He almost left me last year in june 2018, but I got him help just in time. I told him so many times after that "Daddy will always love Talyn, no matter what happens, I will never forget you baby boy". I meant it, and I intend to keep that promise. I had several nick names for him, depending on what he was doing or how we were feeling at the time. The one I used most was 'little tiger' or 'sukoshi tora' in japanese rumaji. We wuold play together for hours sometimes. He had a passive bashfulness about him that just made him so endearing, and he was very likeable by all. Where ever I took him, someone always wanted to keep him because he was so charming, like when we went to the vet.

I love him right now just as much as when he was in the world. I really thought he would be in my life for more than 11 years.

I really do hope I see him again in the 'after'. If it's possible, that's what I want! I miss him deeply. I told him, "No matter what happens, I will always love you and never forget you". Daddy loves you Talyn, forever!

-December 28, 2019-
The holidays came and went, and were meaningless without you my precious Talyn. The first holiday season in 11 years without you there to have fun with me. I got you an early present because I had planned on getting you a few things this year anyway. It's an awesome throw pillow that I know you would have loved so much. I put it under the tree by your favorite spot and took a picture of it. I also got a new blanket that I'm sure you would have liked very much as well! I hope you are in a good place that I can see you again. I love you always my precious baby boy!

-January 4, 2020-
Well, it's a new decade, and the count-down was sad without you. It just further intensified the fact that your time in my life has passed, far too soon. I am stunned that the time has passed so quickly since I laid you to rest. I've had some dreams interacting with you. I am going to make your memorial perpetual since you are that awesome, and deserve the adulation for being such a perceptive, interactive, intelligent, verbose and amazing companion! My tribute to you at home and online will show everyone who never met you what a gift you were!

I've decided that I am going to leave out all of your stuff (except your favorites) as you left it, for my next companion, who must also be amazing. I will put those away in your box because it was not only the first toy I got you, and not only your lifetime favorite, but it was also the FIRST christmas present I got you, in 2008 when you were just six months old! It's still in great condition and I want it to stay that way for you. I will always love you and keep you deep in my heart, my sukoshi tora, my little tiger!

-June 1, 2020-
Today would have been your 12th birthday. I can't believe it's been a year since I made the very last video of you, and 11 months since you left the world. It is truly less brilliant without you in it! I miss you every day. It feels like it was both yesterday and forever ago that I held you in my arms, and heard your loud purrs of contentment and appreciation. As I told you so many times when we sat together: "No matter what happens to us, I will always love you and never forget you baby boy".

I sit in your chair on the balcony and look out into the woods where you loved to play the most & where I laid you to rest. I hear that same bird every morning that we both heard together before I got up for work...I hear it and look over to say 'good morning' but you are not there...I sometimes see you in the corner of my eye, in all the places you liked the most. I keep looking for you, knowing I will not find you.
I will be celebrating the amazing gift that you were to my life, on this, your birthday Talyn!

-June 6, 2020-
Today was my first birthday without you since 2008, before I found you. I celebrated in silence. The day came and went very quickly. I slept through part of it thinking of you. I think of you always. You were the most amazing gift I ever had. I am thankful for every minute you were in my life, my little tiger. Things will truly never be the same without you here, my beloved companion. I love you and miss you forever and beyond!

-July 7, 2020-
Today marks exactly one year since you left the world, and I laid you to rest. I went into the woods today and walked to the spot where I placed you. It was difficult to get to and I almost didn't find it as the underbrush (and this odd vinelike plant) has pervaded the surrounding ground. I brought a hibiscus cutting but put it in the wrong spot by mistake. It wouldn't have survived anyway. Then...I looked over about 30 feet, and saw the spot! In a span of a year the trunk had broken, and it was hard to spot as the underbrush has grown over most of it. I found your spot, it was covered in a canopy of vines that actually grew over and covered the area but didn't grow through it, like a protective shell! I was able to cut away some of the foliage and there it was underneath, a hollow space protecting your spot! I found the stone I placed there, then looked up slightly and saw the branch I had laid over it like a lean-to. The most amazing part...a patch of bright yellow wild flowers has grown over and around your spot! They aren't anywhere else, only around you my precious Talyn! I know how you liked the hibiscus and wild flowers! It seems so perfectly arranged by the powers that be. I know you saw me, and heard what I said so I won't repeat it here...it's our secret.
I know I will see you again up there, because I will make it so!

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The moment that you left me, my heart was split in two.
One side was filled with memories, the other died with you.

