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9/19/19 Barney Sweetheart, You were always such a good boy, so loyal and devoted never leaving my side from the moment you came into my life. On those times I had to leave you, you would sit on the driveway, no matter the hours in rain, cold or snow, until I returned. You'd even take my shoes out to be near you. You'd hear my car and you were always readied to greet me with such love, eagerness and wagging tail as soon as you saw me. When we played hide-n-seek, you would look in every room, behind every door until you happily found me. If I stayed up all night, you were right there by my side and if I was asleep you layed next to me standing guard to make sure no one bothered or touched me. Every step I took, you were right next to me no matter what was going on. You even hated to leave me to eat, so for a long time I stood by you so you would eat. You'd hurriedly go out your doggie doors to do your business, but whisked right back in to find me. When I sat to watch TV, you thought my lap was your place of resting and seemed to relish in my continual petting. You instinctively knew when I was sad and would immediately try to comfort me with you sweet displays of love. Oh how you loved riding in the car; especially the convertible. You'd take your place in the front seat and lay your head on the console and I would pet you and talk to you. You'd stay in the same position until we reached our destination or until we returned home. If I had to step outside the car, all I had to do was say, "stay". You were such a good boy always trying to please Mommy with obeying every command. You were so smart...you easily learned everything I taught you and how you loved your rewards of treats and praisings. Barney, you were my best companion and friend. You were my furry human. You filled my life every minute of every day with so much love and joy. I miss you so much. I see your sweet face with everything I do. I find myself calling your name in hopes that you'll appear before my very eyes. You have left such a void in my heart that no other can fill. I was broken hearted when you got sick with cancer and God took you Home with Him. Barney, you did such a wonderful job taking care of Mommy and in my heart I couldn't ask you to stay when you were feeling so poor and weakened. I needed to put your well-being first and let you go so you could be healthy and strong again, able to play in the fields with other doggies. I hope you have found both Duffey & Wally and the three of you are best buddies. Please tell them Hi for Mommy and I miss and love them with all my heart, too. You each hold a special place in my heart that you created for yourselves alone. I know the three of you are probably comparing stories...Duffey is talking about the fun he always had in our pool, surfing and playing with the kids. Of course, I can only imagine that both you & Wally are saying to Duffey---"You had a pool, we didn't have a pool". Wally is telling stories of how Mommy carried him everywhere and that I even stayed home with him to be a puppy Mommy. He's probably mentioning he was always dressed for holidays delivering special doggie treats to all the other doggies in the neighborhood. Most likely he only tolerated it to please me. But, he had Tikki, a parrot friend to play with and they had lots of fun together. And, you are telling them about getting to sleep in the bed with Mommy every night; while Duffey & Wally are boo-hooing "we never got to sleep in the bed; only until Dad got up and put us in bed with Mommy. And you are bragging that Dad couldn't make you get down and showed him--I'm an not leaving my Mommy. So many fun stories you are sharing with one another. I know God sent all three of you to me to love and care for; and He especially brought us together knowing that you were all alone and so frightened as you walked along that highway shoulder until a Good Smaritian stopped and got you out of harms way and took you to an animal shelter. God sent me to you, for He knew we both needed each other. Even though I was looking for a little doggie I could carry~~~you captured my heart with your calm disposition, sweet face and loving eyes. We saved each other my sweet little buddy and best friend; and. I thank God every day for bringing us together. You showed Mommy every day how thankful you were for giving you a loving home. It was almost like you couldn't thank me or show me enough love and gratitude! Oh how I miss you every minute of every day, my sweet baby boy. You may not be with me in sight, but you are with me in my heart and spirit. It's very hard and sad going on without you; but I trid to find comfort in knowing that one day I will cross the Rainbow Bridge and we will all be together again. Until that time comes, I want you to be happy, have fun and enjoy the beautiful meadows that the three of you are sharing together. You are my strong brave boy, so look after Duffey & Wally. As I always said to you whenever we had to be apart, you watch over the house--you're in charge...Mommy will be Home in a little while. I love you "little buddy" forever & always! 