by Nicole Davidson
To My Princess,
I hope you forgive me for trying to hold on to you longer than you wanted to stay, and I know that you held on because of me, despite the pain you were in. You were taken from me in just six years and I wasn't ready to let you go. You were my angel and the love I felt from you is beyond anything I can explain. When the day came to ease your suffering I hope you felt my love as I held you in my arms and watched you slip away, I told you that you were my bear and I would love you forever. I meant every word. It wasn't fair that my gentle baby had to go though such a terrible disease. I can still see the pain in your eyes the day I put you in the car. In a way I think you were thanking me, but I knew you didn't want to leave me anymore than I wanted you to go. My life hasn't been the same since you left, I still can see you running circles around me when I came back from being gone for even a few minutes. My lap has been empty for two years now and when I cry I still wish I had your black fur to dry my tears. I know your happy now and in a place where there is no more medicine and pain. I will never find another baby like you, and I wouldn't even try. You were and will always be my berry, and I will love you and miss you for the rest of my life. Wait for me, it might be a long time but I will find you I promise. My little angel you are missed so much everyday, and I love you!
Love,
Mommy