MyAngel Zoe girl. It is August 4, 2017 and I am struggling with the loss of you still. I always will. You were such a light in my life and still are, after being gone over six
years. I love you so, Zoe. You were such a treasure. I hope you are with Clyde-Bailey and that you see Grandpa often. I hope you met the rabbi's dog, Pretty Girl and showed her around. Grandma, Daddy and I always talk about you and Delilah is here with me, filling my heart with joy, as only a dog can.Has Remy ever come up there. She is the dog that has been lost for years that I write to each day. Let me know. She is a black chow with a black tongue and is so missed, as are you and Clydie. Please send a sign today that you are ok. I MISS YOU DESPERATELY. I love you so much. Thank you for everything. Always your Mommy.
September 4, 2017. We talked about you and Clydie this weekend with cousins Bonnie and Steven. We all miss you so much, my doggie. My friend. My rock. My confident. We are all ok. Grandma and Daddy and I all miss you terribly. I am crying, but I don't want you to worry. I am ok. It's just not the same without you two here with me. Like the song says, "I can't smile without you". It's very hard. Please
send me a sign. I love you so, Zoe. My Zobiede. Forever and ever, your Mommy
5/21/22 Zoe , I am writing in this little space so that you can keep an eye out for a dog I love named Raven. She will be coming to the bridge around 1:30 today. She is black and brown with a white muzzle. She is part shepard and part akita and needs friends. Please take her and keep her close. I don't want her to be alone. He mommy is heartbroken. I know her for 12 years and MJ adopted her from AWSOM. Never gave up on her. I am so sad. Please take care of her. It's very important to me. I love you, Bud dog. Thank you. I already wrote to ClydieDarling, you remember Clair and Sammie. Well, Sammie's golden Retriever, Whitney, is about to cross the Rainbow Bridge. Please keep a lookout for her. She will be needing friends and guidance and I can always count on you, my love. Loving and missing you always. Your loving Mommy. Kiss Clydie for me.
DEAR ZOE. I AM LATE BECAUSE I WAS IN HOSPITAL BUT I AM HOME NOW AND BETTER. DON'T WORRY. I LOVE YOU SO AND MISS YOU MORE DEAR ZOE,
Sep 4, 20. My darling angel Zoe. How I miss you and pray for you every day. No one has taught my heart how to live without you. There never is a day you aren't on my mind. Thank God for Delilah. She will never replace you and wasn't meant to. She's a great girl and so smart and we really love each other. I love you so, Zoe and I miss you with all my heart and soul. Kiss Clydie for me. He will get his letter in two days. Send me a sign. I will look for it. Always and forever, your loving Mommy
6/4/22 My dearest, darling Zoe. I miss you so all the time, but this morning is harder. I don't know why. I am going in for knee surgery a week from Monday. I wish you were here to keep me company, along with Clydie. Delilah will be here, thank God. Can you imagine she is eleven already? That's how long you have been gone, and Clyde-Bailey, too. My heart breaks every day without you two. There is a rabbit named Pichu and a dog named Perrogi that are having trouble. They need your doggie prayers to get well. I know you will pray for them and pray for me, too. I am very sad without you and Clyde, Gram and Gramps. It's hard but thank God daddy is here for me. I love you so much, Zo girl. I hope you have Raven close to you and you found her with no trouble. Remember how much I adore and miss you. Forever and ever, your Mommy.

EACH DAY. I HOPE YOU ARE ALWAYS ALRIGHT. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND FOREVER. YOUR LOVING MOMMY.

October 4, 2017. I miss you so. I am so sad. We lost Uncle Mitch and Aunty Clare. I am so sad, Zoe and I know you would be here to comfort me. God, I wish
you were well and here. I miss Grandpa, too, and Clydie Bails. Oh, Zoe, I don't know how to get happy again. You were always my rock. Thank God for Delilah. I can't stand it without you and Clyde-Bailey. I can't accept that you are gone all this time. I miss you from the bottom of my heart, but don't worry. I will carry on. Just be well and happy and send me a sign.. I love you so much. Forever, your Mommy.

November 4, 2017 My darling Zoe. I am crying for you. I miss you so much, my Zoe girl. I talk about you all the time. You made my life so rich. I will never be the same without you and Clyde-Bailey. Thank God you sent me Delilah. I love her so.I have never been the same since I lost Grandpa, you and Clydie. Now Daddy's brother, David has cancer and we need your doggie prayers. It's pretty bad. We are doing ok. Gram is good and Daddy is
fine. I am too and don't want you to worry if I cry over you. It's tears of love and the joy of having you in myRest easy Zo, and remember how much I love and miss you. I will forever and ever. Your loving Mommy.

10/4/21 Tears are the order of my morning, dearest Zoe. I am crying over Grandma, Grandpa, Clydie and you.I know I can never again be completely happy without you all. That's just the truth. You will always be such a part of my life. I love you so and miss you more than words can say. Please be well and send me a sign. I need to see that you see me. Love always, Mommy
Happy Thanksgiving to you and Clydie.....miss you so. Wishes to all my doggies up there and my cat, Destiny
Rhett, Sadie, Prost, Shana, Papillion, I need you to welcome a little Westie called Riley. His Mom is devastated. He came up two days ago. Take him under your wing and show him around and befriend him. Do you see him? Is he walking? Great. Thanks, baby girl. Miss you both so terribly. I miss you all and love you forever. Mommy

It's December 4, 2017. Hi, bud dog, my angel child. Zoe, I am crying as I miss you so. We talk about you a lot, especially with Grandma. She remembered that anytime Gramps walked in, you and Clydie ran to the back door because you knew he was going to let you out. And remember the little bagels Aunt Kathi would bring you and Clydie. You loved them. The pain of your loss is never going away, and I have to live with that, praying that some day we will be together again. Please God. Promise me that and i can go on. I love you so, girl, forever and ever, Mommy.

