Well, as of tomorrow, it will be exactly a year since my dog Piggy has died. I'm not exactly sure what to do, or how to act. I'm trying so hard not to think about it, but it's so hard not to. Everytime I stop and think about her my heart hurts to the point where it physically feels like it's being torn in half... I wish there was a way I could tell her how much I miss her and love her, and I wish that I could just hide away from the world tomorrow... I don't know how I'm going to deal with people... The anniversary of the worst, most painful day of my life. I've been dreading this day. I can't believe a year has gone by, but then again, so much has happened, and it seems like decades since I last held Piggy in my arms. I embrace the thought of death now, where I had previously been afraid. I have complete confidence that when my time comes, my sweet beagle will be waiting for me with her big brown eyes, and her tail lovingly wagging side to side.... So, maybe I'm just hoping I'll sleep right through tomorrow... I don't want to be awake and have to dwell on the date all day long. I just want to sleep in peace and have her visit me. It's gotten better over the year, I've learned to control my emotions better, but there are sometimes I stop and think about her and the wound still feels fresh... I feel for everyone who has lost a pet, and share my sympathy and concern for you... It was the most difficult thing I've ever done... I'm not sure if I could ever go through anything like this again. My heart has been permanently broken through the loss of Piggy. It's made me sadder than I ever thought possible, but also made me realize how precious life is... So, everyone remember you never know when your time is up and how much you have to spend with those you love. I'd give anything for more time with Piggy, but it's too late...