by Pat Thomas
Rest in peace, my beautiful baby, until we are together once again.
09/25/02 - By now, my precious baby, you have probably reunited with your little mother, Minnie, as she went to the Bridge today. I know that she will be so happy to see you and hear all about your wonderful life that you shared with us. She will probably want to hear all about your little brother, Poppy, too. Remember, sweet baby, she is the one that brought you to us when you were babies and gave you and your brother to us to raise and share our lives with. And what wonderful lives they have been! Remind little Minnie that we will always love her, for she gave us the most precious gift we could have ever received....YOU!
09/28/02 - It has been one month since you left me and went to the Bridge, my wonderful, sweet baby and my heart still breaks from missing you. I know you and Minnie, your little mother, are getting reaquainted and having a good time, but don't forget to watch for your Mamma to come to the Bridge so that I can finally feel your precious little body in my arms, again, and kiss that sweet little pink nose and look into those beautiful golden eyes. I love you, my precious angel. Love, play and rest during your time at the Bridge until you can be back in my arms once again.
12/25/02 - Here it is, my sweet baby, the most wonderful time of the year for you. How you loved the Christmas tree with all of the lights on it twinkling and making your little eyes shine and on Christmas morning going into the Christmas room and finding what Santa left you and Poppy. You would lay under the tree for hours until I got the gifts under there. Then you would move out from under the tree but stayed close to it and all of "your" presents under the tree. You would always watch as the gifts were taken away and looked so sad because some of the gifts were not there for you to enjoy anymore. And on Christmas day, after all of the gifts were opened and the room was in a complete mess, you would, again, lay under the tree with a little sad look on your face. Your gifts were all gone and you knew that soon your tree would have to go away, too. Well, my precious baby, your tree is up with all of its lights, the gifts are under the tree and the Christmas music is playing. I even found a Van Craven Christmas CD that I bought and have played over and over again. I pray that you are able, in some way, to hear that music, because you loved it so much, and see the lights on the tree twinkling. They don't seem as bright to me this year as in the past, and the season isn't as joyful, because you took the joy with you when you had to leave me. My precious angel, my heart still breaks from missing you and I know Christmas won't be the same ever again, because my Christmas angel is not with me anymore. By the way, your daddy and Poppy said to say hello to you and tell you that they love you and miss you terribly. My precious baby, I hope you will have Christmas day at the Bridge and that it is more special than any you ever had here with us, because you deserve it. And I hope that in some way you can enjoy Christmas here with us from the Bridge and that you can see the fun on Christmas morning and see Poppy as he goes in to see what Santa brought him and that it makes you happy to watch us. I know that you loved your little brother and always watched after him. I am trying to do that for you, now, and hope I can make him happy again. Tell Minnie that we love her and miss her, too, and I hope that you and she can celebrate Christmas and you can show her all of the fun that you used to have during the season. I remember that she used to go around the house and get on the window sill and look at the lights on the Christmas tree, so she loved it, too, my sweet baby. You brought so much happiness and joy into our lives every day, not just at Christmas. Be sure and let her know that, Sweetsie, so that she will know that she did the right thing all of those years ago in bringing you to us. We love you, my angel, and miss you so terribly. Be sure to keep a close watch so that you will see your mamma when it's time for us to be together again. You will be here on Christmas morning, if only in our hearts. Merry Christmas, Baby.
12/31/02 - My precious sweet angel, finally, the worse year of my life is about to end. I will always remember this year as the year that took my angel away from me so suddenly and for no apparent reason. I will never understand why an angel like you, with so much love and happiness to give, had to leave this earth, but other people, who spread fear and unhappiness everywhere they turn, are still allowed to live among us. I will never understand that. My heart still breaks for you, my precious baby. Not a day goes by that a tear doesn't fall and my heart cracks a little more. Soon, the crack will be so big and the tears so plentiful that they will wash me straight to the Bridge and you, forever together this time. I love you, my precious baby. As the years go by for me, they are but like seconds for you. So, don't forget your Mamma, sweet one. Enjoy your stay at the Bridge and your little mother, Minnie, and all of your new friends until we meet and cross the Bridge together. May your new year be wonderful and blessed. Remember I love you, my Sweetsie. My heart is now and forever will be yours. Happy new year, my wonderful sweet baby. Your Mamma loves you so much!
