by JP
Once and Never Again
the day had come
I knew what I had to do
she was in pain,
so was I.
I couldn't cry
my dad's eyes were watering
he was talking to me
but I didn't hear him
my soul and heart were breaking away,
more than anything
I wish she could stay
we pulled up to the building
my mind went numb
I held her to my cheek
she licked my face
I fought my tears
and took on a slow pace
I tried to slow
was was coming so fast
the needle was near
my heart pounded the inside of my chest
the vet asked if surgery was an option
I hung my head and swung it slowly
she sensed the tears that welled up inside
she'd hugged me and said it would be alright,
but I knew better than to beleive that.
I couldn't hold back,
I broke into sobbing.
she left the room
said she'd be right back
I told her to take her time
that was what I needed.
My dad left the room
knowing of my greif
and in my state that there would be no releif.
I stroked her little pink tail
and scratched behind her little pink ears
she sent me a thought wave message,
as she lickd my hand for the last time
"I am ready." she said
I then cried harder,
prssing her snow white fur against my cheek
I didn't want to give up my rat
she didn't want to go,
but we both knew she had to.
she clicked her teeth together
and gave me a sad look as she crawled
out of my hands,
and onto the doctors table.
the vet came in,
needle in hand
and asked if I was ready
"I never will be,"
I said to her,
"but it has to be done."
as I picked up my rat
I held her close,
and whispered into her perfect pink ear,
"I'm sorry."
If I have made you think,
my job has been done,
and I would like this o be put up for others to see,
and lots will be done, for the greif of them and thee.