My world came to an end last night. My heart is shattered, and my soul is broken. Brandi Bear, my angel, the heart of my heart, the soul of my soul and the life of my life was taken from me. To say that she left her pawprints on my heart is an understatement. She left her whole being in my heart and in my soul The bond we had was so deep that I literally felt her pain for many months before I knew she was in pain. We communicated telepathically. She told me she was sick about 9 months ago, I could not convince anyone that she was speaking to me. The pain I felt was in my kidneys. I even went to the doctors after having the pain for 9 months thinking I had a kidney infection. I had no kidney infection. But my angel did. She deteriorated and only I could see it. Not even the vets could see it. All my babies are precious to me, but my Brandi Bear was special. Never was I able to communicate and feel the pain of any other of my babies as I did with my angel Brandi Bear. My heart will feel the pain forever. Brandi Bear, my precious daughter, Mommy loves you with all of my heart and soul and I will miss your sweet face and your presence for as long as I am on this earth. You were the very centre of my being. My lifeline to hope. My sunshine on a cloudy day. My warmth in the dead of winter. My child, my little girl. Yesterday, as sick as you were, you lifted your precious head and looked straight at me, your precious eyes looked right into my soul. You told me you loved me and I could feel those words burn into my soul, even though you never spoke them. But you also told me "good bye Mommy". I heard you say you love me and I heard you say goodbye. Oh my precious angel, my baby, how will I ever survive without you? Mommy misses you so desperately already. I can't believe you are gone. I dreaded this day for 10 years. They were the most wonderful years I have ever lived. God truely blessed me when He sent you to me. I still remember the day so clearly, it seems like just yesterday. I bought you for $100 at the flea market. They wanted $150 but since it was the end of the day and you were the last Chow puppy left, they let me have you at a discount. I got the best part of the deal. You were the greatest. You were the best. You were a gift from God. But now our Father has called you home. But I know it won't be forever. I will hold you in my arms again some day. So please sweetheart, please wait for Mommy at Rainbow Bridge. Find your brother Casey Bear and your sister April, and stay close to them. Mommy will be there some day for all of my children. Brandi my angel, may God hold you in His loving arms until that day when we will all be reunited and never be parted again. God Bless you dear daughter. I love you with all my heart and soul, Love, Mommy XXXXX OOOOO