SO much </3 My heart aches to feel you near again. I can't believe I´ll never see you again in this lifetime. It hurts SO much to think about. I have dreamt about you, in those dreams you weren't gone and everything were normal. I am almost done with your album <3 My pride and joy. My babygirl. You have been with me every day this Christmas, every moment, every minute I have thought of you. Sharing memories of you. I can't believe I will start this new year without creating any new memories with you my baby. This new year was supposed to be our best, you were supposed to have a unique birthday, as you would've turned 10 years old in June. Its so unfair. You were only 9 years old, so young at heart. I hate this. I hate how unfair life is. I want you back in my life ;( You were my very best friend. I love you to the moon and back Lunalove, and you are with me in my heart every moment of the day.

4.1.20

.... Someday when it's right, our souls will reunite and we will never be apart again... I miss you Luna. It has been three months. My heart still bleeds, everyday I have moments when I fall apart and cry. I try to be strong babygirl. I just miss you so much. Life is so unfair. You deserved more than this. You deserved to be more than 9 years old. My love. I see your face so clearly. I have your leash and collar with your smell..I am so scared to lose every piece of you, I try to hold on to every little thing that I have, that involves you... I don't want to finish anything... I am almost finished with your memorial album <3 I believe it will turn out beautifully. You were my angel here on earth, now you are my angel in heaven.. I HAVE to believe we will meet again, you and I. It was always us. You and me Luna. You were my whole life. Now my life is extremely empty. I don't want to fill the void you have left behind with anything. You are irreplaceable. ;( Jeg elsker deg, min skatt <3

"Until one has loved a dog, a part of one's soul remains unawakened" - Anatole France

21.1.20

"Don´t wake me up. Now that you're gone even the sun is turning blue. What good is love, if you're not here for me to give it to. What good is love, without you.."

I miss you vakkerskatten min. When I get so preoccupied at work, I even have short moments when I forget that you are gone. That you are at home waiting for me. Looking through the window, waiting for me to open the door. You were so happy then.. wagging your tail, making all those lovely sounds that I miss dearly. It hurts. It hurts SO much. I never knew I could produce so much tears. I never knew my heart could ache THIS much. I always dreaded the day I would lose you. But I thought I would have time to prepare. To see you become old, and tired of life. To see you looking at me, telling me it was time. I would've missed you just as much. And I can't say the pain would've been different. But I know how much it hurts now. That you got robbed from years being a senior dog. It hurts so much knowing I yelled at you those times you barked at work last year.. You were only looking out for me.. It was your job. I am so sorry. Forgive me please. I loved you the most. I loved life with you. My best friend, my heart. You were my everything. </3 Soon I will be getting a necklace that Is made from some of your ashes. Its beautiful, and I will use it on special occasions because I will be terrified of losing it.
Thank you my love, for appearing in my dreams now and then. Last night I dreamt of you, but it was like everything was normal. Like thrown back in time, and you were there like you always were..by my side <3 I wish I could've hugged you more in my dream and smelled you. I miss your smell Lunamor. SO much. I hope you forgive me for bringing another furbaby into my life. She will NEVER replace you. EVER. I just can't deal with this on my own.

I love you and I miss you babygirl, every moment of the day. The house feels SO extremely empty without you. And I´m just lost. So please, stay beside me. We will meet again one day love and then we will never be apart <3.

22.2.20

My baby. It has been a whole month since i have written in here. It doesn't mean I haven't thought of you. I have thought of you every moment of the day. Every step I have taken, with every move I make and every waken moment. You are there with me. I have a really really hard time here without you. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I wasn't supposed to live here, in this apartment without you. I was looking forward to many more years, making sure you got some great senior years and treat you like the queen you were. My best friend. My heart Is forever broken. About two weeks ago I welcomed a new furbaby in my life. A white longhaired gsd. Her name is Izi-Alba. <3 Oh how I wish you were here to raise her to become exactly like you. I hope a part of you is a part of her. It seems like it. I am not exactly prepared for this puppy life. Its overwhelming, and it does take up a lot of my time. But it doesn't make me miss you less. More the opposite. I compare her to you, even if I promised myself I wouldn't do so. I think I have forgotten about your "crazy pup days". Because I know you drove me crazy at times too.. But, you turned out perfectly Luna, and hopefully Alba will too.. Your spirit is everywhere, always. And I hope you are guiding us on our way. I hope you will wait for me, because I long to hold you again. I am not looking forward to the future. It hurts so much thinking about easter, spring, and summer without you being a part of It all. I had a sleep recorder I listened to from oct.9 yesterday.. I woke up talking to you, oh how I miss the routine of you waking me up with those snot kisses of yours. I cry now, I cry everyday. Maybe because I feel like everyone else is moving on, and is expecting me to do the same with my new furbaby. But I can't move on without you. Yes, I work, I breathe, I exist... But I don't truly live anymore. Losing you my love, was the worst thing ever happening to me. I am so lost.