I can't believe it's February. How could I have missed writing to you. My heart is broken over it. I am so sorry, my Bud dog. You know you are always on my mind. I love you so and miss you so much. It will never, ever be the same without you and Clydie. Please forgive me. I hope you are fine. We are all hanging in, getting older with aches and pains. Grandma isn't too well, but she's doing the best she can. She and Daddy and Delilah send their love as well. Love you forever and ever. Mommy

3/6/18 Darling I am late because we had no power or internet due to a big snow storm. Another coming tonight, but Daddy took care of me and Gram just fine, so don't worry. I miss you so much. It's not gotten easier. I love you so and talk about you much of the time. You are Clydie. What a pair. Remember how you two used to sleep on the leather couch in the bedroom. I picture you there. Delilah likes it, too. I pray that you are fine and I adore you so. Miss you forever and ever. Your Mommy.

4/4 Darling child of mine, Zoe. I can't believe that in another month you will be gone seven years. It's never any easier without you. In fact, it's more difficult. No one understands me like you did, except maybe Delilah, a little bit, but not as much. Me and Zoe. Traveled like crystal and so we were two hot girls on a hot summer night, we were lookin' for love. Remember we would sing that song? I miss you so much and talk about you and Clydie all the time. Something came up on Facebook today about this date and me saying the dogs were alright today. God, I wish that were so and I wish my heart was alright, but it will never be again. I'll love you forever and ever to the moon and back a million times. You will always be my girl. Your loving Mommy.

5/4/18 Tonight it will be seven years ago that you had to leave me. Tears are flowing and I miss you so. There are no words to describe life without you. I remember that I made you breathe into my mouth so I could keep you inside me. It was the worst night, Zoe. I speak about you all the time with Grandma, Daddy, Delilah and Linda Carrier, who even wrote your name down on an appointment for Delilah. Thank God she is here. You know I have to have the love of a doggie. There is nothing like it. You were regal, my darling and really mine. I miss you so and love you always. I wear your name along with Clyde-Bailey and I will never take it off. I hope you are comfortable up there and know that you are loved and your name written by me every day. Forever and ever, your Mommy

6/6/18 Zoe. I am two days late. I am so very sorry. I don't know how the date got away from me. You know that's it's not for not thinking about you. I think about you and Clydie all the time and my life is so much less without you. Tears are flowing done my cheeks and the pain will never go away. i love and miss you so and hope both of you are ok. I will always be your loving Mommy. You will always be my doggie.

7/4/16 My Zoe, my life is nothing without you. Things have changed so much since you had to leave. I am so sad all the time. I miss you and Clydie terribly. Thank God for Delilah. NO ONE BUT YOU AND HE UNDERSTANDS ME. I cry every day over you, even if it's been seven years. How are you, my darling friend and doggy? Please send me a sign. I need to hear from you? Do you see Grandpa? He is so missed. Oh Zoe, what I would give to see you two again. My leg, my arm. You already have my heart. I miss you so, girl. Don't ever forget how much I adore you. I carry you around in my heart every day. Be well. Your loving Mommy

8/4/18 My angel Zoe, I miss you so much. I write your initials along with Clyde-Bailey's on my shower door every morning when it steams up. I also have Gramps, Aunty Clare and Uncle Mitch. Then I write Delilah and Mommy in a heart shape with a little window. Funny, huh? But you are never out of my mind. Life is just not as beautiful without you two here. Never will be. Losing you two was such a dark time in my life. My heart is permanently broken. I just pray that you are both ok. I love you so much, my dog. My girl. My friend. My everything. Forever and ever, your Mommy

DEAREST ZOE, I am one day late. It is the fifth of Sept. 18. My days are crazy as I am having surgery tomorrow. I know you will be with me and I love you so for that. How is Clyde-Bailey? Do you see Grandpa? I miss you so,, Zo. It's awful without you. I love you so much and hope you are doing fine and forgive me for being late. You're my girl forever. Mommy

10/4/18 My dearest darling Zoe. I am crying, I miss you so much. You were my true companion, my soft place to fall along with Clyde-Bailey. I lost both of you within 28 days. It was the darkest time of my life. I know you are always with me, and I will always keep your memory alive. I hope you are fine and happy. I will love you with all I have forever and ever. Your loving, Mommy

November 7, 18 I am so sorry I am late. I was in Spain with Jordan and the kids and couldn't get this on my phone. I love you so. I was thinking of you as I always do. I hope you are well and with Clydie. I love you , Zoe girl, forever and ever and it will never be the same without you. Forever and ever, your Momm

1/4/19 Happy New Year and no, it can never be happy without you, my angel child. Tears are falling and they never stop for you and Clyde-Bailey. I miss you so. I can't believe you are not here with me. I took in your breath so that I would keep you inside forever and ever. You are always a part of me, my darling Zoe girl. I love you so much. Life will never be the same without you. Forever, your loving Mommy.

