March 1, 2017
Hi Baby,
I wish I didn't have to delete my messages to you in order to write you another message. Makes me sad, because they are apart of my memories. Always know how much we love you, and please never forget us. I'm very tired tonight, as I had a really bad day. Otherwise, I would write more. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

April 2, 2017
Hi Steve,
I'm sorry I forgot to write to you yesterday. I don't even know what was on my mind that caused me to forget. It's getting so hard to think of something different to say to you. Heck, I don't even know if anyone reads my notes to you or not. I hope so. Soon you'll be gone nine years. Sometimes that's hard to believe, and other times, it seems much longer. We will always remember you with a lot of love and miss you forever. Love, Mama and Buddy

May 1, 2017

Hi Baby,
Today is your nine year marker, and I just want you to know that you are not forgotten, I can't write much, because for some reason this site is being so slow. I had to delete a message just to write this. I hate deleting my messages to you. I love you and Buddy loves you too, and we will miss you forever. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

June 3, 2017

Hi Steve,
Yay, Ginny fixed it to where I can write to you again. I always write to you on the 1st, but was unable to. I just wanted you to know that we sure do love you and miss you every day. You will never be forgotten. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

July 1, 2017
Hi Baby,
Time to renew your residency at Rainbow Bridge. You've been gone now for 9yrs. and 2mos. Hard to believe. You will always be loved and missed. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

August 1, 2017
Hi Baby,
I wish I could think of different things to write to you. Our lives are uneventfull. Your Buddy goes to work every day, and I mostly stay at home crocheting and spending time with Cooper, who by the way, is as sweet as you always were. He has a lot of personality, as did you. He is very entertaining, and does his best to not only please us, but makes us laugh. We will always love and miss you, and never forget about you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

September 1, 2017
Hi Baby,
I don't know why, but it gets harder and harder to think of something to write. I don't get out enough and go places. I'm home most all the time, so my everyday life stays pretty much the same. I haven't been doing all that much. Crocheting a afghan right now. I often think about you hating me to pick up my crochet hook and yarn, lol! I don't work anymore, so about the only people I see are the one's at the grocery and pharmacy stores. Sorry I'm such a boring mom. I love you Steve, and still tell you your bedtime prayer every single night. You use to listen to it, then we'd kiss each other goodnight. I hope you're still listening. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

November 1, 2017
Hi Baby,
First I want to tell you how sorry I am that I kept forgetting to write to you last month. I don't know why that was, but here I am..... finally. We sure do love you Steve and miss you every day and every year. I've been dealing with a lot of health issues, so maybe that's what kept me from remembering. I hope you're happy in heaven, I just would rather have you here with us. Cooper is a sweetheart, and so loving. He's a lot of company, and I don't regret us getting him. He's a rescue baby like you were. Buddy is fine and working hard, and I no longer have to work. Wish I could have had the opportunity to stay home with you, like I can with Cooper. We love you, and will always love you. I'll try not to forget to write to you next month. Love Mama and Buddy ♥

December 1, 2017
Hi Baby,
I didn't slack off and forget to write. Not a whole lot going on here. I'm dealing with a lot of anxiety, which I really hate. I need help! Christmas will soon be here, and I'm still undecided about decorating the Christmas tree. As usual I've not been able to save any money, so not many presents again, which makes me sad. Cleaning the living room for a tree sounds exhausting to me. Your Buddy is fine, working hard. Cooper is a happy guy all the time, and I'm a wreck most days. Wish you were here. We love you Steve. We always will, and love you so much. I guess I don't know what else to say for now. Please watch over us, and never forget us. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

March 1, 2018
Hi Sweety,
I'm so sorry it's took this long to write to you. If I'm not forgetting, I'm turning off the computer and going to bed. I think I'm just going to start writing to you when I can think of things to say. It's not easy anymore. I don't have much of a life, Steve. I hardly go out anymore, mainly stay home. I don't like to go out in the heat, or by myself and if I don't feel good, it's easier just to stay in. I wish I could have stayed home with you like I do with Cooper. Back then, I had to work everyday. I'm so sorry. I want you to know that even when I don't write, I always think of you. I still say your bedtime prayer every single night, and kiss your pictures on the wall. We will always love you forever. I miss the signs you use to send me. They made me happy, and let me know that you are always here. We love you sweetheart. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

April 2, 2018
Hi Baby,
I'm sorry I didn't write yesterday. It's getting harder for me to think of something different to say. I don't know why. Maybe it's because next month will be your ten year marker or maybe it's because I don't have much of a life. I stay home most of the time these days. I wish I could go back in time and didn't have to work when you were with us, so I would have more time with you like I do with Cooper. I'm sorry I crocheted when you didn't want me to. Had I known when I was making that blanket for a former friend that you would leave us the next month, I wouldn't have done it. I will always feel guilty. I'm sorry Steve, I didn't know. It's been a very long time since you sent me a sign. I sure wish you would, so I would know you haven't forgotten us. We love you so much. We always will. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