10/21/19: Hello my sweet baby boy. It's 7 weeks tonight that you left my life. I am having such a hard time without you, I cannot stop the tears just thinking of you. It feels like you just left me as the pain worsens every day. Everything I do, reminds me of you. I find myself talking to you all the time as though you were there right by my side. Today I ran an errand and as I got out of the car, I somehow thought you were sitting in the passenger seat (your favorite place to ride) and even told you to watch over the car, Mommy will be right back. Tears ran down my face when I got back in the car and you weren't there. Every time I go near the spot you took your last breath, I think of that moment you left me. I'm as so full of guilt that I wasn't laying on the ground, hugging you and talking to you; instead of trying to move you back inside the house. Your last breath was agony for me sweetheart...I couldn't believe you were gone in that split moment. I miss and love you so much...my heart is broken and filled with pain. I have your ashes in a beautiful urn with your picture and paw prints and a candle that lights your special place every night. I talked to you and caress your urn many times throughout each day. I so hope you can hear Mommy. Even though I know your healthy and able to run and play with the other doggies and that God is taking care of you, I can't help but wish you were healthy and here with me. You will always be in my heart and I will love you FOREVER. Little buddy, I hope you like the song I'm playing for you because I truly am "Hopelessly Devoted to You"! Sweetheart, Mommy will send messages to you and I hope you send me some messages too. I long to feel you touching or nudging me like you always did or to see your sweet face. Goodnight baby boy and Sweet dreams. I love you, Little Buddy, with all my heart and soul. Love, Mommy 1/17/2020: Hello my sweet baby boy. I know Mommy has missed way too many weeks writing to you and I am sorry sweetheart. I hope you know there is not a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts and heart. Everything I do reminds me you're not here with me. Every day, I wrap my hands around your urn, hoping you hear me talking to you. It's been 20 weeks without you by my side and still it feels like the day you left me. My heart hurts missing you so much. Barney honey, there will never or can never be another baby like you. Your devotion, your loyalty, your love, your constant need to be near me and watching over protecting me is unlike anything I have ever experienced. I constantly see imagines of your sweet face looking at me or imagine the feel of your pokes with your nose or paw on my leg or arm; and sadly I cannot reach out to hold, pet, touch and love you back. I was truly Blessed the day you entered my life. I know God saved you from an awful fate as you were walking along the side of Hwy 94 and He sent a good-Samaritan to get you out of harms way and take you to the rescue shelter. That's when He sent me to the shelter and even though I was looking for a small doggie, like a Yorkie, that I could carry around in my arms....you captured my heart with your sweet demeanor. God truly meant for us to be together! You constantly showed me how thankful you were that I gave you a home ...it was like you couldn't thank me or love me enough. In reality sweetheart, it was you that brightened our home, our lives with all your love and joy! You were a God-Send! There will never be another baby like you, for me. You hold a place in my heart that no one or nothing can touch!! Mommy is hopelessly devoted to you! I know with all my heart that God is watching over you while you enjoy playing with other doggies until the day comes when we are reunited and cross the Rainbow Bridge together. But until then, I will continue to send you these messages, hoping that you're hearing my voice say them directly to you. And, I promise not to ever let so much time pass between my messages. I don't ever want you to think I have forgotten you...that will never happen. I never want you to feel lonely, heart-broken or that I'm not nearby. I love you little Buddy, my sweet baby boy with all my heart and soul. Mommy wants you to be happy there with God and enjoy running and playing. I'm sending you a couple of your favorite treats (bone & French Fries) to snack on before bedtime. Good night sweetheart and have sweet dreams. Sending you hugs, kisses and all my love. Love, Mommie 3/15/2020: My Dear Barney, I hope you can hear my words and still feel the love I have for you. The other day, I had dozed off and was immediately awoken to the sound of your bark. I quickly looked around hoping you had come home to me, or even see a glimpse of your sweet face. Even though I couldn't see you, I knew in my heart you were looking in on me and letting me know that you were watching over me, just as you did every day. Sweetheart, I miss you terribly. People ask me all the time when I'm going to get another doggie. I'm not ready to bring another baby into my life because my heart has such a void with you not being here. You always wanted to make sure I was happy and even when I cried over sad movies, you were right there trying to comfort me. I know your love would not want Mommy sad and maybe someday my heart will be open to loving another baby, but I'm not there yet. But, sweetheart, don't you ever worry that I would forget you if I should get another doggie. That's impossible. As I've have told you, no other doggie could take your place in my heart. You hold a special place that cannot ever be penetrated. There could never be another baby like you for me. God sent you to me and me to you. So, I leave it in God's Hands if he has a special doggie that He wants a good home for, that He will bring us together, just like He did with you and me. I miss you so much, and the sorrow is still the same as the day you went to God. You were the perfect sweet baby in every way possible. I've left you a hamburger, something you always loved begging me to share with you. So sweetheart, you get the whole burger this time. Also, thought you'd like a nice soft bed to rest upon; especially since it's getting warmer and may not want your blanket right now. So, you enjoy your tasty burger and then go run and play with the other doggies. Afterwards, you can come back to your new bed for a nice little nap and know Mommy was there for you, leaving you some little gifts along with lots of hugs, kisses, pets and all my love. I love you my sweet "little buddy" to the moon and back, infinity times infinity! Take care sweetheart, have sweet dreams and Mommy will visit you again soon! Love, Mommy 7/21/2020: Happy Birthday Sweetheart. If you were here with Mommy, you'd be 13 years old today. But, you're in Heaven with God and you're forever young and playful. I miss you so much little Buddy. I know I haven't written in a while, but please know that doesn't mean