by SANDY WANTUCH
My first meal without you
I can't eat
The food is nauseating
You're not here to share it with
It hurts so bad
My first night without you
The house is quiet and empty
The bedroom is eerie and silent
Your essence is still there
I listen for your breathing or movement
It is not there
It hurts so bad
Minutes crawl by
Hours pass slowly
I cry thru' the night
Sleep eludes me
With swollen eyes
I rise out of bed
Was it just a bad dream?
It hurts so bad
My first morning without you
I cry in the shower
You do not need your medicine today
overwhelming ache realizing you're gone
You're not coming back home
This begins the first day of my life without you
I crawl back into bed
Sobbing~grieving
I cannot go back to sleep
I pace-walking from room to room
It can't be happening
I search for comfort
I find none
It hurts so bad....
......It hurts so bad....