Candy and I drove to the vets one final time Friday 5/4/01 for a biopsy to confim cancer. I asked the vet what was best for her and he agreed that we could put her to sleep that day. He said he didn't think Candy was in pain, yet, but within a week she would be. He said she probably felt discomfort because of her kidneys and that's why she was restless throughout the night. I told him I trusted him to tell me the right thing to do. He said it was the very best thing I could do for her and that by doing so, we wouldn't have to have her suffer. He said he would give me some time alone with her in the exam room but then he did the most beautiful thing. He said, "Wait! I have an even better idea. Because it was such a beautiful day outside and Candy is so special, let's do something special for her. Take her outside and find a nice spot and spend some time with her. When you're ready, you let us know, Then, I'll come out to you and we'll do the procedure right there." It was beautiful. Candy and I found a shaded area next to a large pine tree next to an open field. The sun was shining, a warm breeze was blowing... We sat down and said our good-byes, then the vet came out and sat down next to Candy. I held her head and talked to her as he administered the shot. It didn't even take 30 seconds and she quietly closed her eyes and fell asleep forever. I had a few extra minutes with her alone then they came out with a stretcher and after I gave her one last kiss, they carried her away. I'm having her cremated so I can keep part of her (aside from our memories) with me. I felt so empty and lonely. I can't believe my baby is gone. My beautiful sweetheart. I miss her so much. My vet kept assuring me that I was doing the best and nicest thing I could ever do for Candy and that "I was a good mommy". She died so peacefully, She didn't feel a thing. I wish I was out of tears but they appear every now and again, still. I know it will take time to heal but I wish for all the world that we didn't have to lose her so soon. She only came into my life in October. She was so special. I ache that she had to suffer at all. I pray my baby is doing wonderful. I just know she is happy and peaceful and has crossed over the "Rainbow Bridge".