Memories of Molly
Molly was, and always will be, my beloved longhaired, chocolate-dappled mini Dachshund with one brown and one blue eye. She & I were sole mates and she was affectionately called Molly Bee. I bonded with her like I've never bonded with any dog before. I named my little retail toy shop and website- Molly Bee's - after her.
I watched her being born and visited her almost every day til I brought her home. The breeder lived in my neighborhood, about 100 yards from my house at that time.I would visit almost every day before I could take her home. Molly would hear my voice and would sit in the corner of the playpen-type cage to wait for me to come over to see her - even at 4 weeks old - whether the other pups were sleeping or not. She would just sit there and wait for me to pick her up.
When she was 9 months old, she was out in our yard in the rain doing her "thing" when I had to go up the street for an errand. She sat out in the rain looking out through the gate for almost 40 minutes and wouldn't come in the house til my husband went out to get her - soaking wet. She was waiting for me to come back.
In her 9 1/2 short years, on the only two occasions that we left her with others to go on a short vacation (my sister doggy sat one time and my daughter the other), she sat at the door all day and slept by the door at night waiting for me to come home. She even howled a few times which I have never heard her do.
She has always been an active little fluffball. She was so soft and cuddly - all 11 pounds of her. She loved to go on walks, dig at chipmunk holes-laying there with her nose in the ground for hours, run into the lake to swim when she saw those "duckies",and enjoyed her favorite treat of cheese. She would snuggle with me at every chance and I swear she could read my mind.
We live near the lake and Molly LOVED to go for a ride in our boat or canoe. She would sit on my lap facing forward and let her ears flap backwards in the wind. She also loved riding on a blow up raft. She would stand on the edge and look down into the water.
Molly's favorite treat was a piece of cheese. I used cheese as a housebreaking treat, so she would run in after being outside and jump up and down in front of the refrigerator with all four legs bouncing equally like she was on a trampoline, making a funny little Arr,Arr,Arr noise.
She was diagnosed with a slight heart murmur at her last checkup a few months ago, so I brought her to a wonderful cardiologist who has been treating one of our other Dachshunds. She never had any outward symptoms of the heart disease, but the prognosis wasn't very hopeful. She was put on heart medication to help with the function of her ailing heart. All was well and she was her same old self until last week when she started coughing alot. I made another appointment with the cardiologist for the following week, but ended up rushing her to the nearby Pet Emergency Hospital when I came home from work that afternoon to find her in respiratory distress with a purple tongue. Her little heart started giving out and her lungs were filling with fluid. She spent the night on oxygen, nitroglycerin patches and IV to relieve the fluid in her lungs. She had to be given a sedative to calm her down. She hated being there. She was doing well by morning and I was to keep her on fluid pills until she could see the cardiologist.
She seemed fine for 4-5 days and spent them at my store with me so that I could keep a constant eye on her. She started to become lethargic and began coughing again on the 6th day. On the 6th night about 10 pm (March 19, 2009), only two days before her appointment, she had a severe coughing episode and went into respiratory distress again. I rushed her back to the Pet ER for the same treatment however, this time she was not recovering as quickly. The ER called the hospital where the cardiologist worked to make arrangements for Molly to be seen the very next morning instead of her regular appointment in 2 days. I picked her up at the Pet ER and drove her to Massachusetts from New Hampshire early the next morning. Though she was breathing better, it still wasn't as good as it should have been. Her tongue was still slightly purple and she started panting when she realized we were walking into another veterinary facility. I had to walk around outdoors holding her so that she would remain calm until the doctor could see her. She closed her eyes when the sun hit her face and seemed to relax like she used to do in the yard on a sunny day.
The cardiologist gave Molly an ultrasound and after the exam, presented me with the grim news that her heart was failing. He offered to keep her for a few days to administer more meds and see if she responded to staying in an oxygen unit for a few days. I knew that she would not make it if she had to stay in the hospital without me. She freaked out any time she was left at the vets and that wouldn't help her situation. It would have stressed her heart even more.
I knew Molly wouldn't make the weekend at home and did not want her to die in that Pet ER, so I did the only humane thing I could do for my baby. I sent her on her way to Rainbow Bridge.
March 23, 2009 6:47 am
It's been about 61 hours since my baby left me and I still feel as badly as I did before. The hardest part is coming home and not seeing her sweet little face greeting me at the door.
Molly had this funny little thing she would do with my husband. He would hold her in his arms like you would hold a baby. Then he would take his hand and make it look like it was coming in to land on her tummy. She would stare at it until his fingers actually touched her and then she would let out this long, fake growl. The minute his fingers stopped touching her, the growl would stop as if it had an off button. He could do this over and over again and she would make that same funny noise as if she was going to attack him. Then she would reach up with her little face and give him a ton of kisses. I wish I had put it on video.
