November 10, 2016-Today we are starting anew. I printed everything I wrote before as I have finally run out of space. Never mind my sweet darling Pedro, Your Mommy will still visit you every week and write everything that is in her heart. As always and forever I love you to the moon and back and always will. Now it is time to write for you some poems that better express just how much I love and miss you:|
This one is my favorite.
ALONG THE ROAD by Robert Browning Hamilton
I WALKED A MILE WITH PLEASURE,
SHE CHATTERED ALL THE WAY;
BUT LEFT ME NONE THE WISER,
FOR ALL SHE HAD TO SAY.
I WALKED A MILE WITH SORROW,
AND NE'ER A WORD SAID SHE;
BUT, OH, THE THINGS I LEARNED FROM HER
WHEN SORROW WALKED WITH ME!
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
You no longer greet me, as I walk through the door.
You're not there to make me smile, to make me laugh anymore.
Life seems quiet without you, you were far more than a pet.
You were a family member, a friend,....
It will take time to heal - for the silence to go away.
I still listen for yuo, and miss you every day.
You were such a great companion, constant, loyal, true.
My heart will always wear,
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
DO NOT STAND AT MY GRAVE
Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
I HAVEN'T LEFT AT ALL
I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh;
But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven't left at all.
On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I've seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.
At night while you are sleeping I snuggloe at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it's just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I'm really there, my spirit's left behind
I know your heart is hurting; it's like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won't see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It's really the eternal beginning that waits for us all
So, dear Mommy as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven's gate.
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to heaven
and bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye".
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you -
No one can ever know.
But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times
life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.
No matter what anybody says about grief
and about time healing all wounds,
the truth is,
There are certain sorrows that never fade away6
until the heart stops beating
and the last breath is taken.
And so it is for me.
When tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here inside your heart.
Until next week my precious. Love you always, Your Mommy.
November 17, 2016-Here we are again my very special baby boy. Another week has passed without you by my side. In truth it never gets easier. Not one day passes that at some point you aren't in my thoughts. Yes my precious there are wounds that never completely heal. As always I am sending you a huge amount of Mommy love, hugs and kisses and as usual I am asking that you help the new arrivals to get settled in while they wait for their families to join them. For those without a family you can invite them to join us. You and I have more than enough love to share with all. Most important my darling is to keep looking down so you will see your Mommy looking up at you. Missing you always and forever until the day comes when I too will cross that Bridge so we can be together forever and ever. Love you to the moon and back, From Your Mommy.
November 24, 2016-For my very wonderful little man. I am visiting you today because I miss you so much and wanted you to know how much I love you. I wish I knew the right words to express just how much you mean to me. You gave me so much joy and losing you gave me so much sorrow. One day precious I too will cross that Bridge and then we can be together forever and always, Until that time comes don't forget to keep looking down so you will see your Mommy looking up at you. Until next week baby boy sending you a heart full of love, hugs and kisses from Your Mommy.
December 1, 2016-Good morning to my very precious baby boy who is loved beyond words and always will be. I just wanted you to know how much you mean to me and how much I miss you. No day will ever ever be the same without you. A rare and precious light went out when you crossed that Bridge. Still every night I look up at the stars hoping to see you looking down at me. No matter what, we will never really be apart. You are sitting deep in my heart and if I sit very quietly I can feel you there. Love you very very much my darling little man. Until next week sending you huge amount of love from Your Mommy.