january 155, 2019 My friend, Mike's black pomeranian names Reno, is getting his wings any moment. His name is Reno. I need for you and Clydie to be waiting at the gate for him and keep him safe. He is a precious dog and has been in pain. No he will be all better, but everyone is heartbroken. Look out for him, please. I love you both. Mommy
2/4/19 My angel child, Zoe. Life is so hard without you and Clydie. It will never be the same and I will never stop crying. I hope you are fine and enjoying the Spring up there. Here it has been brutally cold, but today is beautiful. Aunt Kathy Waring lost her dad yesterday and everyone is so sad. he was suffiering so he is better off. Loss is never easy. God, I miss you, Zo girl. My Zobiede. My heart is broken. I wait for the day we will be together
again. Thank God for Delilah, except I am always afraid of losing her. She will be eight in April. Clyde will be gone eight years that month and you followed in Mayl So unfair. I love you so. Don't worry about me. I will be ok. I carry the both of you in my heart and wear your names on my wrist. Love you forever, your Mommy
3/4 Seven years and ten months. I need you so, Zoe. I am so unhappy. I know you could help. Oh God, I miss you so much. They haven''t invented the words that can say how much. I put your picture on facebook today for all to see my beautiful Zoe. Where are you? I want you to come to me. Zoe. I love you so. Why were we separated? Ever? Didn't they know I couldn't be happy without you? I love you so much, my darling dog. My daughter. My Zoe. Forever and ever with all my heart, your loving Mommy.
4/4/19 It is one month away from you being gone for eight years. Eight years without you and I cry every day for you and Clydie. Like the song says, I can't smile without you. I can't laugh without you..You made my life so wonderful. It's so much more empty now. Thank God for Delilah. I miss you, Zo. I miss you so. I'll love you forever, and til we see each other on the Rainbow Bridge, I will never be complete. Forever yours, Mommy
5/4/19 Tonight it will be eight years since I lost you. My life has never or will be the same. I miss you so much. Everything you did. Everything you were. You were my friend, my confident, my everything. My heart, my life. I will never get over losing you. I am so thankful for you, Zoe. So lucky. I hope you are fine, and when it's time for me to go, I hope you are Clyde-Bailey are waiting for me on the bridge. I love you so, with all my heart. Your, Mommy

It is July 4th, my darling Zoe. 2019. Things are not any easier without you. I have mascara on and perhaps I won't cry, although the tears are already welling in my eyes. You made such a difference in my life and now it's over. Eight years feels like a lifetime. I hope you are well and with Clydie. He needs you. I need you. Come visit me, Zoe. I love you so, girl. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy.

It is November 10th and I am late. I knew I was going to be, dearest Zoe. I was in Florida visiting the children and the new baby, Eladia. You would love her. I cry over you being gone and that never stops and I never stop missing you or praying for you. I love you so, my darling doggie. How are you? I need you to be with me. God, I miss you, Zoe. I will love you forever and ever. Your loving Mommy

t is December 4, almost your birthday, Zoe. I am crying as I miss you so much. It never changes. Time doesn't heal all wounds. Your groomer, Lennie, passed away yesterday, and I am devastated. He loved you and Clyde-Bailey. I am shocked and saddened. What a terrible loss.
I hope you are fine and waiting for me. We will be together one day, not soon, God willing, but one day. I love you so much, Bud dog. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy..

It's January 4, and Grandma is dying. I don't know what I am going to do. We are taking care of her at home. It is so hard and I am heartbroken.
I know you loved her and Grandpa and they loved you and Clyde-Bailey so much. Hope you are fine and watching over us. We need your love and prayers.. I miss you so, Zoe. Ir's so hard without you. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy.It's
It's February 6 and I know I am late. Grandma passed away a month ago today. I am broken hearted without her; my rock, my Mom.No one knows how I feel, but I know you and Clyde do. She loved you both so much. I am alone. Delilah is here with me, and she loved Grandma so much. I don't think she understands where she is or why she went away. I don't either. I miss you, Zoe. I really do. I could really use your support now. I miss you and will love you forever and ever. Your loving, Mommy.
March 4, 2020My darling angel, Zoe. I miss you so. Grandma has been gone eight weeks now and it's so hard without her. I am getting stronger, but still cry. I still cry for you and Clyde-Bailey. It's so hard without you. I hope you both are fine and playing and running with each other and friends, too. The weather is nice. We only had one snow this winter, so Daddy didn't get to plow but once. Oh, well. The year started off my losing Grandma, so it's no surprise. I love you so much, Zoe and I miss you more than words can say. Forever and ever, you loving Mommy
DEAR ZOE, Today is April 4, 2020. You are one month shy of being gone nine years. There is not a day that goes by without me missing you or thinking about you. I am so sad. We are on mandatory lock down because of corona virus. Please send doggie prayers for the world to get better. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH> i just can't live without you and be happy. I'm sorry to tell you this because I know that's not what you would want, but I can't help it. I miss you so. I hope you are fine and with Clydie-Bails. Please kiss each other for me. I adore you and desperately miss you. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy.
Dearest Zoe, Today is May 4, 2020 and tonight you will be gone nine years. That was one of the worst times of my life. I can't believe you are gone and my life has not been the same without you and Clyde-Bailey. Not a day goes by when I don't think of you and cry, your initials and Clydie's on my shower door. We are still in lock down and things are strange. We will get through this. Don't worry. I pray you are fine and playing and running and resting and eating well. We are ok here. Miss you terribly and I cry over you and Clydie and Gram and Gramps. It's so hard and I love you more than life itself. Delilah is fine after a twisted stomach and loss of spleen. I was terrified but it worked out, thank God. I love you Zo girl. Look down on me and smile. Your loving Mommy always and forever.
JUNE 6, 2020 I AM TWO DAYS LATE, MY ZOE. WE ALMOST LOST DELILAH IN A SECOND OPERATION I WAS SHATTERED. THEY SAVED HER. THANK GOD. WISH YOU WERE HERE. I MISS YOU SO. HOW ARE YOU? OH ZOE. HOW I MISS YOU. I HOPE DELILAH STARTS EATING AND DRINKING SOON. I AM WORRIED. PLEASE SEND DOGGIE PRAYERS. LOVING YOU FOREVER AND EVER. MOMMY