I haven't been thinking about you or missing you. I talk about you all the time, remembering every sweet and loyal thing you did and we did together. I look at your pictures all the time, touching and seeing your sweet face and the love that just poured from your eyes and heart. Nothing can ever take your place in my heart or mind little buddy. You will forever be my best little buddy. I hope you're having fun on your birthday and that the other doggies are there celebrating your birthday with lots of treats and bones for gifts. You were not ever much into playing with toys. I wish I knew what happened in your younger years that toys didn't become interesting to you. You didn't even know how to chew on a bone when our lives joined together; but, you did eventually catch on and was eager for me to give you one ...everytime I opened the pantry doors. Most days, your cute face and twinkling eyes got you several bones and/or treats; which I'm always glad I gave in to your wants. I wish you were here for me to physically give you a bone. So, I did leave you a new ham bone to enjoy; along with a birthday cake to share with your friends during your birthday parties. I hope the balloons make it bright and cheery decorating your resting place. I had the convertible out the other day and as I opened the door, I was missing you eagerly hopping in to take your place in the passenger seat. You so loved riding in the car; but especially the convertible. My ride was not the same without you. It wasn't any fun knowing you weren't there with me to talk to or to reach over and pet. You were always a good boy when I had to stop for something. I'd tell you to watch over the car and when I returned, you were in the same exact spot and position as when I ran into someplace for a few minutes to take care of something easy. Of course, I never took you with me when I had lots of errands that were going to take quite sometime in each place. I'm doing my annual street repair work and I so miss you being with me as I tour the community. These were nice long trips for the two of us to get through all the repair checkings over our 10 miles of streets. Do you remember the time I had to check on a speed limit sign that some kids had hit and knocked completely out of the ground? As I was taking pictures from various points, capturing tire marks in the road...there you were sitting ont the trunk lid as if that's exactly where you belonged. While you did look cute sitting there (and you made me laugh), I did have to tell you to get back into your seat to make sure you remained safe from any harm. Like the good boy you always were, you hopped back in your passenger seat as soon as I said the words. Sweetheart, you always amazed me with how you knew exactly what I was saying and immediately followed the instructions. Not only were you always a good boy, but you were extremely smart, too! Gosh, I sure wish we had had more time together. But for some reason, that was not God's plan. He had something more important for you. Please know how much I cherish every minute you were in my life. You were my most loyal and best friend and dearest companion...you were my sweet baby boy who captured my heart from the moment we joined in the same room. And even though we can't be with one another, you still are my most special, loyal, best friend and companion. You are and will be embedded in my heart, my memories and my mind forever and ever. Little buddy, after you have enjoyed your day of fun celebrating your birthday with all your friends, enjoyed your bone and cake; I hope as you nestle down into your bed to rest, that you notice this letter I have left for you. I hope it brings joy and peace to you and you have sweet dreams remembering our time together. There will be a day and time when God will bring us together again and we'll meet on the Rainbow Bridge to be together forever and ever. Only God knows when this day will come, but just remember we will be toether again one day. Until that day oomes sweetheart, you keep having fun, playing and running with your friends. Mommy is sending you oodles of pettings, hugs, kisses, many Happy Birthday wishes and all my love. I love you Sweetheart! Love, Mommie 9/1/2020: My Sweet Baby Boy, Barney~~ It's the anniversary of the day that you left in God's Hands. I will be a very hard day for me remembering the day you took your last breath and left me. I still look at the same spot this happened. There's not a day that goes by that you're not in my thoughts. I try to focus on all the sweet memories we shared and not the last few months that you were so sick and weakened by your cancer. You are constantly in my conversations with friends, remembering the sweet, cute and funny things you always did. Every time I open the pantry door, I still see you placing your nose on your treat container, letting me know that's what you wanted. I haven't taken the convertible out much this summer, because frankly it's hard to enjoy riding in it without you. I miss you eagerly jumping in as soon as I open the door and watching you take your special position in the passenger seat and laying your head on the console. So many things are not the same, because you're not here to enjoy them with. Remember how you loved taking a pair of my shoes (yes both shoes)outisde with you whenever I left for an errand I couldn't take you along or when I went out for the evening? You never chewed on them, but instead just wanted something of mine to keep near you while I was away. I've left you a pair of my sneakers in hopes that it brings you some comfort on this day letting you know that Mommy is there with you in some way. Knowing how much you loved popcorn, I've also left you a big bag just for you as an extra treat. Barney Sweetheart, missing and loving you has not lessoned over this year, but instead grows stronger every day as I remember all our wonderful and special shared memories and for all the Blessings you gave Mommy everyday. Your love, loyalty, devotion, protectiveness, compassion and being my