I miss you so ;( Please come visit my dreams again soon? I love you, and for as long as I breathe, you will be remembered, honored and loved.
My number one, always and forever. <3

22.3.20

My dearest angel. My eyes are filled with tears. I miss you SO much. I have a really hard time finding any joy in life these days. I don't feel excited about anything. I don't look forward to anything.. because I know it won't involve you anymore </3 I wish you were here to raise little Alba with me. This snow angel that has joined my life. She will never take your place. You are irreplaceable. But, she is a beautiful soul that i already love so much. You and her are so different, but I see some similarities at times. That is both painful og lovely <3 I still can't comprehend that I won't see you again until my last breath here on earth. But, I believe you will be there waiting on me, so I am not afraid when that day happens..because I believe your energy will greet me and give me a safe passage over to the other side <3
I miss you more than anything. Thank you for bringing Alba in my life, my sweet love. You are with me, everyday, in everything I do. <3

2.5.20

Kjære Lunamin.. jeg tenker på deg hele tiden. Tiden går, men tiden stoppet da du forsvant ut mitt liv. Jeg får enda ikke til å forstå at jeg aldri skal klemme på deg igjen, kjenne på den myke gode pelsen din, se din enorme livsglede da jeg kastet ball, pinner og leker til deg.. Selv om jeg fikk restriksjoner om å gjøre dette på grunn av leddene dine, så klarte jeg ikke å la være.. det var det du elsket mest. Du var som en valp, til siste slutt. Tenk det. Jeg er så lei meg for at du endte ditt liv et sted jeg lovte du IKKE skulle ende ditt liv.. </3 My heart is forever broken, og selv om jeg går igjennom hverdagen så går jeg ikke videre..jeg står stille. Fasaden får bare være, denne smerten vil være med meg til jeg en gang får møte din fantastiske energi igjen. Min bestevenn. Hjertet mitt <3 Det føles som jeg konstant har et sår på hjertet som bare blør og blør.. jeg savner deg sånn. Some days, busy days.. slik som det har vært de siste ukene..så får jeg ikke mye fri i mine tanker til å føle så mye. Det er egentlig bra, selv om sorgen kommer som en bølge, kan dukke opp når som helst og hvor som helst..men mest hjemme, på kvelden, eller når jeg er ute på tur med Alba.. lille skjønne Alba. Hun er så god.. jeg skulle ønske du var her og oppdro henne sammen med meg. Hun elsker pinner, som deg. Og dess større pinne, dess stoltere er hun. Det gir meg glede og sorg på samme tid. Jeg kan ikke skjønne at for noen måneder siden så var livet completely different. Vi var i så god steam, du og jeg.. med trening, kosthold, og ikke minst turer.. så mange flotte turer vi hadde i 2019 du og jeg <3 Det er SÅ vondt å ikke kunne gi deg den pensjonisttilværelsen du fortjente. Vi skulle kose oss her på Tiller, du skulle være med meg på jobb i flere år til.. Og jeg skulle skjemme deg bort, ta igjen for tapt tid de årene du ikke var med meg på jobb.. ;( Alle skrøt sånn av deg. Den vakreste hunden, uten tvil <3 Du fikk så mange komplimenter, til og med på dine eldre dager..lillegull <3 Mine tårer tar aldri slutt. Jeg håper så inderlig det er et sted etter dette, hvor vi treffes igjen. Jeg MÅ tro på det, for å komme meg gjennom dette livet..and i do believe <3 Elsker deg skatten min. Vi nærmer oss 10-års dagen din. Den blir ikke som jeg hadde planlagt.. jeg har tatt fri fra jobb, og jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal gjøre for å hedre deg denne dagen enda. Det gjør så vondt Lunzebaby. Det gjør så inderlig vondt, alt sammen. :(