7/4/20 My angel Zoe. I miss you so. Wish you were here. Delilah has recovered, thank God. I tell you. Life without you and Clydie is not the same. I think of you all the time and put your initials on my shower door every morning. I hope you can see me when you are looking down. Please send me a sign. I love you so very much and always will. Forever and ever, your loving
Mommy.
My dearest Zoe girl, I am crying as I write this as I miss you so much. Your friendship, your love, your loyalty and everything that made you, you. We are going to Georgia on Thursday and Delilah will be watched by Uncle Dave and Meghann. I am so nervous as she will be alone most of the time, but I pray that you, Clyde-Bailey will be watching over her and make it easy for her to be in her own surroundings. Please keep an eye out for her. Thank you, Bud dog. I miss you so and love you so deeply. Stay safe and well. Always and forever, your loving Mommy .
IT is October 5, 20 and I am a day late. We got back from Disney World yesterday and went right to bed. I am so sorry. You are always on my mind and in my heart. I am crying now for you. I miss you so, Zoe girl, my baby. Thank God for Delilah. She reminds me of how you looked and how you loved me and how I loved you. I miss you so and talk about you all the time. I have your photos all over with Clydie's. My heart will always be broken until we are together once more. Your loving Mommy
Nov 7,2020 My angel girl Zoe. I am so sorry I am late. Forgive me.I miss you so. Clair was here the other day and we talked about you and Clydie. I am crying now. It is not the same without you, Clydie, Gram and Gramps. I cry ever day. Knowing you are watching over me is a comfort, but oh, how I miss you. My friend Maureen, lost her Mr. Tibbs last week. Please look for him. He's a good boy. Send me a sign along with Clydie. I love you so. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy
Dec 4, 2020 My darling angel Zoe. I can't hear your name without crying. I miss you so. I have photo of you all over and that big one we did we me, you and Clydie over the mantel. I love you so. I can't stand it without you. It's so hard. Life has never been the same without you, but don't worry, I'm ok and I'll get thru til I see you and Clydie again. I love you so, And always and forever. Your loving Mommy. Send me a sign.
1/10/21 I am so sorry i am so late. This was such a hard week for me as Grandma's one year anniversary was on Wednesday and I lost track of the days. Forgive me. I have been talking about you and Clydie so much and looking at photos. I miss you so, my girl. Thank God Delilah is here. She is nine now. I hope she stays with me for a very, very long time. I love you, Zoe. Life is not the same. Mommy
Feb. 6 21 I am crying for you as I write to you, Zoe. I miss you so. Oh, God. I think you must know. I cry everytime I write your name on my shower door in the morning along with Clydie. Those were very dark times for me and I can't get over it. Grief has no time line, and I will always be grieving for you, living my life praying I will see you again. I have to believe that. I love you so. My angel. Your loving Mommy.
3/6/21. Your forgiveness is all I ask. I am two days late. The days just get away from me and I don't know up from down. I am crying as I write this, because I find it very hard to smile without you. I miss you so and will always be so thankful for you....your friendship, your loyalty and your pure love. Send me a sign, please. Oh, Zoe. It will never be the same without you. Always loving you, Mommy
4/4/21 My darling angel, Zoe. In one more month, you will gone from me for ten years. My heart, my life, will never be the same without you and Clydie. Oh, Zoe, my girl......I am crying as I do every day. I miss and love you so. I hope you are both ok and send me a sign. I am going to have a procedure done on Tuesday and I'm very scared. Please see that I am alright. I know you can help me through it. I love you so. Delilah is with me and so is Daddy. I will be ok. I just miss you with all my heart. Love you always. Your Mommy.
5/4/21 Zoe. Tonight at eight o clock, EDT, you will be gone ten years. While you were leaving me I had you breath into my lungs so I could keep you inside me. Oh, my darling child, you are missed so. There just isn't a day that goes by when I don't think of you; talk about you; cry over you as I am crying now. Clydie left 28 days before you and it was the darkest time. Why can't things stay the same and we would all be together? I love you so and Daddy and Gram and Gramps too. So much. My angel. I pray for you everyday. I will never be the same without you. Stay close to Clydie. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy..x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0 and a million hugs.