best friend and companion will be with me forever and always in my mind and my heart. I truly hope with all my heart that you have found happiness and joy playing with your friends in the beautiful meadows God made for you. I would not want you sad in any way because we're not together. Just remember little buddy, God will bring us back together again. Until that time comes, Mommy is there with you spirtually and I will continue to write and leave you little gifts so you know we're still together in heart and soul. It is difficult to find a place to stop this letter on this particular day. This day is especially hard because it's a year ago today that you went to God. Actually, it was 10:36pm. To bear the pain of your loss, I tell myself that was the moment you stopped suffering and feeling so poorly and for that moment I was joyful for you. While your leaving me was breaking my heart to pieces, I knew you were at peace and healthy and you were with God. I know He is looking over you every day until the day we are reunited. So Sweetheart, please listen to the song playing in the background, because I'm forever hopeleslly devoted to you. I will love you forever & always, to the moon and back...infinity times infinity. You are deeply embedded in my heart and nothing or no one will ever take your place. You were and will always be a Blessing in my life! Mommy 9/23/2020: Hi Little Buddy, my sweet baby boy. Well it's fall here now, so as a reminder of the cooler temperatures, Mommy has left you a nice cozy bed and decorated your area with some fall flowers. Mommy also left you some of your favorite foods, bacon & eggs and great big tasty steak for you to enjoy. As I sit in my chair in the living room, I miss you getting up in my lap and constantly nudging me for continual pets. The evenings are cooler and it makes me miss your warmth and love even more. Sweetheart, you have left Mommie with so many lovely memories that I will cherish for ever and ever. You were (and still are) a Blessing in my life. Thank you God for bringing Barney and me together; especially when we both needed each other so much. Thank you God for giving us the years we had together and please continue to take care of my Sweet Barney until the day You bring me Home where I can again care for and love him. Barney, you are such a good boy and I know making so many friends to enjoy playing with. That's what Mommy wants for you...just for you to be happy little Buddy. Sweetheart, I did not think a day would ever come that I had any space in my heart to love another doggie. My heart was filled with so much pain and grief after losing you. It has taken Mommie a year to be able to open my heart for love again. So I wanted to tell you that Mommy got a puppy and his name is Presley E McTavish Hartman. Funny how he's named after Elvis. You know how much of an Elvis fam Mommie is. Presley is about 11 weeks old and I truly believe he smells you in the house. He likes to lay in the same areas you layed in. Somehow I feel it's connecting the two of you together and your spirit is generating into his. He is a sweet puppy and very smart, too...just the same as you were the moment you came into my life. His fur is black just like yours, but he defintely won't get as big as you were. You'll forever be my big sweet little buddy. I hope you are okay with Mommie getting another doggie, and I hope you do not ever think Presley will take your place and that Mommie will forget you. There is no way any doggie will ever take your place in my heart and Mommie will never ever forget you. You were (and will always be) my special little buddy and will always be my best friend and most loyal companion. Presley will just make his place in my heart, without ever touching the place you hold. I hope you enjoy your new fall surroundings, your new cozy bed to keep you warm in the evenings and your yummy bacon, eggs and steak; and, know that Mommie is there with you. I don't know if I ever told you this, but after you went to God, Mommie set up a shrine of you in the entertainment unit with your picture, your urn and your paw print that has two candles that come on every evening. The two candles represent you lighting up my life and the Blessing that you were and still are in my life. I talk to you as I touch your urn with hopes that somehow you hear me. Writing to you brings Mommie peace and comfort knowing you that you are with God and He's has made you healthy and full of life again. I would never want to see you suffer in any way. Your happiest and health is more important. So, you go play, run in the beautiful meadows, drink from the cool fresh springs God has made for you and enjoy being with your freinds. I hope you found both Duffey & Wally, too and that you all are having fun together and that you all think of Mommie. I love and miss all three of you so much. Well Sweetheart, it's time for me to end this letter; and Mommie will write you again soon. Good night Sweetheart and sweet dreams. Sending you (Duffey & Wally, too) big hugs & kisses and all my love. I Love You All, 12/11/2020: Hi Little Buddy. Mommy is sorry I haven't written lately. Mommy fell and broke her knee and sometimes just sitting with my knee bent has been painful. But it's getting much better now, so don't you fret. As I was decorating the house for Christmas and sitting on the floor unwrapping items, it brought back so many sweet memories of how you would always nudge me or my hand trying to help me...and it brought tears to my eyes that you weren't there. I see your sweet face in everything I do. I so miss you sitting next to me every evening or deciding that you preferred being in my lap. You had no idea of your size, all you knew was that you'd find a way to fit and be near me or on me. You would lay there in my arms for hours; however, you did like it when I was continually petting you. Sweetheart, I miss these sweet moments we shared all the time. As you may remember, we got a puppy and named him Presley. Presley has learned how to go through the doggie doors