Well, my Ted it's been a year & a bit since you went home and although I think of you many times each day (and sometimes shed some tears) that terrible ache has subsided. I am amazed to be walking through the very event I feared for almost 18 years! I think it helps somewhat that you were so undeniably sick when you passed and I knew we were helping ease your pain. You weren't scared at all and I'm comforted by the memory of holding you tightly and whispering "what a good boy you are" as you laid your little head down to sleep. (I still can see your beautiful ears) And, oh my Ted, you were SUCH a very good dog; there will never be another with your little 'smirk' & sense of humor! I feel so blessed to have had you as my best friend for so many years...you taught me how to love & be loved fearlessly. Niki & June are keeping your dad & I company and we love & enjoy them, but you will never be forgotten. Your pictures still fight for space with Marissa's and even though she's a young lady now she still jokes that "Mom always loved Ted best!". I wake sometimes & imagine I feel you scrunched down at my side (so much muscle & chutzpah for 4.5 pounds), it makes me smile to think. Tedward, this first anniversary day was tough especially because I discovered you had died 15 years to the day after my mom who gave us to each other and loved you so. But after that initial wrench I was just so moved because to me it seemed that Heavenly Father must love us all very much to make it so clear that he reunited the two of you and that one day we will all be joyously together again. For time & all eternity! I love you more than words can say; thank you for loving us all and bringing such joy & comfort to our family for many, many years (thanks for hanging on til I was safe). See you soon; be a good boy & guard the house! Mamachick