A year has gone by already. One whole year. I think of you often, the memories almost always bringing tears with them. I miss you, Ham. I can hardly believe you've been gone for so long. I yearn to wear my "fur collar" again, listening to the contented purring in my ear. My arms feel so empty without you in them, as does my lap. Remembering the way you would gaze so lovingly into my eyes as I held you always brings a smile to my heart. You have left a legacy behind you, though, one of unconditional love and caring. You and your sister taught us how to be good parents to other kitties who need a loving home. We made a lot of mistakes with you, ones we won't make again. Most importantly, we learned that a little bitty furry thing can give and receive love with a totally open heart, and that our lives are richer for it. Mommy & Daddy adopted two little boys last year, a month after you passed on (I just couldn't bear the loneliness). Your life now touches theirs, even without you being here in life. Although we love the boys with all we have to give them, there will never be a replacement for you. Tonight at sunset I will have a remembrance ceremony for you; I'll place your memorial in the garden, burn prayer ties and sing songs and read poems in your honor. Even though I have to let you go, I hope you know how much you're loved, even now, for all time. Enjoy eternity in the sun, Babycat. I love you so.