and loves being outside. You on the other hand only went out long enough to do your business and then hurried back to me. Sweetheart there is no other doggie that can take your place in my heart. Presley is making his own place. I saw a poem that I wanted to share with you so you would know how much you will always be loved and missed. It's call "Pawprints Left By You" You no longer greet me, Little Buddy, it's almost Christmas so I wanted to decorate your area for Christmas and the winter season, making it pretty & festive and I wanted to leave you some special treats. Oh how you loved steak and waited so patiently for every bite. This one is all yours Sweetheart, so enjoy! I also left you a big slice of cheese, something you also liked a lot. Whenever I left the house, that's when you would sit outside and just wait for me to return. You liked taking a pair of my shoes out with you, too. You were a good boy in that you never chewed my shoes, you just found comfort with them near you. So I made sure to leave a pair of tennis shoes so that you would always know I was nearby. Mommies misses you as if was the day you left me little buddy. There can never be another friend, companion, buddy like you...you were the most loyal and loving best friend I could ever imagine. God brought us together and I know He will bring us together again when Mommie joins you in Heaven. There will be a day when we are together and this time it will be forever. Just like the love I have for you, You are forever embedded in my heart. Merry Christmas Sweetheart. Hope you enjoy your decorations and your little gifts and know that Mommie was there to see and talk to you. You have fun with all your friends throughout the Christmas season and I hope you have a PawFect Christmas, just like you made every day of my life. Sending hugs, kisses and all my love to you, Duffey & Wally, too! Mommy loves you all and misses you so very much. I love you Forever & Always 9/1/2021 Hi little buddy. Today is especially hard since it's been 2 years to the day that God took you to His special place. While I've been just horrible about writing you, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I miss you terribly and no one can or ever will take your place. Mommy left you some fun and yummy things. I know how you used to love taking my shoes outside with you, so I left you a pair of fluffy slippers for you to snuggle up to. I'm sure the weather is perfect there, but what doggy doesn't like a pool of water to dip his paws into for a refreshing feeling. I've also left you some of your favorite treats, a hamburger, fries and popcorn to much on while you're hanging around your homesite. I know you're being a good boy...as you never did anything wrong. I know with a doubt that you have made lots of good friends and I hope you're having fun playing with all of them. Hopefully you have found both Duffey & Wally and have found brotherhood with the two of them. I so wish you were able to be here with me and be healthy. You were such a sick baby, that Mommy could not wish for you to continue suffering just so you could be here with me. You will always be in my heart and my mind for I will love you forever and always. Even though it's been two years since you left me, I still see you laying in your favortie places, and still feel you at my feet whereever I am. I still see you sitting on the driveway every time I leave the house, knowing that when I return, you'll still be there waiting for me. You were the most loyal friend and companion anyone could ever wish or hope for. There will never be another baby like you Sweetheart. No one will ever take your place in my heart. There's a huge void that only you can fill and one day I know we'll be together again and that void will once again be filled with your love. I constantly think of this beuatiful poem and want to say it to you again, again and again: You no longer greet me, Sweetheart, my little buddy, I miss you so much and will alway love you. Until that day comes that we meet at the Rainbow Bridge, please live your life running and playing and enjoying being with all the other doggies. Your little body may be there with God, but your soul is here with me. Enjoy all your treats and have Sweet Dreams Sweetheart. Sending hugs, kisses and all my love to you, Duffey & Wally, too! Mommy loves you all and misses you so very much. I love you Forever & Always 6/14/2022. Hi Little Buddy. I am so sorry that I haven't written to you in such a long time. Please don't think that because I haven't written that I have forgot you. That is definitely not the case. I think and talk about you all the time and miss you terribly. Even though we have Presley, he will never take your place. Sometimes when he does things, I comment my Sweet Barney didn't do that or my Sweet Barney would have done this. I know it's unfair to compare Presley to you because he is his own self--but it's so hard with wishing you were still here with me. I don't want you sad because I'm sad without you. It's something that I will have for the rest of my life until we meet again at the Rainbow Bridge. I want you to enjoy being with your friends, enjoy playing and mostly enjoy feeling healthy. I love you so much Sweetheart! There isn't a day that goes by that you're not in my thoughts or my heart! There will never be another baby like you. It's impossible for anyone to fill my heart with the love and joy you gave. I wanted you to know that I stopped by to visit and put some pretty summer flowers by your homesite to brighen your days along with a ham bone and some steak as some treats for you to enjoy. I so wish that when I stop by that you would be there so I could see you, hug and hold you close me, and talk to you and mostly look at you sweet face and tell you how much I love you. I constantly see you everywhere in the house, outside in the yard and everytime I get in the convertible, wishing you were there hopping in to ride along. Sweetheart, you are forever embedded in my eyes, my mind, my heart and my soul! I