6/4/21 My darling, darling Zoe. I am crying here writing to you. Oh, I miss you so. It is ten years and a month since you are gone and the pain is tremendous. I spoke about you and Clydie so much over the weekend with cousins Bonnie and Steven. I miss you so much, Zoe. Life will never be the same without you, my darling doggie. Thank God for Delilah. She just turned ten and I am getting scared. You know me. Probably better than anyone else.' Oh, God, Zoe. I wish you were here with me. Don't worry about me, though. Your memory will carry me through although my heart breaks. Give Clydie Bails a kiss for me and one for you, too. I love you so. Always and forever, your devoted Mommy.7/6/21 Darling Zoe. I am so sorry I am late with your letter. Bonnie and Teven are here and I lost track of time. Please forgive me. We have been talking about yo and Clydie so much. God, miss you and pray for the two of you every day and you are also on my shower in the morning with you initials and around my wrist in an arm band. It is so hard without you and I am so sad. Tears are falling. Delilah is right here with me. Oh, God. I miss you so. My heart aches. Life is not the same and never will be. I love you so, Zoe, and miss you more than humanly possible. Forever and ever, Mommy
7/9/21 Dearest Zoe, please pass this on to Clydie as well. Ryan's darling dog, Hunter, has gone to the Rainbow Bridge today. He was taken ill suddenly, without warning and was very sick last night. The vet said this morning it was very, very bad. Sonia and Ryan had to help him cross and we are all heartbroken, naturally. He was a Doberman cross and very sweet. Please look for him and keep him close to you. Maybe you can all get together with Brandon's dogs, Maggie and Baxter, who are dearly missed as well. I miss you and Clydie so much, and I am crying now for all of you. I love you all. Mommy
8/9/21 I can't believe that I let the days go by and forgot the dates. Please forgive me. You know how much I love you. I can't believe the days go by without you and Clydie. I wear your names on my wrist. Did you know that? I am sad most of the time and that's because you are not here. Not Clyde, not Grandma and Grandpa. I am so glad Delilah is here and Daddy too. We were in Florida and saw Jude and his sister Eladia and Ryan and Sonia. Also, Tommy and his girlfriend, Dana. It made me feel better, but now I am home and the blues are back. Send me a sign, Zoe. I miss you so. Loving you always, Mommy
9/4/21 Dearest Zoe, I can't smile without you. That is the song that's playing on your site. Missing you is a constant thing. Sometimes I call Delilah Zoe as you look very much alike. I don't know what I would do without her. I am so lonely for you, Clydie, Grandma and Grandpa. Life is never going to be the same. You know how sensitive I am and I always have tears for all of you. Talk about all of you all the time. Pray for all of you every day. There is such a big hole in my heart. I hope you see all of my doggies and my cats up there. Remember Destiny? She loved you. You know, Ryan's dog Hunter is up there now. I don't want him to be alone. Look for him. He is a love and so missed. He is a mixed doberman. Missing you all is just part of my life. Thank God for Daddy and Delilah. I don't know what I would do. Please remember how much I love you, Zoe. You're my girl forever and ever. Mommy.
11/4/21 My darling Zo girl. I am missing you, my darling. Delilah looks so much like you, so in photos it's hard to tell you apart. I love you so and my life is not the same without you and Clydie. I miss Gram and Gramps too. Loss is so awful but I go on, with prayer and mention you both in prayer every day. Look over me and keep me well. I could always use your doggie prayers. Send me a sign, Bud dog. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy12/4/21 On this night that you left me, I always look at the clock. It was one of the worst nights of my life. I wanted you to stay with me, but you were suffering and I could not be selfish and had to let you, my heart and my soul, let you go. I am crying now, but I am as ok as I could be without you. With cousin Bonnie and Steven last week and spoke about you and Clydie. Always a part of me. Always inside of me. I love you so much, Zoe. Delilah is here and can you believe she is ten and a half? It's scary to me, of course, but I try not to think of that. You know how I am. I pray she is with me for a long, long time. She has to be. Send her doggie prayers, will you? Thank you, my darling angel friend. I will always be your Mommy and looking for you everywhere. On the wind; in the sun and the night sky. Waa you, my darling? I need you here but I need you to look after Gram and Gramps and Clydie. It's not too much to ask, is it? I adore you so and missing you goes on and on. I kiss you, my darling Zo girl. Bud dog. Always and forever, your loving Mommy.I want to say Happy Birthday to you at the Rainbow Bridge. It's on the eleventh of December and I will never forget. I love you. I left you a birthday cake. You can share it with Clyde-Bailey.
1/4/22 My darling angel Zoe, The tears are starting to form in my eyes as I write you on your monthly anniversary of leaving me. I will never forget that night. I had you breathe into my mouth so I could keep you inside me. It was one of the darkest nights of my life. I miss you so and look at your photos so much. Steve and Bonnie were here this weekend and we talked about you and Clydie. Your birthday went by and I must have been distracted. Maybe sub conciously I couldn't face it. Forgive me for my cowardice. I love you so, my angel. My life will never be the same. Delilah is carrying on the legacy of being here for me. My heart is forever broken, but I promise you I will carry on. In two days, Grandma will be gone two years. It feels like an eternity, as it does without you and Clyde-Bailey. Look down on us and protect us. Daddy and me and the children. I love you so. Missing you is just part of my days. You are mine and I am yours, forever and ever, your loving Mommy.