I often lay awake at night when the world is fast asleep
and take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy, I do it every day
but missing you is a heartache that never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain;
you see life has gone on without you, but will never be the same.
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You will forever get a 'good night' and 'good morning' from me. As I said to you when we were sitting in our chair together: "No matter what happens, I will always love you and never forget you." I will always cherish the time you were in my life, my special blonde boy!
I LOVE YOU TALYN!

-June 6,2021-
As you know, today is my birthday. I forgot to login on YOUR birthday (June 1st) and update. I made a short video on your birthday with the purple lights on the tree you like to sit under, and sang happy birthday to you. I miss you all the time. You would be 13 this year. That was my goal for you, to live to at least 13 in spite of the medical issues. I fell short by two years. I'm just glad I was able to give you a good life. Everyone can see you smiling with content in your pictures. I will always have a place in my routine for you every day, and never forget you. Daddy loves Talyn forever. Happy birthday again 'Mr. Talyn'. <3

-July 8, 2021-
Yesterday marked two years since your passing. I forgot to log in and update this. As you know I had a plan to get a gold hibiscus to plant at your place of rest in the woods to mark the spot and in honor of your memory. No place had them, only the red ones like the one that was outside the door, but I want a gold one like your eyes where. I will still do so when I find one, but I couldn't time it to the day. I still like to visit it once in a while even though I know our spirits are free. I know you liked it when I walked in the woods with you. It feels like both yesterday and a lifetime ago that we interacted and sat together watching the rain, etc. My daily routine is still affected by you and there is never a day that passes that I do not think of you. I miss you beyond words!

-January 3, 2022-
Yet another holiday season passed without you sitting under the tree, enjoying another gift from me. Here we are in 2022 now already. It seems like just the other day when that event occurred that took you from me. I still see you and feel you all around me here. I still feel the impact of your loss, even now two and half years later. I wish I could still show you off to others. I know you feel me when I think about you and send my love. It will have to be enough for now, but it will never be enough...until we meet again.

-June 1, 2022-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TALYN! You would be 14 today. I miss you so much. I sang happy birthday to you and will watch some of your old videos and as you know, I'll be thinking of you. I know you feel it when I think about you because I really believe that I will see you again when I leave this world. I know you are in a better place having a good time with all the heavenly beings, somewhere out there. I reach out ot you a lot, but I think you are aware of that. Tonight I will turn on the pruple lights in your honor and stand by your favorite spot under the tree. I finally was able to plant that golden hibiscus tree near you. It's getting harder for Daddy to walk back there because the woods keep growning but that just makes it an even better place that shall remain unbothered. I will go out there to pay you a visit on July 7th (you know, that day...).
I wish I had made videos of you trying to talk like a person, and the other unusually AMAZING things you did. I think we could have been famous! But I didn't think about all of that because I liked our private reclusive life together. YOU were an amazing feline specimen, head and shoulders above any feline I have seen or known before or since! You were a real angelic gift from the powers that be and I am so glad I found you and had you for 11 years. I love you my little tiger! Daddy loves Talyn!

-July 7 2022-
Hello my precious baby boy! Daddy misses you so much, and mourns your absence every day. It still feels like yesterday. I will always regret waiting so long to take you to the doctor. You might still be here if I had. I made such a big mistake, and nothing will bring you back to me.
I tried to walk out to the place where I laid you to rest, but could not. The woods have grown over so thickly around that spot that I could not push my way through the wall of undrgrowth and fallen trees. I may not be able to get there again unless I try to come in from the water side of the lake on a canoe. I guess that is just an indicator of how good a place that is, as no one will ever disturb you there--I wanted to see the hibiscus I planted next to you but I could not even see that through the thick woods. One day it will be tall enough to see the top of, if I am still living here but even if I move, I will always pass by as close as I can.
I love you forever and miss you deeply with all my heart, a heart that still has a bleeding hole where you once were. I LOVE YOU TALYN and Daddy will always keep you in what's left of my heart. I long for the day when I can see you again after I leave this world as well!

-January 29 2023-
Once again the holidays came and went without you, Mr. Talyn! I turned on the purple lights on the tree in memory of you, as always. I miss you and think of you often. So it's been hectic at the new job. I wanted to write this sooner. I think of you often. I might put the picture of the two of us on my desk. It's like I told you when you were sitting on the arm of my chair- "no matter what happens, I will always love you and never forget you".
So I hope you've gotten to see my new little on, Gypsy. She's very apprehensive, and has some issues. She hasn't learned to jump up onto the top closet shelf. I don't think she ever will. You were just too smart my special boy! She got abandoned just like you did all those years ago. Her birthday is close to yours - May 27, 5 days before yours...well, I close for now. As always my heart misses your presence in my life, even after three and half years! I look forward to the time when we meet again beyond. So beings another new year!