will soon be retiring from the HOA Board and will have lots more time to write you and visit your homesite. I feel awful that so much time has gone by without me visiting. Please forgive me Little Buddy. Please remember these words and know this little poem represents how much I miss and love you. You no longer greet me, Enjoy all your treats and have Sweet Dreams Sweetheart. Sending hugs, kisses and all my love to you, Duffey & Wally, too! Mommy loves you all and misses you so very much. I Will love you Forever & Always 7/6/2022 Hi Little Buddy. Wanted to stop in to see if I could catch you at home. So sorry I missed seeing you. I guess you were out playing with all your friends, which is wonderful. I am glad to see that you are doing that more and more often. Mommy hasn't been feeling good this last month. Had a really bad cold, lots of coughing, dizziness and some chest pains. But, it all turnsd out that it was just a lingering cold that took some time to get over. The chest pains were from coughing so much. So all it will be okay. You have a birthday coming up soon, so Mommy wanted to make sure you had your birthday cake to enjoy and maybe share with your friends. I also left you a hamburger, something that you always enjoyed. And I left you some fresh flowers to brighten up your homesite for your birthday. Happy Birthday Sweetheart! I so wish we were celebrating your birthday together, but know Mommy will never forget your special day. I love you so much little buddy and you will always be deeply embedded in my heart, soul and mind. Your sweet face is pictured in my mind forever. I so miss all the loving gestures you did showing your love, loyalty and companionship. It's not the same taking rides in my convertible, cause you're not there to jump in the car as soon as I open the door; and take your place in the passenger seat, resting your head on the counsel so I could constantly be petting you. It's not the same when I leave the house and return, to see you sitting there waiting for me; no matter the time of day or night or even the weather. I miss you sitting at my feet in the library as I worked on the computer, or having you get up in my lap while watching TV or having you comfort me if I was watching something sad and you noticed my tears or sniffles. Barney honey, you were there with me always. No one could have ever wished for a more loving and loyal companion than you. I was so Blessed the day we were joined. From that day forward you were at my side. You were are the BEST baby a mommy could ever wish or hope for. I love you and miss you so much Sweetheart. You no longer greet me, Enjoy all your Birthday gifts & flowers and know that Mommy was there to tell you how much I love you and wish you a very Happy Birthday! Have a fun birthday with all your friends. I am very sure they will all make your day very special...a day that is as special as you are! Sending hugs, kisses and all my love to you, Duffey & Wally, too! Mommy loves you all and misses you so very much. I Will love you Forever & Always PS: Again, Happy Birthday, Sweetheart! 9/1/2022 Hi Sweetheart, I've been thinking about you so much today. It's been three years today since God took you away to be at Home with Him. Barney, my little buddy, I have never missed anyone as much as I miss you. Tonight is especially hard because it's the time of the evening when I lost you forever. I remember deeply the heartbreak, the non-stop tears and the painful ache I felt in the pit of my tummy and heart. Sweetheart, I've had to learn how to go on with life without you, but you are always in my thoughts and my heart; and I will never ever forget you or forget all the love, joy, happiness and companionship you gave me every single day of our lives together. It's still not easy ... for I miss you so very much. I still see you sweet face, feel your soft gentle touches and hear you running to be near me, no matter if we were only apart for one minute or days. I will never forget how you eagerally greeted me every time we were separated. Oh how I long to have you back here with me and even though I know that's not possible....you are here with me deep in my heart and all my beautiful memories. I just wanted to stop in today to tell you that and how much I will always always love you. I needed to be able to talk to you; especially today. I still can't believe you've been gone for 3 years; for it feels just like yesterday that God took you Home with Him. In my heart, I know he did the right and loving thing, because you were so very sick, in pain and very weak. I just wish that I and the doctors could have done more to make you well and healthy again. At least, I know God has made you well, healthy and happy and that He is taking good care of you until the day comes when we are joined together again at the Rainbow Bridge and I can once again care for you and love you in person. I am so very happy that you are enjoying life with all your friends and not staying at your homesite too much. For I would never ever want you to feel sad or be lonely. I left you a new bone to enjoy now that you know how to chew on a bone. I also left you some pizza to enjoy sharing with your friends while you're all hanging out together. Just some little special treats so you know I was there to see you. I'm sorry I missed seeing you, but being there where you rest yourself every night brings me peace and comfort. It makes me feel close to you just by touching and feeling your presence and the warmth of where you layed to sleep. You are such a good boy and loving baby that I know every doggie there loves you very much and wants to always be by your side. As I've said this poem to you before, it still means the same to me every day. You no longer greet me, I will love you forever and always little buddy! 