ALWAYS REMEBERED
by CHRISTINE MCNABNEY
THE HARDEST PART OF LOSING YOUR SPECIAL FURRY FRIEND IS THE MORNING AFTER, WHEN YOU WAKE UP KNOWING YOUR HEART WILL NEVER MEND WE SPENT EVERYDAY TOGETHER FOR SIX LONG WONDERFUL YEARS I NEVER THOUGHT SUCH HAPPINESS COULD END IN SO MANY TEARS I PUT YOU IN BED EVERY NIGHT WITH YOUR 4 SISTERS AND 2 BROTHERS YOU EACH HAVE YOUR SPECIAL SPOT A KISS FROM ME THEN UNDER THE COVERS DAY IN AND DAY OUT WAS PRETTY MUCH ROUTINE UNTIL THE AWFUL DAY YOU SLIPPED OUT THE BACK DOOR ALL YOU WANTED TO DO WAS LOOK AROUND BEING AN INDOOR CAT YOU WANTED TO EXPLORE YOU WERE ONE OF MY SEVEN FURR KIDS BUT ANY TIME OF THE DAY I ALWAYS KNEW WHERE EACH ONE OF YOU WERE NO MATTER WHAT CRAZY PLACE YOU CHOSE TO LAY WATCHING AND PROTECTING YOU MAKING SURE YOUR LIFE WAS THE BEST I NEVER THOUGHT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I'D BE PUT TO THE ULTIMATE TEST AS I WENT ABOUT MY THINGS I DIDN'T PAY CLOSE ENOUGH ATTENTION TO ALL THE USUAL THINGS YOU'D DO SOME SO SILLY, THAT I WILL NOT MENTION I SHOOK THE TREAT BAG, TIME FOR BED YOU WERE USUALLY THE FIRST IN LINE 2,4, THEN 6 OF CAME RUNNING IN WHERE WAS THAT NALA GIRL OF MINE I FELT A LITTLE LUMP IN MY THROAT WONDERING, WHEN DID I SEE HER LAST TODAY FEELING THE PANIC I STARTED TO LOOK EVERY PLACE SHE MAY HAVE DECIDED TO PLAY AS EACH ROOM KEPT COMING UP EMPTY I COULDN'T HOLD BACK THE TEARS LOOKING OUTSIDE SEEING THE SKY SO BLACK THEN CAME THE REALIZATION OF ALL MY FEARS NOT ONE TIME IN HER LIFE WITH US HAS SHE EVER BEEN IN THE DARK SHE MUST BE SO SCARED, I KNOW SHE IS FOR ONCE I WISHED SHE COULD BARK I DIDN'T LEAVE THE CHAIR ALL NIGHT WAITING, WONDERING AND THINKING THE WORST MY STOMACH WAS TURNING AND FILLED WITH GUILT AS MORNING CAME, TEARS STARTED TO BURST MY HUSBAND CAME DOWN AND GAVE ME A HUG THE SUNS COMING UP HE SAID, I'LL GO LOOK OUTSIDE I SAID A QUIET LITTLE PRAYER WHILE HE WAS GONE IT TOOK SO LONG FOR HIM TO COME BACK, I WANTED TO HIDE WITH NO EXPRESSION ON HIS FACE HE CAME AND SAT DOWN NEXT TO ME I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK, WAS IT GOOD OR BAD BUT IN HIS EYES I STARTED TO SEE IN A SOFT VOICE HE SAID, HONEY SHE'S BEEN HIT BY A CAR MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT, I COULD NOT BREATH I DIDN'T BELIEVE HIM I DIDN'T WANT TO I WANTED TO RUN - I JUST WANTED TO LEAVE I SCOOPED HER UP IN MY ARMS, BUT THIS TIME WAS SO DIFFERENT HER BODY BADLY BROKEN, HER SHINY FUR NOW COVERED IN DIRT THE SPARKLE IN HER EYE WAS GONE, SHE WAS GETTING SO COLD I WAS SO SICK INSIDE I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BAD IT HURT I HELD HER CLOSE AND WHISPERED IN HER EAR PLEASE FORGIVE ME, I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT BEING THERE YOU SHOULD OF BEEN MY PRIORITY LIKE EVERY OTHER DAY I GOT CAUGHT UP IN MY WORLD, THEN COULDN'T FIND YOU ANYWHERE IT SEEMED SO IMPOSSIBLE THAT YOU WERE LEAVING ME AS I LAID YOU IN YOUR COFFIN FILLED WITH SATIN AND LOTS OF LACE YOU HAD SO MUCH LIFE LEFT IN YOU, SO MANY YEARS TO PLAY I TOUCHED HER NOSE WITH MINE AND PUT A KISS UPON HER FACE THERE WILL NOT BE A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I WON'T THINK OF YOU THE WAY YOU WOULD NUDGE ME WITH YOUR NOSE AND LICK ME TO LET ME KNOW IT WAS TIME FOR A KISS AND SOME LOVES IF I COULD ONLY RELIVE YESTERDAY, SO THANKFUL I WOULD BE PEOPLE TELL ME YOU ARE HAPPY NOW AND I HOPE THIS IS TRUE I THINK THAT I CAN'T POSSIBLY SHED ANOTHER TEAR BUT THEY KEEP COMING AND COMING BECAUSE I KNOW YOU COULDN'T BE LOVED MORE THAN YOU WERE LOVED HERE I HEARD OF THIS PLACE CALLED "RAINBOW BRIDGE" IT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PLACE YOU CAN FIND THE DAYS ARE LONG, SUNNY AND WARM AND THERE ARE NO WORRIES YOU'LL BE THE ONE FEELING SAD FOR ME BEING LEFT BEHIND WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND OH YOU WILL BE MISSED WHEN I THINK OF YOU NOW, IT WILL BE IN A WARM SUNNY PLACE CHASING BUTTERFLYS AND TAKING LONG AFTERNOON NAPS LAYING ON YOUR BACK WITH THE SUN SHINING ON YOUR FACE IN LOVING MEMORY OF NALA GIRL 9/6/96 - 10/18/02
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