by tanya
I kept asking dad to take Bambi to the vet to get the lump growing in her mouth checked out but he kept saying that it was a cyst and it would go away. It didn't. i kept asking but he never took us. finally mum agreed to take Bambi to the vet. the lump was now huge and red. the vet said they needed to cut it out to run tests and find out what it was. we went to pick bambi up from the vet and she was still drowsy. we live down the road from the vet so i carried her and she was just sitting there having a look at what was going on. dad got a call from the vet to say that the lump was cancer and it was an aggressive one. i remember not realising that this was going to kill her and not realising that it would come back. well it did come back and it grew huge. one morning i woke up and Bambi was sitting in her in her basket so i went over to pat her a hug her when i noticed blood on her doona. i then noticed that her cancer was bleeding because her tooth was coming down onto it. i told dad abotu it but he didn't seem to worried about it so i didn't worry. i went to hockey that morning and then went shopping with my friend. i was meant to be getting picked up by my sister but i saw my sisters friend there. i asked where was nicola and my mum told me that she was a mess and she was in the car with bambi. i thought that the cancer had gotten so bad that it was bleeding really bad but when i got into the car i realised that nicola being a mess was actually crying alot. i knew what this meant. we drove home and i tried to stay brave but i tried to hide my tears. i held bambi for a while on the way home and she seemed so innocent. when mum followed us home she rang up the vet and made an appointment for 6. nicola and i spent the rest of the time with bambi but she didn't know what was going on. we took lots of pictures which was really good for me even though mum said how can you take pictures of a dog that is going to die. anyway we made the walk to the vet, my mum, dad, sister, me and bambi. our next door neighbour was out the front and waved but nicola and me was crying so he must have thought what was going on. we made the wait in the waiting room and it was all a bit to much for me so i quickly went outside for some fresh air and came back in. we talked to the vet about what she thought we should do and she said that it was an aggressive cancer so even it we got it cut of again, it would come back. so we decided to have her put to sleep. the vet said she would take bambi and put her in a cage while we disscussed our options. the last thing i saw of bambi was her peering over the vets shoulder when she went through the door. the vet came back and said a nurse would be patting her when she would be put to sleep. i wish the vet asked us if we wanted to stay with her because i would have thought about it and said yes but i was crying to much to even think about that i i now regret it so much. she died on the 7th of june 2003 and i still cry about not staying with her i regret it so much. i'm sorry bambi that i didn't stay with you and i love you heaps and you will never be forgotten
love tanya
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