10/10/2022 Hi Little Buddy, well the air is getting cooler and crisp, especially in the evenings...a sign that the fall season is upon us. You probably found a nice pillow to lay on during the day and a cozy bed at night when the air is colder. I also left you some treats, a chicken sandwich, a big steak and two ice creams. Again, I was hoping to see you during my visit, but at least when you returned from playing with all your friends, you knew I had been there. I hope you enjoy everything and know that Mommy is always thinking of you and wanting to make sure you have many of the comforts you had here with me. I miss you so much little buddy. I was just talking about you the other day with my friends & family saying that I will never get over losing you. I was telling everyone how loyal you were, never leaving my side. And if I left the house, no matter if was an hour, a day or week...or if it was cold, raining, snowing...you would sit outside by the garage and wait for me to come home. Dad would call you in, but you'd head right back outside to wait until I pulled into the driveway. I have never in my life had anyone who loved me as you did Sweetheart. No one can ever possibly take your place in my heart and in my mind, for you have forever filled those places with the sweetest and most treasured memories. You are the most loyal, devoted companion, loving baby a Mommy could ever hope for. You filled my life with so much joy, love and laughter...that it's impossible for anyone to fill the void you left in my heart, soul and mind. I watched the movie, "A Dogs Purpose" last week. I know I should not have watched it, because this movie always makes me cry as I yearn for you to reappear in my life. It's about a devoted dog who discovers the meaning of its own existence through the lives of the humans it teaches to laugh and love. Reincarnated as multiple canines over the course of five decades, the lovable pooch develops an unbreakable bond with a kindred spirit named Ethan. As the boy grows older and comes to a crossroad, the dog once again comes back into his life to remind him of his true self, "Bailey", or "Boss Dog" as the boy called him. Please tell both Duffey and Wally I miss and love them too. I hope all three of you are having fun together. I know in my heart that we will all be reunited one day at the Rainbow Bridge. What a glorious day that will be to finally again hold all three of you in my arms, look into your sweet eyes and show you how much I love you. I will never stop missing and loving you boys!! You take care of each other until Mommy can again take care you all. I hope to see you during my next visit, but if you're away, I'll leave you little gifts and treats so you know I was there to see you. I love you little buddy! 12/15/2022 Hi Little Buddy, well winter is settling in so Mommy left you a nice warm igloo bed for you to curl up in. I also decorated your homesite for Christmas leaving a Christmas tree, pointsetta and a Christmas stocking, as well a steak, chicken sandwich and some popcorn. Hope you enjoy all these treats and having everything decorated for the holiday season. I was so hoping that I would catch you at home, but as normal when I visit, you are off having fun with your friends. I am happy to know that you're not sitting at home all alone and that you're out enjoying fun times with your other little buddies. I miss you so much Sweetheart. The ache in my heart never stops and I doubt that it ever will. I do feel your spirit with me all the time and I know in my heart that you are nearby...even though I can't see you. I yearn to see you, touch you and tell you face to face how much I love and miss you. As some would say...."just one more look". But, I know it would never be enough and how it would hurt to have to say goodbye to you again. So I keep all my treasured memories we shared together close in my mind and deep in my heart. There will never be anyone that can take your place. You will always be my special, loyal, devoted companion and best friend. Sweetheart you have a very Merry Christmas with your friends and know that I was there to visit you. I will always pop in from time to time to check on you. I know God is watching over you and taking care of all your needs until the days comes that we are together again at the Rainbow Bridge. Barney honey, I love you with all my heart and soul. Love, 2/21/2023: Hi Little Buddy, well I stopped into see you, but you must have been out with your friends, which I am happy to know. I guess you can tell, I made some changes at your homesite, still leaving your warm igloo bed in case you're still having chilly weather. But, I did leave you some treats you always liked....hamburger and french fries, along with adding some springtime decor and flowers. I hope you like everything and especially enjoy some different treats. Barney honey, I still miss you as much as the day you left me. Nothing or no one can ever take your place in my heart and mind. It's so hard to imagine that it was slightly over 3 years ago that God took you to be with him. You were so sick. Mommy couldn't be selfish and asking God to leave you with me when I know He would make you feel all better. Knowing you are in a better place does bring peace and comfort to me; but it doesn't stop me from missing you. There will never be another sweet baby like you. You were the most loyal, devoted, sweetest and loving forever friend and companion; and as I said before, no one could ever take your place. I am sorry it's been a little while since I last wrote or visited. I've been busy finally getting everything together to get off the HOA Board and going over everything with my replacement. And, Aunt Linda recently had a ver bad stroke, which effected her entire left side, her speech and abiiity to even swallow. They are moving her to a Skilled Nursing Facility today where she can get the necessary rehab to help get her back on her feet. Please ask God to pray for her and heal her body. I would hate to even think about the chance she would end up living her life in the state she's currently in. This facily has an excellent staff and rehab programs. I know she's in the best care and hands and hopefully with God's help, he will give her the needed the strength to greatly improve. Well sweet little buddy, I don't have any other news to tell you. I'm sure you'll know I was there visiting as soon as you return and see all the treats and changes. Always know that your constantly in my heart and in my thoughts. I miss you terribly and hope one day soon to be able to hold, hug, pet and kiss you again. I love you with all my heart forever and ever. You take care my sweet baby boy, keep Aunt Linda in your prayers and ask God to watch over her. Sending you oodles of hugs, kisses and all my love, Mommy 3/28/2023: Hi Little Buddy, I just popped in hopes of seeing you, but you weren't home...possibly out playing with your friends, which I am happy to know you're out having fun...even though I missed getting to see you. