by Cindi Dean
Dear Shiny,
My big beautiful boy,it's been almost 8 years since you died. I still miss you. Sometimes I find myself almost in tears when I think about you. You were here through my last year in high school and when I went to college. You used to try to steal one of my duffle bags when it was time for me to go back to college at the end of the weekends. You looked so cute,carrying your pillows around. Eventhough Daddy, got you a nice big round bed, you prefered to sleep on the floor. You'd crack me up by sleeping with your legs open against the wall and your upper body twisted the other way.You also loved to steal children's gloves and hats when you went outside. One time, you came back with a little girl's underpants in your mouth.
I'm sorry, you fell off my bed and broke your leg. Then we found out that you had bone cancer. From the time you broke your leg until you died, you stoped sleeping in my room and slept in Mommy and Daddy's room. I think you knew the night before that you were going to die,because you cried at my bedroom door and tried to lay down in every place you used to when you slept in my room. I'm glad that I was there when you were put to sleep in our living room with Daddy. You struggled at first when the vet shaved your arm,but then you calmed down only when I told you that it was ok. I put your pillow under your head, one last time. You didn't seem to be annoyed at me this time like all the others.Then all too soon, you were gone, the vet and his assistant took you away and they left. The house and my heart was so empty. Sadly, Daddy, put your bed, pillow and toys in the attic.
I hope you understand why not long after you died, I got another golden. I put your baby and adult collars on my stuffed golden Rosie and she's always on my bed. My second Golden Rosie took away the emptiness you left in the house. She does act like you in some ways. She doesn't take your place in my heart, she just created a new place just for her.
I can imagine you in heaven creating the new people with a pillow in your mouth. I will always love you,forever. Mama