May 1, 2018
Hi Steve,
Ten years ago today was the worst day of our lives. I prayed and prayed you were going to be ok and be coming home with us. I remember everything as if it were yesterday. Our hearts were broken. I don't want to talk too much about it, as I still cry when I think about that day and the days, months, and years to come. Cooper brings joy and smiles to our lives, but of course no one can ever replace you baby. I never fail to still tell you your bedtime prayers every night. I hope you notice that, and I kiss your pictures before I go to bed. I love you Steve, and will always love you and never forget what a special sweet baby you always was and is. Buddy loves you too, and we will forever. It's been a long time since you sent me a sign. I sure wish you would. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

June 1, 2018
Hi Baby,
I almost forgot to write before I shut down the computer. I don't have much to tell you this time. I've been sick for two weeks, but getting better. I mostly stay home, as it is too hot to be outside. Your buddy over did it today. He wanted to go to the movies, and he stayed out in the heat too long, and came home not feeling very well. Hopefully tomorrow he'll have better judgment. We're doing ok otherwise. We miss you as always and will always love you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

August 1, 2018
Hi Baby,
Oops, I didn't realize that I forgot to write to you last month. I'm so sorry, but know I love you anyway. I don't know what to say tonight. Not much going on these days to tell you about. Lately though I have been seeing lots of butterflies, and it makes me think you are sending them to me. I hope so, because I sure miss you Steve. I really feel bad that I totally forgot about July. Must be this new medication that I am going to try to get off of, because all I want to do is sleep. Hopefully I'll have more to say next month. We love and miss you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

October 1, 2018
Hi Baby,
I guess I forgot to write to you last month. I'm sorry about that, but I've been pretty sick, and then your Aunt Dorothy died yesterday. I'm also sorry that I don't know what to write about. I'm still not feeling well, but wanted to tell you that I love you and I miss you. Hopefully next time I write I'll have more to say. We love you, Mama and Buddy ♥

November 1, 2018
Hi Baby,
Your mama almost forgot to write to you tonight, but luckily I remembered just as I was about to shut off the computer. We're doing fairly well I suppose. I don't get out much, and that's mostly because it's so hot. Tomorrow I'm planning on going with your Buddy to get my hair cut and hang out for awhile. Not very exciting, I know, but I really don't have a whole lot to write about. I wish I could have quit working while you were still with us. I would have loved to have been able to spend more time with you. I'm hoping I'm good enough to see you again some day when it's time, and if I'm good enough, I will never leave you. I miss you Steve, and I always will. We both will. We love you, Mama and Buddy ♥

December 1, 2018
Hi Baby,
I'm not in a good mood to be writing you today, but it's the first of the month, and I didn't want you to think I forgot. Been really depressed for awhile Steve. Skin problems as well as health, plus your Aunt Dorothy died a month ago, and a close friend died two weeks ago, so I'm pretty sad. Your Buddy has been sick as well, but he needed to get out of the apt. today. I was going to go with him, but felt like staying home instead. We love you, and you're missed everyday. I wish I could write something cheery, but I just don't feel it these days. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

February 2, 2019
Hi Baby,
Well, it looks like not only did I forget to write to you yesterday, but I forgot to write to you last month. Wow, I'm so sorry mama forgot. Makes me feel bad Steve. Every night I never forget to tell you your bedtime prayer and kiss your picture every night. Can't believe that I didn't think to write to you in January. It's kinda hard to think of things to say, as I mostly stay home. Either it's too hot to get out or it's too cold. We're okay otherwise. I probably forgot because of all the doctor appointments and tests I had to do last month. I'm sorry baby. I hope you have met my friend Jan. She knows all about you. She went to Heaven in November, and I can truthfully say, she was my only true friend. Also, your Aunt Dorothy left us in September. You're altogether now. We sure do miss you and love you so much. Please help the Lord watch over Cooper, as soon he will need a operation, and I worry about everything. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

March 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
I almost forgot to write to you. I don't know why, because I've known all day long that it was the first of a new month. Maybe it's because I had a shock today. I wasn't expecting my friend who lives downstairs was moving out and away from me, until today, so that's been on my mind. Forgive me for not writing much this time. My eyes are getting sleepy and tired. Been on this silly computer for hours, so I'm fixing to go to bed. I just didn't want to wait to write to you tomorrow. We're doing okay I guess. Sorry, I'm a little down in the dumps tonight. My good friend Jan died a few months ago, and now it feels like I'm losing another friend. I sure do love you Steve and miss you every day and every year. I'll try to have more to say next month. I just don't get out enough. We miss you and love you so much. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

April 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
I sure wish I had something interesting to write to you about on this day, but I don't really have much of a life. I stay home practically every day, so I feel boring. I just don't want you to feel as though I have forgotten about you, because I never will. I wish that I could go back in time and spend as much time with you back then as I do with Cooper now, but mama had to work, and now I don't. I have wished so many times that I had stopped crocheting when you wanted me too. You use to hate it when I was working on that stupid baby blanket I was making for a friend. You know what? After all that work, she and I are no longer friends. Oh how I wish I could take that back, because you were more important. I'm sorry baby. I have alot of guilt. Know that as long as I'm around, I will always write to you, even if it's not interesting. I love you Steve, and Buddy loves you too. Next month will be your eleventh anniversary, and I'll be back. We love you sweet boy. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

