November 10, 2016-Today we are starting anew. I printed everything I wrote before as I have finally run out of space. Never mind my sweet darling Pedro, Your Mommy will still visit you every week and write everything that is in her heart. As always and forever I love you to the moon and back and always will. Now it is time to write for you some poems that better express just how much I love and miss you:|
This one is my favorite.
ALONG THE ROAD by Robert Browning Hamilton
I WALKED A MILE WITH PLEASURE,
SHE CHATTERED ALL THE WAY;
BUT LEFT ME NONE THE WISER,
FOR ALL SHE HAD TO SAY.
I WALKED A MILE WITH SORROW,
AND NE'ER A WORD SAID SHE;
BUT, OH, THE THINGS I LEARNED FROM HER
WHEN SORROW WALKED WITH ME!
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
You no longer greet me, as I walk through the door.
You're not there to make me smile, to make me laugh anymore.
Life seems quiet without you, you were far more than a pet.
You were a family member, a friend,....
It will take time to heal - for the silence to go away.
I still listen for yuo, and miss you every day.
You were such a great companion, constant, loyal, true.
My heart will always wear,
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
DO NOT STAND AT MY GRAVE
Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
I HAVEN'T LEFT AT ALL
I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh;
But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven't left at all.
On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I've seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.
At night while you are sleeping I snuggloe at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it's just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I'm really there, my spirit's left behind
I know your heart is hurting; it's like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won't see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It's really the eternal beginning that waits for us all
So, dear Mommy as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven's gate.
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to heaven
and bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye".
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you -
No one can ever know.
But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times
life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.
No matter what anybody says about grief
and about time healing all wounds,
the truth is,
There are certain sorrows that never fade away6
until the heart stops beating
and the last breath is taken.
And so it is for me.
When tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here inside your heart.
Until next week my precious. Love you always, Your Mommy.
November 17, 2016-Here we are again my very special baby boy. Another week has passed without you by my side. In truth it never gets easier. Not one day passes that at some point you aren't in my thoughts. Yes my precious there are wounds that never completely heal. As always I am sending you a huge amount of Mommy love, hugs and kisses and as usual I am asking that you help the new arrivals to get settled in while they wait for their families to join them. For those without a family you can invite them to join us. You and I have more than enough love to share with all. Most important my darling is to keep looking down so you will see your Mommy looking up at you. Missing you always and forever until the day comes when I too will cross that Bridge so we can be together forever and ever. Love you to the moon and back, From Your Mommy.
November 24, 2016-For my very wonderful little man. I am visiting you today because I miss you so much and wanted you to know how much I love you. I wish I knew the right words to express just how much you mean to me. You gave me so much joy and losing you gave me so much sorrow. One day precious I too will cross that Bridge and then we can be together forever and always, Until that time comes don't forget to keep looking down so you will see your Mommy looking up at you. Until next week baby boy sending you a heart full of love, hugs and kisses from Your Mommy.
December 1, 2016-Good morning to my very precious baby boy who is loved beyond words and always will be. I just wanted you to know how much you mean to me and how much I miss you. No day will ever ever be the same without you. A rare and precious light went out when you crossed that Bridge. Still every night I look up at the stars hoping to see you looking down at me. No matter what, we will never really be apart. You are sitting deep in my heart and if I sit very quietly I can feel you there. Love you very very much my darling little man. Until next week sending you huge amount of love from Your Mommy.
December 08, 2016-Here we are again my special and very precious furangel another week has gone by without you. The pain is always there. There is no healing. Not really. Miss you so much and love you to the moon and back and always will. I hope you are having fun playing in the meadows with all the other furangels and remembering to look down once in awhile so you will see me looking up at you. Please darling baby boy be sure to greet all the new arrivals and help them get settled in. There are so many people here that are missing their furbabies. When you left me you left behind a huge void that can never be filled. Until next week when I will again visit my little man I am sending you a huge amount of Mommy love and lots of hugs and kisses. From Your Mommy.
December 15, 2016-I can hardly believe how quickly the days go by. It seem just yesterday when I was visiting your residency and here it is another week without my baby boy. Maybe the time does fly but the love I feel for you stays exactly the same. I miss you each and every day and love you with all my heart and always will. You always gave me so much and now you are gone and there is a huge void in my life. I can only hope that you somehow know how much you are loved and missed. Until next week my precious, always remember, keep looking down so you can see your Mommy looking up at you. Hugs and kisses from Your Mommy.
December 22, 2016-Good morning to my Pedro. Today being Thursday it is time for us to spend a few minutes together at your Rainbows Bridge residency. I wish that I could visit you in person and hold you in my arms and never again let you go. Missing you every single day. Sweet boy I hope you are making lots of new friends and playing together in the meadows that are beyond the Rainbow Bridge. Remember little one to keep a watch out. For one day I too will cross that Bridge and come running to find you. Love you forever and ever and ever and always. Until next week my own little man sending you a huge amount of Mommy hugs and kisses. LOVE YOU SO MUCH, From Your Mommy.
December 29, 2016-We are almost at the end of another year. You have not been forgotten even once during the entire of 2016. I think of you every single day and miss you so very much. Pedro my sweet and precious furangel you always Raise me Up. Sending you so much love it hurts and kisses without end. What your Mommy wants most is that you have fun in the meadows beyond the Bridge playing with all the other furangels. Don't forget to keep looking down so you can see Mommy looking up at you. You are more precious to me than all the gold and silver in the world. I will visit you again next week. Love you to the moon and back, from Your Mommy.
January 5, 2017-Here it is, the day I dread all year. Today is the fifth anniversary of the day you crossed the Rainbow Bridge. Words cannot possibly convey how I feel having lost you, my precious little baby boy. It taught me what true grief really is. I learned that there are wounds that never heal. My life is just not the same without you. I miss you each and every day. All I can do now is write to you on your residency page and hope somehow, someway, my messages reach you. Sending you a heart full of love. A huge amount of hugs and kisses are coming your way. One day my sweet little man I too will cross that Bridge and come running to find you so we can be together forever and always. Until that day my darling baby boy I love you to the moon and back, From Your Mommy.
January 12, 2017-Good morning to my sweet and precious Pedro. Your Mommy has come to visit you again to tell you how much she loves and misses you. I am bringing with me a huge amount of hugs and kisses. Have I told you lately how much having you by my side meant to me. You always Raised me Up and never ever let me down. The love we share will go on forever and always. Now go and play in the meadows with all your furangel friends. But Pedro don't ever forget to look down for you will always see me looking up at you. With a heart full of love, Your Mommy.