2/5//22 I am one day late, my Zo girl. Please forgive me. I love you so. I look at your pictures all the time. Life will never be the same without you. Your name is on my wrist and your initials are on the shower door in the morning and you are in my prayers every day. You make my life worthwhile. I thank you for everything you gave me....unconditional love and I loved you back. Send me a sign, Zoe. I miss you so. Forever and ever, your Mommy.
3/4/22 Oh, Zoe. I am crying for you this morning. I will never get over losing you and Clydie. Nothing is the same. I think Daddy wants me to get another dog, so that when I lose Delilah, I will have someone. I don't know if that's fair to Delilah. Can you tell me? I miss Grandpa and Grandma so much and I am crying over them, too. Life can be so sad and so hard. I need you to send doggie prayers to the people of Ukraine because they are being bombarded by the Russians. They need help. I love you so, Zoe. Send me a sign. I miss you desperately. Forever and ever, Mommy
4/4/22 My darling Zoe I am using Daddy's computer because mine is broken, but I found you. My darling. I miss you sso. The years have not make it any easier. Life is not as bright or happy without you and Clydie. I pray for you every day and put your initials on my shower door. Never forget how much I love you, my angel dog. Thank God you sent Delilah. Oh God. I love and miss you. Be well and send me a sign. I will be looking, my love. Mommy
5/4/22 It is eleven years tonight, my Zoe girl, that you left for the Rainbow Bridge. My heart is broken. Zoe, please come back. I need you. I don't want to be without you. Oh, Zoe, my bud dog, I miss you and love you so much. Every day is sad without you. I will never be the same. You are meant to be here with me and with Clydie. Thank God you sent me Delilah. The tears for you never stop. Everyone loved you so much, but I loved you the most, like I do know and will always love and miss you so. Be here, Zoe, by my side. I need you in my life. Your loving Mommy. Be well and be happy.
7/7/22 I apologize for being late. I am recovering from a knee replacement. You have been through that with me on many occasions and you were a wonderful care giver. I miss that and I miss you. Delilah is looking after me with Daddy and Susie, Linda George's sister. It is very painful this time. I am getting therapy at home and he is very sweet. He is taking good care of me, as well. Zoe, I miss you so and love you more than words can ever, ever say. Oh, my girl. Waa u. ? Send me a sign and stay right next to Clyde-Bailey. I love you so and miss you so much. Tears are flowing, as always, but I will be alright as long as you and Clydie are. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy.
8/4/22 My darling Zoe girl. Missing you so and crying. I can't say goodbye. Never. There is such a void without you and Clydie. I hope to God you and Clydie are alright and can see me and look down on me and keep me, Daddy and Delilah safe. We love you so. We are going to London next month to see Jordan. My physical therapist said I will be in good shape with my knee replacement. I believe I will be. I will write you before I leave and I take my thoughts of you with me, as always. I will love you forever and ever. Your Mommy.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
9/4/22 Dearest Zoe girl. I am sitting here crying, as usual. I miss you so. It's awful without you and Clydie. It never gets any better. Thank God for Delilah. Did Clydie give you the message about the boxer named Peroggi? I pray he found his way to you both. He means a lot to me and is only five years young. He had a disease that his Mom tried so hard to cure. In the end, he lost the battle. He is whie with black spots and a black eye. Take care of him. He's just a baby and a special dog. Oh, God, Zo. I miss you so. Please send prayers down for Daddy's brother, David. He is battling cancer. Oh, Zoe. Send me a sign. On the ninth, Grandpa will be gone 12 years. It is so empty with all of you gone. It's so hard for me without you, Clyde-Bailey, Gram and Gramps, Aunty Clare and Uncle Mitch. Thank you for all the wonderful memories. I wish you were all here with me. Thank God for Daddy. I will love you forever and ever..........your Mommy
10/4/22 My darling Zoe. Life is not as bright without you, or as beautiful Where are you girl? I hope you are with Clydie. You need to take care of him. I think Delilah's back is hurting and I will call Sammie's office. Clair was here last week and spent two nights. We talked a lot about you and Clyde-Bailey. Tears are falling right now and I miss and love you so very, very much. I wish you two could have stayed forever and ever. I will never be whole again without you both. With all my love, Mommy
11/4/22 My darling angel, Zoe. I love you so and I miss you more than words can ever say. I am sitting here late tonight remembering so many things. Good memories, and how lucky I was to have you in my life.
Daddy's brother Dave died last month after his five year battle with cancer. We are all very, very sad. I know you are helping me and I adore you for everything you do for me. My bud dog. My friend. My everything. I love you so much. Keep watching over me as I do you. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy.

