by Alyssa Monahan
I can remember the first time that I saw him. A kitten of no more than six months. Scared, skitish, and starving. I fell in love with him instantly. He was white with orange spots. A beautiful little pink nose with a large orange spot right by it. .I named him Bart because he was very mischevious like Bart Simpson. I feed him all the food he could possibly consume and took him under my wing. His personality was beautiful. Very needy but at the same time he gave back so much in return. Bart was the most lovable cat I have ever known. So affectionate....Yet he got into so much trouble! He distroyed just about all of my possesions..He chewed everything!..Yet that just made me love him more. I miss our days and night together. I miss how he cried for food, even though he had so much in his dish. He really was such a little piggy!(He got big over the five years he was in my life). I miss how he would bat at my shower curtain when I was showering...wanting to get to the big "toy" behind it....Or how he would lay in the bathroom sink because he knew that I loved it so much and would take pictures of him and tell him how cute he was. I miss all the nights when we would sleep together and cuddle...How he would paw at my face and kiss my cheek. I miss holding him and kissing him and how we would always "head butt" each other as our greeting and show of affection.
I simply cannot bear to go home to my apartment now. It is so empty. Everything reminds me of him. My heart is broken. I pray that Bart is happy and that he knows that I will be coming for him soon. I didn't just let him leave. I thought we were going to be together for twenty years! I had plans for the three of us. (He has a brother kitty, Bun). We were supposed to walk the miles together. I promised him a big house with a big yard to play in. I wanted to give him everything, but "God" had other plans and took him at the young age of five. He had a heart attack. I am devistated. My boyfriend told me that only angels die young...Because they have more important work to do in other "lives"...People and animals and all kinds of creatures to help. I am selfish though. I would give anything to have my angel here with me so I can love him and take care of him. So I can walk the long and winding road of life hand and paw, with my Barty. I will always love you Bart. You are my heart...My soul. We shall meet again someday.
Bun and I miss you terribly. Bun is very upset and confued I know he knows that you are gone. Please dont be jealous, baby. I know how you get! We need to support each other because we both are morning your loss. We feel your absence so deep. It will never be the same without you, my love. Though you are gone, you will live forever in my heart and soul...I am loving you my Bart..ALWAYS. My heart aches for you.
I simply cannot bear being without you.
Love,
Mama and Bun-Bun, whom loves and misses you too.