02/12/03 - Today is your mamma's birthday, baby. This is the first birthday I have had since you left me 6 months ago. We always had a good time on our birthdays, didn't we? And you enjoyed them as much as we did. Today will not be as special as the last 14 birthdays have been, because you are not with me. I can't watch your little face light up when I am opening my gifts and you attack the paper and fly down the hall with it in your mouth. I have my memories, baby, but I don't have you. That would be the best birthday present I could ever receive, to hold you in my arms once again. Until we can do that, my precious, please don't forget your mamma and watch for me to come and be with you when it is my time to come to the Bridge. Until then, I will love you and treasure you in my heart and in my soul.
02/14/03 - Happy Valentines Day, my precious baby. My heart is still breaking on this very special day because my special little valentine isn't with me. Don't forget your Mamma, sweet baby, and watch for her to arrive at the Bridge to be with you forever. Until then, my Sweetsie, just know how much I love you.
04/14/03 - It's Easter time, Sweet Baby. You always loved your little Easter basket filled with goodies just for you and all of the fake grass and Easter eggs and your little gray bunny on the table that you made friends with every year. Your bunny is still with us, Precious, but you are not and things will never be the same, including Easter. You always loved the smell of chocolate and it hurt your mamma so much that she couldn't share that with you, but now she can. You have your chocolate bunny and Easter eggs and enjoy them, Sweetsie, and remember how much your mamma loved and loves you. We miss you and love you so much, my sweet little baby.
05/01/03 - Happy Birthday, my precious baby. You would have been 15 today if you were still with me. We are helping Poppy celebrate his birthday, but as you know, he has never cared about things like that like you did. It's hard to believe it has been 15 years since we found you and your brothers in that box with your mother in our garage. What a wonderful day that was and what a wonderful gift you were every day you were with us. I still miss you so very much, my precious baby. So, celebrate your birthday with your new friends until we are together again. I miss you, baby. Happy Birthday!
05/11/03 - Well, it's Mother's Day, Baby, my first one without you. The special feeling just isn't with me today. I love you, my precious baby, and will until the day we meet at the Bridge and cross it together.
08/28/03 - My precious baby, it has been a whole year since I last held you in my arms and kissed your precious little pink nose and looked into those beautiful golden eyes of yours to see all of the love in the world shining back at me from your inner soul. I'm not sure how I have survived this year, my little Sweetsie, or how I will survive the next year and the one after that and the one after that. I guess just taking each day as it comes and doing the best I can to deal with the pain in my heart and the sadness in my soul. This day one year ago was by far the worst day of my life and one that I will never forget or recover from completely. Now, I know, my baby, you wouldn't want your mamma crying and being sad, and I'm trying, Baby, I really am. And someday the tears may fall less frequent, but the pain will never go away. I love you and miss you so much, my precious angel. I pray that you are happy and at peace and watching for me to meet you at the Bridge some day. Please, never forget your mamma who loved and loves you so, because I will never come close to forgeting you. So, until we meet again, my precious, be at peace and worry about nothing. Your mamma still loves you and misses you just as much as ever. So, my baby, it's one day at a time, until we meet at the Bridge and cross it together.
10/31/03 - Well, here we are at Halloween, once again, my sweet baby. My second one since you left me and it is no easier than the last one. Remember your little pumpkins that you and Poppy had, the ones with the lights inside that we put in the windows every Halloween? Well, I can't bring myself to get them out this year. They are still in the closet where I put them the last time we lit them and your little face lit up every time the light came on. Just another tradition gone, because you are gone. Not out of my life and my heart, just not in my arms anymore. Rest in peace, my beautiful baby, and watch for your mamma to join you at the Bridge some day so that we can cross it together. Some day, my baby, our family will have all of its links connected once again, and forever this time. I love you, my sweet baby.
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