My beloved Casey Bear will be gone from me 6 years this Saturday, July 29th. My beloved Brandi Bear will be gone from me 3 months already on August 10th. I have my Brandi Bear's and Casey Bear's ashes in Cherry Wood Urns with Chow figurines on top, surrounded by their pictures. I miss them both so badly but Brandi Bear was my soulmate. I had her for 10 short years and we could hold conversations with our eyes. I knew she was sick for about 9 months before she died. But the vet would not believe me. He told me I was overreacting because she was showing signs of age. I started about 9 months ago with a pain in my left kidney. At first I thought it was a kidney infection cause it was a knife like pain, but then it didn't leave any after ache. So I brushed it aside, figuring it was the way I was sitting on the computer chair so much. But about a month before Brandi died, I got the pain and it did leave an after ache. So I figured it was time to go to the doctors. I thought for sure it was a kidney infection. Well, as it turned out, there was nothing wrong with my kidneys. But after the doctor finally diagnosed her with "Congestive Heart Failure" It was too late. My Brandi Bear died 5 days later with KIDNEY FAILURE & UREMIC KIDNEY POISONING. If the vet had listened to me, she would still be here. The day her kidneys stopped functioning, my pain went away and I have not gotten it back since and that will be 3 months ago on Aug. 10th. I had had the pain every day for almost 9 months. The pain I thought was mine, was really hers. This is how connected we were. She has come to visit me twice since she left. The first night was the night she died. It was 11:30 pm and I was on the IM with a friend of mine. My husband and kids were all asleep. All of a sudden my other 2 dogs were outside and begun to bark like crazy. Then there was 3 light taps on my front door. I went to check but no one was there. Then 20 minutes later, the vet called to tell me that he came in to check on Brandi and she had passed away. My heart was shattered. This was my "daughter" he was talking about. And it was her that came home one last time to say good bye. From that day on Kodi Bear would not eat. I was worried he would be next. Then 13 days after Brandi bear passed on to the Bridge, I was sitting at my computer. It was in the early afternoon. Kids were in school and daycare, hubby was at work. All of a sudden, I had the most eerie feeling that someone was in the room with me. I swung around but no one was there. Then the feeling was coming from beside me. At firat I though Kodi had come in but he was not there. Then all of a sudden I realized that the presence was coming from the floor beside my computer chair, and that is where Brandi Bear always laid. My baby girl had come to visit her mommy. The presence was so strong, that I got off the chair and kneeled on the floor and went through the motions of petting, hugging and talking to her. Telling her I loved her more than anything in my life. Then she was gone. She must have visited Kodi that day too, because he mysteriously started eating again. More proof that our babies are with us even though we cannot see them. Please visit Brandi And Casey Bear's Park. Please sign their guest book. The address is www.geocities.com/brandiandcaseybearspark/