7.6.20

My Lunalove. I was supposed to write an entry in here on your birthday June 5th. I spent the whole day in your spirit my love. From the clock turned 12 midnight I went outside and saw a huge bright full moon. That was a huge sign for me and I began crying, knowing you were right there with me in spirit and that you would be throughout the whole day <3 Thank you my shining star. You would've turn 10 the 5th of June. I never imagined celebrating that day without you. I had never imagined you would leave my life so soon. I truly believed you would spend far more years with me. I can't comprehend this, its still so hard to accept it. But the signs you are showing, are helping me. I had Kira here from Thursday til Saturday. On Friday we all ate bread with leverpostei <3 That was the first thing we did. Then we went to Estenstadmarka. We walked from where you and I lived for 4 years <3 That was so special. I felt a little lost up in the woods, and I know if you were there you would know exactly where to go to come to Estenstaddammen so you could go for a swim. Oh how you loved swimming..SO much. It breaks my heart to pieces knowing you won't feel that joy anymore. Alba loves the water too. I believe a part of you is within her. The way she learns so quickly..I believe there is a part of you in her <3 I sat down on the spot where I have a video of you from last year..I remember throwing a stick in the water many times that wonderful day..It was a beautiful day, just like your birthday were this year. I am so glad I had Kira with me too <3 I had some of your ashes with me..and let it in the water from where you last were swimming. It was a very special moment my Lunalove. I am not ready to let the rest of your ashes go yet. My plan was to let it out in Tydal..we will see when and if I'm ever gonna be ready. Kospia mi. <3 Du elsket Estenstadmarka, du kjente den mye bedre enn meg. Dine turer med Per Anders, Mona, meg, pappa...<3 skatten min. Det var skogen din det <3 Jeg savner deg HELE tiden. Tårene min triller så ofte enda, og du tok med en stor bit av Hjertet mitt da du dro. Jeg elsker deg.Takk for du dukket opp I drømmen min også, I går natt. Det betydde så for meg. Ser fram til dagen jeg ser deg igjen, gullet mitt. <3

12.10.20

Gullet mitt <3 Jeg tenker på deg hver eneste dag. Flere ganger har jeg tenkt å skrive noen ord her inne, men jeg har ikke maktet det med tanke på alt som har skjedd i livet. De har blitt i mine tanker <3 I dag er det akkurat et år siden du ble revet fra meg. Verste dagen i mitt liv. Jeg glemmer aldri øynene dine, da du bare sluttet å puste..da du ga slipp, og ikke vil kjempe mer ;( Jeg skulle ønske jeg visste mer om den grusomme sykdommen som spiste deg opp innenfra uten at jeg visste det ;( Da hadde jeg passet på mer. Men jeg skjønte det ikke. Jeg forsto ikke hvorfor du var så slapp. Det gjorde ikke dyrlegen jeg snakket med på FaceTime heller. Kink i nakken eller noe, trodde vi. Men du hadde null energi, null matlyst, du var så tørst.. og jeg tvang i deg smertestillende, fordi jeg trodde du hadde vondt på helt andre måter. Jeg er så sint. Jeg er så lei meg. Ditt siste døgn satt du 5 timer i bilen. Tur/retur hytta..og en tur inne hos mormor. Jeg får så vondt av å tenke på dette.. Det knuser meg, om og om igjen. Hva om jeg bare hadde dratt til dyrlegen med engang.. Kunne du blitt reddet da? Kunne jeg fått litt mer tid sammen med deg. Kunne du sluppet å dø, på plassen du hatet mest? (Hos dyrlegen). Jeg får aldri svar på dette, og det føles som jeg har feilet deg. Jeg er tom innvendig. Jeg håper du kan tilgi meg, kjære Lunamin. Sist uke var jeg nær ved å miste Alba i skogen. Men, jeg tror du guidet henne tilbake til oss <3 du, og farmor. Jeg håper du har tatt godt vare på farmor Luna. Jeg savner henne så mye. Jeg kan ikke tro jeg har mistet 2 av de viktigste i mitt liv i løpet av bare ett år. Det gjør så grusomt vondt. Men jeg tror på at dere har det bra nå. Ingen smerter. Bare kjærlighet og energier. Jeg tror også dere følger med på meg nå og da. Og at dere venter på meg, den dagen det er min tur til å komme til dere. Lurer på om du har møtt alle de andre hundsjelene fra Stubban <3 Chica og du er jo som erteris. Men hva med Diba? Jeg tenker på henne også. Hun var også veldig glad i meg <3 Og min første hund. Jeg håper dere alle er sammen, og med farmor og morfar. Savnet er uutholdelig.
Jeg føler at jeg bare lever, og ikke eksisterer.. i et vakuum. Alba gir meg mye kjærlighet. Takk for at du sendte akkurat henne til meg <3