May 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
I was going to wait til tomorrow to write to you, because my anxiety has been bad today, but it's your 11th year in Heaven, and knowing me I would have gone to bed feeling guilty for waiting. I guess I got over tired today. It's getting hard to write, because I don't have anything to write about. Most of the time I stay home with Cooper. When you don't have a car to go places or a friend who will take you anywhere, sometimes I get depressed. Your Buddy and I had to go get my bloodwork done, and that always stresses me out, and I just feel old today. You left us 11 years ago, and it still feels like yesterday. Even losing your Aunt Dorothy wasn't as hard as losing you. We miss you Steve, and always will, and we will always love you. I'm sorry I can't think of more to say to you. Just know I'm here, and think of you always. We love you, Mama and Buddy ♥

June 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
It's getting really hard to think of what to write to you. I'm not even sure you know I'm doing this. I've thought about quitting, but I don't want to feel guilty. Nothing has changed here. I seldom get out of the neighborhood other than doctor appointments (which I dearly hate). I wish your mama was more interesting, but you're stuck with me. Just wanted to let you know that I love you, I always will, and I sure miss you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

July 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
You've been gone too long Steve. We miss you every day, and we always will. I can't seem to think of something different to write about, yet I feel like I should say something on the first of every month. The other day this great big monarch butterfly was flying really close to me, and I felt like you sent it to me, letting me know you're still with us. I could have reached out and touched it. That's how close it was. I've been noticing alot of butterflies outside the apt. lately. Thank you Steve. I love you so much, and so does your Buddy. We always will, and you will never be forgotten baby. I don't work anymore. I haven't since my heart surgery. I mostly stay home and keep Cooper company. Wish I could have spent this much time with you all those years. Keep sending me signs Steve. They make me smile. We love you sweetheart. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

Aug. 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
I sure wish it was easier to think of something to write to you about, but my days are pretty much the same every day. I spend most days at home, and your Buddy works. I'm sorry baby. We're fine, we have our good days and bad. We will always miss and love you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

Sept. 2, 2019
Hi Baby,
It's getting really hard for me to think of things to write to you about, and I'm sorry. I just seldom leave the apt. or get out of this neighborhood. I just don't want you to think that I am forgetting you. We are waiting on a hurricane, and hoping it's not bad enough that we lose power, because it's so hot here. I remember going through a hurricane when you were still with us, and we did lose power, and we were so miserable, it was hard to sleep at night with no air conditioning, so I'm sure hoping that never happens again. That's the only thing new with us. We miss you and love you so much. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

Oct. 1, 2019
Hi Baby,
I have a little story to tell you. We use to feed the squirrels until I found out it was illegal here, so it made me afraid we would get in trouble, so I stopped it. The got use to waiting for me to feed them, and it really bothered me, but I was afraid our landlord would kick us out of the apt. Anyway a few days ago, I was sitting here on the computer, and one of them came to the sliding glass door and was staring at me. So cute. I hadn't seen one that close up since we use to live in Washington. Your Buddy came home and I told him about it, and he quickly went to look, and the little guy was on the balcony ledge looking at both of us. I had to go get the peanuts and feed it. They need to eat too, lol! Well, that's about it. Other than that, I play on the computer, crochet and occasionally make bracelets. We love you sweety, and always will. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

Nov. 2, 2019
Hi Baby,
I'm sorry I didn't write yesterday. I haven't been feeling good. I hate that I don't have anything to write to you about. As I've said before, I stay home most of the time. Just not doing well these days, but wanted you to know that I haven't forgotten you. Wish I had more to say, but I don't. We love you very much and still miss you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

May 1, 2020
Hi Baby,
It's sure been awhile since I wrote to you. I feel so bad about that, and I'm sorry. Today you have been gone from us for 12 years, and it sure doesn't seem that long ago. I can remember that last day, like it was yesterday. One of the worst days of my life. I'm sorry Steve that I don't write as often as I should. I hardly ever leave the apt. and one day is the same as the next. I just don't know what to write about. We will always miss you and love you forever. I hope you still think about us too, and I hope we will all be together when that time comes. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥

May 1, 2021
Hi Baby,
I'm so sorry I haven't been writing in all these months. I just hardly ever leave home anymore, so I don't know what's going on around me. One day is the same as the next, but I had to write a little something today especially. Never ever think you have been forgotten. Today marks 13 years since you left us and went to Heaven. I've been having some health problems lately, so I just don't feel well. Buddy is fine, but sad today as his girlfriend broke up with him. Cooper is as sweet as he can be, but he is having health issues as well. I pray every night for the Lord to keep us safe and make us healthy. We love you sweetheart, and miss you every day. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