I held my babe so close today, my heart just shattered as he slipped away. I know no-one will ever understand, how i felt his coldness reach my hand. 'Has he gone?' I screamed through so much pain, the fear of knowing life would NEVER be the same. Yet time stood still as i hugged him 'goodbye', Id have sold my soul to have not let him die. The several weeks now without you here, I still sob at night and pray you are near. I rescued at 6 weeks old, sat here alone with a heart so cold. Id rather HATE those close to me, than let them near enough to see, the last thread of my dream has died, You've left me so alone inside. XXX