by U/K
Hi I recently visited Rainbows Bridge.
I lost my beloved cat of 16 years, Dusty, on December 8, 1998. Although
he was 17 years old it was sudden to lose him due to a liver problem. He
had been to the vet a couple weeks before for his yearly shots and I was
told he was doing well for his age and some of his blood counts were up
but it was something we would just monitor. It hit me and my family like
a ton of bricks when he died. I can't believe how much a month later it
still hurts. I feel like I have a hole in my heart. I feel so empty. I
just received his ashes back from the vet a couple of days ago. How do
you deal with the pain. I miss him so much. I have 2 other cats that I
got 4 years ago from my brother. They were his but he moved and couldn't
keep them, so I took them in. I never bonded with them like I did with
Dusty, they were just roommates and Dusty was my baby. I feel guilty
giving the 2 I have affection or more affection than I used to. I feel
guilty giving them extra affection... the affection that I miss giving
Dusty. Does this feeling of guilt ever subside or go away. Well thanks
for listening, I know you don't know me but I feel like you would
understand. Thank you.