12/4/22 My darling Zoe. Missing you is part of my day. I love you and miss you so much. It never changes. I've been sick for over two weeks with a virus and just have to wait it out. I feel better though, so don't worry. After you left, I got a text from a gal named Cathy Robinson, who lost her Tiffany, a black standard poodle a few days before you passed. I always tried to write Tiffany. She adopted a white poodle and named her Zoey and she became a therapy dog like Tiffany. She just passed on Tuesday. I think she is with Tiffany but could you look for a white standard named Zoey. I don't want her to be alone. God, Zoe girl. I miss you so. Thank God for Delilah and now she is eleven and a half and I get scared sometimes.You know me. Well, say hello to Clyde-Bailey for me, and I will be writing him on the 6th. Send me a sign, please. I miss you, Zo. Mommy
1/4/23 A new year and the start of another year without you. I never stop talking about you and Clydie and seeing all the pictures of you two around. I know I probably repeat some of the things I have said to you, but I can't help it. I am lost without you and Clyde, Gram and gramps. I feel unteathered. I miss you so, so much and I love you with all my heart and soul. I hope you got a change to meet Zoey. Her passing hit me very hard and I watch the time passing with Delilah and I get scared. I am trying not to project, but you know me. Send me a sign, Zo girl. I need to see you somehow with a sign. I will love you forever. Mommy
2/4/22 My darling Zoe.. I am crying while writing this. I am so sad that you are gone. I will never get used to it or be the same. Life was so beautiful with you and Clydie. It's hard without you two. Thank God for Delilah. She will be 12 at the end of April and it scares me. You know how I am. It is freezing out and I worry for the strays out there. I pray for them all. Please send me a sign, Zoe. I need to hear from you. I love and miss you so. Your loving Mommy.
3/4/23 My darling Zoe. It's close to the time you left me so long ago. I cry everytime your name is mentioned or I think of you. I miss you so much. Delilah is keeping close, but she is going to be 12 years old on the 29th of April It scares me so much and you know me..I have a tendency to ruin the "now". I try hard not to. How are you, my baby girl? I miss you so and love you so much. I am going for a little surgical procedure on Tuesday, but don't worry. I will think of you, Clydie, Grandma and Grandpa and I know you will all be there cheering me on, as you always do. Stay well. Stay together. Go find Zoe and Tiffany to play with. They look for you both. I will love you forever and ever. Your, Mommy
4/4/23 My darling Zoe girl. In a month, you will be gone 12 years. I can't believe it. It feels short and it feels as if you've been gone a lifetime. I cry all the time, I miss you and Clydie so much. I know you had to go, because yo would never, ever have left me. I had you breathe into my mouth so I could take you into my lungs and keep you with me forever and ever. It's just not fair. Great loves should never have to part. I am always with you and you with me. Delilah is here keeping me company as is Daddy. You are so missed and so loved. I call Delilah by your name sometimes by mistake. Send me a sign if you can. I need it so badly. Always and forever, your loving Mommy.
5/4/23 Dearest Zoe, I am sobbing so, for tonight at 8 o'clock 12 years ago you left me. It's been a lifetime without you and living with such a hole in my heart with you and Clydie gone, he 12 years 28 days ago. I will never get over losing you. My tears will never end, and my heart will never heal. Delilah just turned 12 Saturday, and I am so scared that I can't enjoy the now. I have to learn to do that before it just takes me down. Please, please send me a sign that you are ok. I miss you so much and will forever and ever. With love, your Mommy.
6/4/23 My darling girl. Tears are flowing Just when I think there are no more tears left, I think of you and Clydie. Write to you. Look at your photos. You made my life wonderful. I still can't believe I had to leave you two for two months when the twins were born. I think Aunt Kathi was here and Daddy too, most of the time. Still, that is time I wish I could get back. Delilah is now 12 and you how nervous I am about that but I am trying to enjoy every moment with her. We are going to see the kids in Florida next week and then down to the Bahamas for Jordan's wedding to Sinead. It kills me to leave Delilah. Megahn will be here and I know she will be alright in her own space. Still it's very hard for me. Can you come to me in my dreams tonight and tell me what you and Clydie are doing and how you are? I have to believe I will see you again, along with Gram and Gramps or I just won't be able to stand it. I love you so, my precious child. Mommy
7/5/23 My darling Zoe. I am a day late. I am so sorry. Bonnie is here for two weeks and I let the day get away from me. I talk about you and Clydie all the time. Missing you is just part of my life. We had a wonderful time with the family in Florida and the Bahamas. The wedding was wonderful and we had such a meaningful time with everyone. Delilah was fine while we were away as I knew she would be, but you know me. I pray for you and Clydie every morning and miss and love you so. Send me a sign. Please. I need to hear from you both. Forever, your loving Mommy. xxxxxxxxxxxx
8/6/2023 My angel child, Zoe. I miss you so and the tears are forming in my eyes. I will never get over the loss of you or Clydie. There is such a hole in my heart. Thank For Delilah and now she is 12. It scares me. I hope you are fine and can send me a sign to make me know you are there. I love you so much, my Zo girl .......it is so hard to smile without you. So hard. My birthday is Monday and I know you and Clyde-Bailey will be with me. I love you so. Your loving, Mommy
9.4/23 My darling Zoe. 12 years and four months ago tonight, you left me. You didn't want to go. I didn't want you to go. I had you breathe into my mouth so I could fill my lungs with you and keep you inside me forever. God. I miss you so. What a perfect dog you were. Thank you for changing my life and making me a better person. You and Clydie. What I team. I love you so, my girl. Send me a sign. Love forever and ever. Your Mommy
10/4/23 My darling Zoe. How I miss you. OMG. It's not the same without you nor will it ever be. Oh, how I love you and pine for you. I am crying, Zoe. I want you to come home. Please come home, even for a moment. Delilah is here keeping me company, thank God. She is getting older, Zoe...12 and a half. It scares me so. I don't want it to be over. Pray for us, Zoe girl. I love you so. I need her to stay around a long, long time. Come to me in my dreams tonight. Bring Clydie. Forever and ever, your Mommy
'11/4/23 My little girl. How I mss you, Zoe. I am so grateful to have Delilah here with me. She is now twelve and a half and you know me. I am so nervous about losing her, I ruin the time we have. I
