January 1, 2015-For my Pedro, Another year has gone by without you by my side. It is coming up to three years since you crossed over the Rainbow Bridge. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I printed everything I wrote to you up to now and today, a new year and coming up to your anniversary, I am starting anew. As always, I am sending you all my love via angel airmail. A little bit of me went with you and maybe, if at all possible, one day we will be together again for ever and always. I am starting this page with several poems which can better express how I feel about losing you.
ALONG THE ROAD by Robert Browning Hamilton
I WALKED A MILE WITH PLEASURE
SHE CHATTERED ALL THE WAY;
BUT LEFT ME NONE THE WISER,
FOR ALL SHE HAD TO SAY.
I WALKED A MILE WITH SORROW,
AND NE'ER A WORD SAID SHE;
BUT, OH, THE THINGS I LEARNED FROM HER
WHEN SORROW WALKED WITH ME!
Pawprints Left By You
You no longer greet me, as I walk through the door.
You're not there to make me smile, to make me laugh anymore.
Life seems quiet without you, you were far more than a pet.
You were a family member, a friend,
.....A living soul I'll never forget.....
It will take time to heal - for the silence to go away.
I still listen for you, and miss you every day.
You were such a great companion, constant, loyal, true.
My heart will always wear,
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
Do Not Stand at my grave
Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
More to come my darling baby boy. Meanwhile lots of hugs and kisses from Your Mommy.
January 5, 2015-For my very special baby boy Pedro on his third anniversary crossing the Rainbows Bridge, I am adding two poems that say it better than I ever could. Miss you every single day and will love you forever and always. Your Mommy.
I Haven't Left At All
I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh;
But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven't left at all.
On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I've seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.
At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it's just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I'm really there, my spirit's left behind.
I know your heart is hurting; it's like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won't see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It's really the eternal beginning that waits for us all
So, dear Master as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven's gate.
They say memories are golden
Well maybe that is true
I never wanted memories
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place
No one else can fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
Our family chain is broken
and nothing seems the same
But as GOD calls us one by one
The chain will link again.
So my precious puppy. Wait for me and one day I too will cross that bridge and we will be together forever and ever. Love you so much, Your Mommy.
January 9, 2015-For my sweet and precious baby boy I am sending very special love. Just thinking about you today and missing you as always. I am sure you are busy playing in the meadows on the other side of Rainbows Bridge with all your other furbaby friends. Still I hope you will have some time to look down, once in awhile, so you can see your Mommy looking up at you. Love you very very much. From your Mommy.
January 15, 2015 - Good morning again to my very special little boy. Mommy is visiting you today because she loves you so much and misses you every single minute of every single day. Thinking of you always and forever. I hope you are busy having fun with all your furbaby friends. Don't forget to help the newcomers get settled in. I imagine where you are it is always Spring with lots of beautiful sunshine and meadows covered with beautiful wild flowers. Here my darling it is winter with rain and cold. I remember how you used to snuggle under the blankets in the winter. I miss that so much. Sending you a huge amount of Mommy hugs and kisses. I'll write again next week. LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Your Mommy.
January 22, 2015-To Pedro my very special little man I am sending you today's huge portion of love, hugs and kisses. Just so you know that not a day goes by when I don't think of you. Missing you now and forever. Now go and play with all the other furbabies in the meadows across the Rainbows Bridge. One day I too will come to the bridge and you will meet me and help me cross over. Then we can be together for always. Pedro don't forget to give Kippy a special hug and kiss from her Mommy. She is missed very much too. Love you both. Until next week my darling baby boy. LOVE YOU. From your Mommy.
January 29, 2015-For my very special and precious baby boy I am sending you today's huge portion of love. Not one single day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you so very much. Pedro you are the light in the night's sky. I want you to remember to look down and you will see me looking up at you. You are my very own furangel. Now go and play with the other furangels in the meadows and remember that one day your Mommy will too cross over that bridge and we will be together for always and always. LOVE YOU SO MUCH. From your Mommy.