Preciosa Luna - mi numero uno, siempre <3

13.12.20

Skatten min. Jeg savner deg så mye. Det gjør så ekstra vondt i hjertet mitt i dag, og tårene triller. Dette blir min andre jul uten deg. Jula i fjor var ingen jul. Det var tomhet, stillhet og sorg. I år blir det annerledes, det er liv her. Kjære fine Alba er god å ha og passer på jeg ikke blir alene. Men jeg vil savne deg like mye fordi. Du skulle vært her enda. Jeg føler jeg sviktet deg. Min kjære vakre Luna. Babyen min. Jeg blir så glad hver gang jeg ser en langhåret schæfer, men det får meg til å savne deg ekstra mye. Du var hjertet mitt. Denne jula blir spesiell. Både du og farmor er borte. Jeg vet dere er sammen nå, og venter på alle oss som er igjen her nede <3 Verdens beste, dere to.

Savnet er der, alltid. Men jeg er så takknemlig for at jeg fikk dere to i mitt liv <3

02.05.21

Lunababy <3 Tårene renner når jeg kommer innom siden din, og melodien begynner å spille :( Jeg savner deg sånn. Jeg savner din herlige personlighet, din lekenhet, bare hele deg og hvor mye du elsket å være her i dette livet sammen med meg. Det er så sinnsykt urettferdig at du ble tatt ifra meg i din aller beste alder, på den grusomme måten det skjedde i tillegg.. Jeg kommer ALDRI over det :( Jeg er så sliten Luna, jeg er så tom for energi for tiden. Det er vel mye som er en grunn til det, og det er at jeg har en baby i magen min <3 Det er så rart at du ikke skal møte den lille, jeg vet du hadde blitt en fantastisk storesøster. Så mye glede du ville funnet i den lille som hadde foret deg med mat og lekt med deg hele tiden.. Ja, jeg vet du er med meg baby Luniz.. men jeg skulle ønske du var her i flesh også..og flyttet tilbake til Stubban med meg der vi hører hjemme <3 Alba hadde elsket deg. Du hadde vært en streng storesøster, men rettferdig (og tatt alle lekene selv) haha.. Jeg håper du og farmor er sammen og koser dere og tar vare på hverandre til jeg ser dere igjen. Gi mye kjærlighet til alle der oppe jeg savner og er glad i .. <3 Ingen er glemt her nede <3 Du er med meg alltid, send meg styrke for det trenger jeg mye av fremover <3

09.08.21

Luna skatten min. Dagene går så fort. Sommeren er snart over, men jeg har heldigvis to uker igjen. Kroppen er tung, og pusten likeså.. Jeg savner deg skatten min <3 Dagen i dag var ubeskrivelig tøff. Du vet nok hvorfor, for jeg vet du følger med oss. Kira opererte i dag, og det vi trodde bare skulle bli en liten operasjon, ble en stor en hvorpå hun må ha en stor operasjon til.. uten at vi vet hva som skjer videre. Det er grusomt vondt. Kirababy er bare 8 år, hun har mange fine år igjen og vi har fått nok smerte her nede på en god stund nå.. Kan ikke du passe på så hun blir her hos oss mye lengre? Du dro fra oss alt for tidlig, det kan ikke skje med Kira også.. :( At livet går fra høye oppturer til nedturer er tøft.. i hvert fall når det ikke føles som det er noen pauser. Du er med meg i tankene min hver dag, og du har nok følt tårene mine i dag <3 Pass på mamsen din Luna, og send mye styrke til Marianne og Kira også <3

12.10.22

My first baby <3 I miss you! Although I haven't written much in here lately due to busy days with baby Julie and Alba, you are always with me in my thoughts. Last night and today has been hard.. three long hectic and strange years has passed without you in it. 1/3 of your life here on earth. It feels so unrealistic. I cry, I cry often. I always cry when I'm alone thinking about you. Life has been hard lately. Alba is a great joy and she is an amazing big sister to Julie, as I know you also would have been. I believe you have told Alba how to behave so amazing somehow. You truly did send the right dog to me when you left. But I wish you were here too. A big part will always be missed, and my heart will never be totally full again. I've had a babygirl! A beautiful little sunshine named Julie, after grandma. She knows who you are, and she will learn everything about you my love <3 I could have written so much more, I think I will write back again soon. It helps. I know you are with me, the smell on your collar is gone..but, the smell on your leash was still there <333 I will see you again, ok? I hope you and grandma are having an amazing time up in heaven waiting on us <3 one day, Luna, one day.. until then I will carry you with me everyday. Mye kos fra mamsen <33