We went to the mountains this weekend and your Dad took me 4 wheeling up this jeep trail. At first I was scared, but I figured I'd go, since I was missing you so much and I needed to get out of the house. We had to hike up to this hidden lake at 11,200 feet. But when we got there, I started to cry almost immediately. It was the most beautiful place I had ever seen. If there is such a place as Heaven on Earth, this was it. It was a beautiful meadow filled with wildflowers and a beautiful glacier filled lake. The fish were jumping and the birds were signing. I picture this place like where you are - hopefully. I was sad at first because I started thinking about you - but then I was at ease by something that came over me. I don't know what it was - but your face flashed in front of me and I felt at peace almost immediately. I had a dream about you that same night where you came to me and told me that you were okay. I woke up crying and couldn't go back to sleep. It was if you came to me and let me know that even though I miss you terribly, you are in a safe and comfortable place and that we will see each other soon. I miss you more than you will ever know. It will be 3 weeks tomorrow, and I still can't get rid of your food dish. I just can't bring myself to take it away. Someday soon, I know that I will have the strength to, but until then, it still sits in the same place as it did that day. I love you Pookie. I always have and I always will. XOXOXOXO - Mommy