March 25, 2009 9:20am
My other 3 Dachshunds know something is not right. Poor Riley (almost blind and 17 years old) misses his "seeing eye" sister. Molly was the youngest of all 4 and yet played the Big Sister part for Riley as his eyesight got worse. When Riley became confused as to where the door was, Molly would run out , bump him in the right direction with her nose and grab his collar to tug him towards the door until he found his way in. No one taught her that. How did she know? Riley constantly walks around the house sniffing the blankets of all the places where Molly used to nap.
Jenny, our 12 year old, misses her little buddy. Jenny was our adoptee when Molly was only 5 months old. Jenny had been overused as a breeding dog and we rescued her. We needed an extra dog like we needed a hole in the head but I just couldn't leave her in that kennel. She is a beautiful, loving, longhaired red Doxie. Jenny has always treated Molly like her puppy and gave her kisses. Jenny now has a hypothyroid condition as well as Cushing's Disease.
Utah, 13,is a tiny smoothcoat red Dachshund and loved to use Molly as her "hot water bottle" when she was cold. Molly was always so warm and fuzzy that Utah liked to snuggle up to her. Utah also has a heart condition but responded so well to meds 3 years ago that the cardiologist calls her his Miracle Dog.
Riley, Jenny & Utah seem lost and confused without their little sister here.
I found a box of photos yesterday that I had nearly forgotten. In it were tons of beautiful pictures of Molly during her first 3 years of life. I had forgotten how many places we had taken her and our other 3 Dachshunds. We used to have an RV and the dogs traveled well.
Molly had a special way of getting my attention as well. She would quietly walk up to me and place her little paw on my leg and leave it there until I responded.
I miss you so much, Baby Girl!
March 27, 2009
It's been one week since you left. I still can't believe you're gone. It's been a sad night and Daddy & I miss you so! I've been crying all week, especially when I come home and you are not there. Why you, and why now? I thought you would have many more years left with us.
March 29, 2009
Your big brother is missing you so much. I had to take over your job of helping poor Riley find his way back into the house. He doesn't have you to help him "see" anymore. Riley walks around sniffing your squeaky toys and blanket. I don't think it will be too much longer before he joins you but I know, when he does, he will be able to play with you again like he did when he was young and you will be able to keep him company once again. I feel so bad for the old boy. This house is very empty without you.
March 31, 2009
Well, you are finally home, Baby Girl. I picked up your ashes today. The emotions started all over again. I had to look inside the container. It's all I have left of you other than pictures. It was tough but I knew I had to do it sooner or later. Daddy tried to look inside when he came home from work, but he started crying. Dr Keyser sent a beautiful card today and wrote so many nice things in it about you. You were such a sweet little thing. Mommy & Daddy both miss you so much. At least you are home with us to stay. We love you and miss you so much, Molly.
April 3, 2009
It's been two weeks today since you went away. It doesn't feel any easier at night when you are not here. There's an empty spot in the bed and in my heart that will never go away. Sweet dreams little girl. Mommy loves you and misses you so much!
April 5, 2009
Your big brother had another rough day today, Baby Girl. Sometimes he knows where he is and sometimes he doesn't. He's scared and shakes all the time. He'll be coming to keep you company soon. I know he misses you, too, and someday soon he will be happy again. I know you will take care of him once again like you used to do.
April 13, 2009
Hi Baby Girl. It's been 3 weeks and 3 days since you left. It isn't any easier. I still miss you terribly. Today is especially sad because your big brother is coming to live with you. He was doing even worse since you left and it is time. I always thought that he would be the first to go, not you. Please take care of him. He's been so lost lately. I love you Baby Girl!! Mommy misses you.
April 20, 2009
It's been a whole month without you my Baby. I miss you so much. Molly, there isn't a day that goes by when I don't think of you. I hope you are feeling the sunshine on your little face. I'm so lonely without you here with me. The days are boring and I miss the feel of your soft fur. They tell me I should get a new puppy to "replace" you. My Molly Bee can never be replaced. I may get a new little girl to love and keep me company, but you were my very favorite and will be in my heart forever. I will never ever forget you. Sleep in peace my little baby. I love you and miss you.
May 1, 2009
Six weeks tonight, Baby Girl. Tonight your sweet friend Jenny came to join you. This house is getting way too empty without all my furbabies.
May 19, 2009
Hi my Sweet Baby,
May 21, 2009
Molly Baby, I can't stand this. Utah had to be brought to Wolfeboro this morning. She got SO sick last night that she couldn't even hold her head up. Daddy and i stayed up with her all night just to hold her. Dr Keyser said that she was very dehydrated from her failed kidneys and they couldn't even find any veins in her legs. They had collapsed. All four of you are gone now and there is such a big hole in our hearts. This has been more than we can bare. We miss you SO much, kids. Why did you all have to go so close together and so soon? It's not fair. We love you all so much. <3
October 17, 2009
December 7, 2009
March 20, 2010
Hello Baby Girl,
April 6, 2010
Happy Spring little Peanut. I miss you so much. <3
March 20, 2011
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