February 5, 2015-Good morning again to my very precious and special little boy Pedro. Thinking of you each and every day and missing you always and forever. One day I was thinking and worrying about who would write to you and remember you when I am gone. Then the thought occurred to me that, God willing, we would then be together. Heaven for me would be to hold you again and cover your puppy face with lots of kisses and hug you over and over again. Love you so much. Now go and play with all your furbaby friends and don't forget to look down once in a while so you can see me looking up at you. Love from your Mommy.
February 12, 2015-For my very special baby boy Pedro I am sending you a special message today of love. You are always and forever in my heart and are missed every single day. Sending you lots of hugs and kisses. Pedro I hope you are having fun in the meadows beyond the Rainbow Bridge and looking down once in awhile to see your Mommy looking up at you. Love you so much. Now go and play and have fun. Mommy will write you again very soon. Love you, Mommy
February 19, 2015-Pedro my sweet and precious furangel your Mommy is here again to remind you how much you are loved and missed. There is a huge bundle of love coming your way wrapped up in lots of hugs and kisses. Thinking of you today and everyday. Hoping you are having fun in the meadows playing with all the other furbabies. Your Mommy will write again very soon, but until then, reminding you to look down so your Mommy can see your face when she looks up at you. Love you baby boy, Mommy.
February 26, 2015 - For my very sweet and precious Pedro, Pedro today is Mommy's birthday and if given just one wish it would be to have you again by my side forever and always. Miss you each and every minute of each and every day. Sending you, via angel airmail, all my love, hugs and too many kisses to count. Don't forget to look down once in awhile so you can see your Mommy looking up at you. Love you, Mommy
March 5, 2015-Good morning to my very precious and special baby boy. Your Mommy is visiting you again today because she wants to tell you how much she loves and misses you. I think about you every single day and as always I'm sending you, via angel airmail, lots of hugs and kisses. Pedro don't forget to look after the new arrivals, show them the ropes and help them get settled in. Don't forget to leave time for yourself and your furbaby friends to romp and play in the meadows. Mommy will write you again very soon. LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, Your Mommy.
March 12, 2015-To my very precious, sweet and wonderful baby boy Pedro I am bringing you today lots and lots of love. A huge amount and more hugs and more kisses than you can count. The reason is that I miss you so very much and wanted you to know that I think about you each and every day. Sweetie I hope you will make time today to help the newcomers get settled in. For those that have a family they must be missing them very much. For those who arrived without a family who loves and misses them, tell them that they are now a part of our family. We have more than enough love for all of them. Please give Kippy a big Mommy kiss and tell her that I haven't forgotten that her anniversary is this Sunday. I will light a special candle just for my little girl Kippy. So my darlings until next week. Love you so very much, Your Mommy.
March 19, 2015-For my wonderful, precious Pedro Mommy is visiting you again today just to tell you that you are not forgotten. Not one day goes by that I don't think of you. Missing you very much. Sending you all my love, lots of puppy hugs and a huge amount of puppy kisses. Remember sweetheart to look down once in awhile so you can see your Mommy looking up at you. Until next week. Love, love and more love from your Mommy.
March 26, 2015-For my very precious and very special Pedro I am writing to you today just to let you know that I am thinking of you and miss you so very much. Although it has been some time since you crossed over that Bridge I still miss you each and every day. Watch out for an angel Pedro because that angel will be coming from me and carrying just for you lots and lots of Mommy hugs and kisses. One day my sweetheart I too will cross over that Bridge and when that day comes, we will be together for always and forever. There will be you and me, Kippy and all our other furfamily. Until that time I will continue to write to you and miss you so very much. Until next week my darling LOVE YOU, Mommy.
April 2, 2015-Good morning again to my very special and very precious furangel. I hope you are having a very happy day OVER THE RAINBOW. Of one thing I am certain. I miss you more and more every single day. Of course your Mommy is sending you a huge amount of love, hugs and kisses. Here is something that I found and thought appropriate for us:
No matter what anybody says about grief
and about time healing all wounds,
the truth is,
There are certain sorrows that never fade away
until the heart stops beating
and the last breath is taken.
