I love my cat Buzzy with all my heart. He was 14 years old and I was his mommy ever since he was 2 months old. I would do anything for him. On April 29, 2000 my cat Buzzy was attacked by our neighbors pit bull. We rushed him to the vet and he had the worst news I had ever heard. My Buzzy had sustained serious injuries from this dog attack. His upper and lower jaws were both broke in several places and he had a multitude of other injuries. As the Dr. had put it he had extreme cranial damage. I was devastated and hysterical. I was praying to God that there was something they could do for him. The Dr. said he would need several reconstructive surgeries. But given his age he would not make it past the first or second surgery. He said that Buzzy would suffer and the humane thing to do is put him down. He said he would try the surgery but he felt Buzzy would suffer too much and pass on anyway. I didn't want my Buzzy suffering for anything. Especially if he wasn't going to make it anyway. My heart sunk and I felt like I wanted to die. All can remember is how horrible my Buzzy looked and when I looked down at him all I could see is the pain he was going through. So I knew what had to be done. I could never let any animal suffer. It wasn't fair to Buzzy that I wanted him around at any cost but he would suffer and go anyway. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. So my Buzzy is in heaven now. Everyone tells me I made the right decision that it wouldn't be fair to let an animal suffer because I wasn't willing to let go. I feel so guilty. I feel like I let my baby down. I should have never let him ever go outside. Then he wouldn't have been attacked by this dog. I just hope he knows that I did the best thing I could for him. I want him to know that I did this because I love him. I didn't want to prolong his agony. But why do I feel so guilty. I keep going through the I should've done this and I should've done that. But it's too late. Buzzy I hope you know that mommy did whatever she could for you and I love you and you'll always be in my heart and you'll always be here with me in spirit. Carmie