by britt
well, i am only 17 and have experienced the loss of many of family, friends, and pets. but truly the saddest moment of my life occured yesterday. have you ever felt true sadness- no guilt, no anger, no other feeling but pure sadness, heartbreak? i can now say i have. its hard to accept a death, especially hard when you don't know how your beloved died, but you know it suffered. just the night before, she was normal, completely, lovingly normal- i pet her for the last time. she disappeared the whole day and i was worried sick. i came home only to find that my parents had found her, dying, with an unlexplainable wound that encompassed her side. maggots eating her alive. my baby, how i kick myself for not finding her sooner. she suffered alone until my parents found her and decided "putting her to sleep" would be the best considering she was so old- as old as me (17). i can hardly walk through my front yard without breaking down for her prescence is no longer there, her hello meow, her watching over the house, its hard. i can't remember life without her. she wasn't just a cat, she was my friend, my family, my precious "baby"
this is to Sebastian "SAbby"
?-June 10, 2003
i love you