I am very pleased to say i didnt choose to go away. now i'm in this special place my pain has gone without a trace. i know that you still miss me so, because i had to sadly go. bu i dont want you to cry a tear, cause i am alwas very near. i no you cant see no more, of me coming through that door but i just want you to know that i will always love you so. i always see you at my grave, wishing you could sadly save, me from from that awful death, holding that enourmous breath holding all the tears you cry, because you never got to say goodbye. but i would like to say that i, never want to hear you cry just think of all the fun we had, weighing out all the bad. so please carry on and pray, so that i can gladly say, that i am their everday saying that im okay. now i will relie on you to come to heaven when you are through, god will let your body free, so you can come and visit me.