And so it is for me. Love you darling boy and always always always will. Until next week don't forget Pedro, keep looking down so you can find your Mommy who is always looking up at you. LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Mommy.
April 9, 2015-Good morning again to my very precious and special furangel. Today is our day to be together. I miss you so much Pedro. Thinking of you each and every day and sending you, via angel airmail, lots of love, hugs and kisses. Pedro please look after Auswald "Ausie". I know it would mean a lot to his family to know that you are helping Char and Pressy to welcome Ausie and help him to get settled in. I hope you will have fun playing together and running in the meadows. My sweet sweet boy you are and will always be in my heart. Love you baby boy. Until next week when your Mommy will come and visit again. LOVE YOU SO MUCH, Mommy.
April 16, 2015-Pedro it is hard to believe that another week has passed by and you are not here with me. Not one single day goes by that I don't, at some point, think about you. You are missed each and every minute of each and every day. Needless to say I am sending you lots of Mommy love today and a huge amount of hugs and kisses. Someday, somewhere over the Rainbow we will find each other again. Until that time I want you to have fun with all the other furbabies and once in awhile, look down, for you will always see me looking up at you. Love you my Baby Boy. From your Mommy.
April 23, 2015-It is hard to believe that a week has gone by already since the last time I wrote you here. That doesn't mean that I haven't been thinking about you and missing you very very much. Pedro please if you can find Cookie Girl and help her get settled in. Her Mommy is heartbroken and misses her very much. Don't forget also to give my love to your sisters Kippy, Buttons and Cleo. Love you so much baby boy. Miss you all. Don't forget to look down and find me looking up at you. Love love and more love baby boy. Until next week. Hugs and kisses from your Mommy.
April 30, 2015-Good morning again to my very special and wonderful baby boy Pedro. Thinking about you so often and miss you always and forever. Sending you lots of Mommy love, hugs and kisses and reminding you to look down once in awhile for you will see me always looking up at you. Sweetheart go and have fun now with the other furangels. Please share the hugs and kisses with Kippy, Cleo, Button and of course Cookie Girl. Take special care of her for her Mommy. Love you so much. Until next week. Your Mommy.
May 7, 2015 -Here we are in the month of May. I hope wherever you are it is always Springtime. Thinking about you and missing you as always. Sending you, via angel airmail, lots of Mommy love, hugs and a huge amount of kisses. I'm still looking up and searching for you in the heavens. Don't forget to look down, once in awhile, and perhaps you will see me. One day, over the Rainbow, we will be together again. Love you baby boy. Kisses and more kisses from your Mommy.
May 14, 2015-To my beloved and very special furangel I am writing today just to say how much I miss you each and every minute of each and every day. My life hasn't been the same since you crossed over the Rainbow Bridge. Miss you so much my darling baby boy. Maybe if such a thing exists we will be reunited one day so I can tell you how much you mean to me. Meanwhile keep looking down at me and I will keep looking up at you. Sending so many hugs and kisses that it is impossible to count them. Love you so very much, Mommy.
May 21, 2015-Hello again to my little baby boy who is missed every single second of every single minute of every single day. Thinking about you always and missing you so very much. Pedro my darling I want you to find Courtney your Auntie Laura's little girl and help her to get settled in. Tell Courtney that her Mommy misses and loves her very very much. I hope you are taking care of Kippy too. She is your little sister although you two never met. Mommy misses you both. Now remember my sweet furangel to keep looking down and watching over your Mommy for she is always looking up at you. Love you from now until always. Your Mommy.
May 28, 2015-I am writing this so that I can tell my baby boy Pedro how much I love him and how very much I miss him. Pedro I miss you every second of every minute of every hour of every day. As always I am asking you to remember to look down once in awhile so you can see your Mommy looking up at you. Don't forget to take care of our Kippy and Courtney. Kisses all around. Love you darling boy. Until next time, Hugs and kisses from your Mommy.