am scared. You and Clydie are on my wrist on a black rubber bracelet. It says your name and forever and ever. Why could that not be. I am crying because I miss you guys so much. Yesterday, a deer I have named Charlotte came up to me and let me kiss her on the nose and pet her. I gave her little carrots. She loved them and I loved her.Zoe. Where are you? come see me, please. I need you. Love and kisses always. Mommy
12/4/23 I am crying, my Zoe. I miss you so. Your birthday is coming up and you are not here with me. Where are you. There was a white feather and I thought it was you. Delilah is getting older, but she's good although a little hesitant on the wood floors. Daddy and I are ok. Missing you so much. My darling girl. Send me a sign today. I love you so. Forever, Mommy
1/4/24 My darling Zoe, the start of another year without you and I am crying I miss you so and will never be used to you and Clydie being gone. There is such holes in my heart without you, my darlings. Delilah is 12 1/2 and although she is fine I am very scared. Please say a doggie prayer for her, me and Daddy. I love you so, Zoe and I will forever. Your Mommy
2/4/24 My angel child, Zoe. How I miss you. It never changes. The days go by and you and Clyde are not here, and I see your photos every day. The memories remain vivid and never will fade. Delilah is getting older and I'm scared. She's well, but I'm scared, even though I try to stay in the moment. You know I was never good at that. If I could only have five minutes with you and Clydie. W
What I wouldn't give. The tears are flowing. I pray that you are ok and we will be together one day. If only I knew, but I want to believe. Send me a sign if you can. I'll love you forever and ever. Mommy
2/5/24 Zoe. My doctors Dog, Fred, just was helped to the bridge a little while ago. He is a pretty foxhound and I don't' want him to be alone. Find him and show him around and how to be an angel for his daddy, Pete. Love you..
3/4/24 My darling girl, Zoe. Tears are rnning down my cheeks. I miss you so much. I need you here beside me with Clydie.Cousin Bonnie's son, Leigh, has cancer. We are devastated and don't know what will happen. Please say doggie prayers for him to get well soon. It will kill my cousin if something happened to him My stomach is in knots and I have a migraine. I'm so scared. Look down on us and give us strength and well wishes. Delilah is fine, thank God. She will be 13 next month and it's scary. You know me! I love you, my darling dog. My heart dog. I am here if you want to visit. I would love it. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
4/4/24 My darling girl, Zoe. Oh how I am missing you tonight. Almost thirteen years have gone by and not a day goes by when I don't think of you and cry for you. You changed my life and I am not as I was. I love and miss you so much. OMG. Zoe. Please send me a sign. I will be looking for it. Eight thirty at night you left me. We didn't want to part. Tears are running down my cheeks as I wish so that you were here with me. Delilah is getting older too...almost thirteen and I'm scared, although thank God she is fine. I love you so much, Zo girl. Always remember that and stay close to Clydie. Forever and ever your loving Mommy
5/4/24 My angel girl, Zoe. 13 years ago, I asked you to breathe into my mouth so I could take you into my lungs and keep you there forever. You were leaving me. How was that possible? Clyde had to go just 28 days before you. No. I was losing my rocks. My foundation. My reasons to be happy. It was the darkest time. Now Delilah has turned 13 and you can imagine, knowing me as well as you do. I'm scared and trying not to ruin the time that is now. Thankfully, she is well. As a matter of fact, she sees Sammie on Monday for her well visit. Blood work and the like. I pray it all comes out well. It has to. I can't be without her. I don't wa
ant to be without you or Clydie. Your picture with me and Clyde hangs above the brick fireplace and I wear both your names on my wrist. Never take it off.I love you so. Tears are flowing, as always. I am loving you forever. Your Mommy You are gone 13 years tonight. I can't believe it.
6/4/24 My dearest darling Zoe. I am sitting here crying, missin gyou and Clydie so. Gram and Gramps are gone to and I know I will never be completely happy again.
Delilah is 13 now and I am so scared os losing her, I am ruining the time I have with her now. I can't help it. She is fine, thank God, but she is no longer young. Then, neither am I. Oh Zoe, why couldn't we go on together? I love you so. This is the day of the month that you left and I always write on that day, hoping you will come to me in a dream, or send a sign. I need you so badly. I love you so much. Daddy is fine, thank God. There is such a big chunk missing from my heart and with you and Clydie gone, I can't believe I go on. I know you would want me to, and that's why I do. I love and miss you so, forever and ever. Mommy
7/4/24 It is the fourth of July and I am crying Zoe. miss you so much. The tears will never stop for you and Clydie. Thank God Delilah is here and well, although she is now 13. You know how I worry. I hope you are well and look down on me and take care of me from above. We had fun together, didn't we? Remember when I used to take you and Clyde to Grandma and Grandpa's apt. and you would run up to the door and scratch on it? Life without you too just is not the same. I have your collars and I have your names on my wrist. I will never let go of wither of you. Oh, Zoe, I love you so much. Missing you always. Take care of yourself and Clyde-Bailey. Forever and ever, your loving Mommy
8/3/24 Dearest Zoe. I am writing early because I have to go to NY tomorrow and then to Florida. Bonnie's son Leigh passed away and we are all devastated. I wanted to make sure you got a letter from me and I wanted to tell you how you are missed and loved. Oh, Zoe. I wish you and Clyde-Bailey were here. Life is not the same. I love you so. Your, Mommy
9/4/24 My darling Zoe. I was looking through photos the other day and saw some of you and Clydie. God, I miss you so much. I still cry over you both and I always will. I am not the same since you are gone. We
have so memories together and I cherish them more than words can say. I hope you are ok and look down on me and Daddy and Delilah and keep us safe. i pray you are with Clyde-Bailey and you two stay together. I love you so and will always love you. Send me a sign. Your loving Mommy
10/6/24 My darling Zoe.. Missing you as always. I have the flu, but I will get well. Delilah was limping terribly, but Sammie gave her some meds and she is better.
I hope you and Clyde-Bailey are together. I miss your eyes. Your smell. Your love. Oh, Zoe. What a wonderful girl you are. Was that feather I found from you? I hope you are fine. Look down on me and know I will always be here for you. Daddy, too. Forever and ever, Your loving Mommy
11/4/24 My darling angel, Zoe. Missing you and crying. I can''t believe you have been gone so long. I love you. Tomorrow s the presidential election and you and Clydie must pray that Donald Trump is elected back to the White House. It's so important. The other side is awful.
Delilah is with me and she is now 13 and a half. You know that makes me so scared. I wish you and Clyde-Bailey were here with me. How I miss and love you. Always and forever. Your loving Mommy

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