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about you or see you lying next to my side. Sometimes I even see ghost-like images and think it's you just coming in to check on me. I have loved all my furr-babies, but Barney Sweetheart, you hold such a deep and very special place in my heart, that I constantly long for you. There is no one that can ever take your place. There will never be any another furr-baby like you. That's how special you are to me!!!! I left you some special and different treats this time. You always liked green beans and chicken so much and I thought you would enjoy some of your other favorites. I hope you continue to enjoy all my letters and gifts as it brings me so much comfort to leave them for you. It makes me think that when you return from your outings and find new things at your homesite, you know I was there. I love you and miss you so much. My love for you only grows stronger missing you every day. As I have said to you before and is worth repeating so you know exactly how much I love you and yearn to see you one day when we join together at the rainbow bridge. You no longer greet me, I will love you forever and always little buddy! 5/31/2023: Hi Little Buddy, Sorry I've not written lately as I've been doing a lot of traveling. I did change your homesite to "summer" with flowers and left you some treats. I know how you love having a pair of my shoes nearby, so I kept those there for you, as well I know how much you enjoy french fries, so you have more to munch on. Also, I hope you enjoy your steack, chicken sandwich and yes a cup cake. You were never ever a finicky eater, you always ate everything I put down for you. All part of you being my sweet loving little buddy. There's not a day that goes by that your not in my thoughts. I miss you as much as the day you left me. I don't think my heart will ever heal or that I will ever get over losing you. There is not another doggie that can ever take your place in my mind and in my heart. Since you weren't there when I stopped by, I hope that you were out playing with all your little friends and enjoying being able to do everything you love to do. I don't know if you remember Aunt Linda, but earlier this year she had a major stroke that left her paralyzed on her left side and unable to swallow or eat. With her late stage of Dimentia, she was not able to understand what the therapists needed her to do to improve; consequently, therapy would not help her. I had to put her in Hospice and she passed away on April 22. I know she's in Heaven there with God and no longer suffering. I know God is taking execllent care of her and that she once again has a wonderful quality of life. I could not wish her here with me in the state she was in as that would be so selfish on my part. I miss her terribly and will always love her. She is in a far better place with God than she was here on Earth. She definietly was an Angel God had sent to us and we were so Blessed to have her in our lives. Now she's our Guardian Angel watching over us. If you see her, please let her know who you are and tell how much she will always be loved. I love you little Buddy and one day I know we will be joined together at the Rainbow Bridge. Until that days comes, just know you are always in my heart. Enjoy being with your friends and maybe you'd like to share some of your treats with them. You know I will always bring you more when I come to visit you again. Take care Sweetheart and have sweet dreams every single night. I love you, Love, 9/28/2023 Hi Little Buddy. I was so hoping that you would have been home during my visit. Since you weren't, I made some changes to your homesite for the Fall weather and left you some treats and your favorite things. Oh how you used to love taking my shoes outside with you whenever I was away. So, I left you a pair of sneakers so you have them for comfort and rememberance. I also left you a pillow to lay on during those chilly nights. I cannot believe it was 4 years ago on September 1st that God took you to be with Him. There is not a day that goes by that you're not in my thoughts, remembering all the sweet things you did. I miss you terribly. Sometimes a see a doggie that resembles you and I find that I want to yell the name Barney to see if it's you and you'll come running to me. While I love my sweet little Presley, he is not you Buddy. No one can ever take your place in my heart and my thoughts. With God taking good care of you, I know you're strong, healthy and are enjoying your playtimes with the other doggies. I know when my day comes that I hope God brings me to Heaven, that I'll be at the Rainbow Bridge waiting for us to be rejoined. Until that day comes, know that you are always in my heart and on my mind. I know I've said this poem to you many times and that's because it captures truly what I'm experiencing without you by my side. You no longer greet me, I will love you forever and always little buddy! 10/10/2023: Hi Little Buddy, Mommy stopped by to see you this morning; however, you were probably off playing with your friends. I know some day I will catch you at home. I left you a bone to chew on during your quite times and something that you know I was there. I know I tell you all the time how much I miss you; but words cannot ever describe how much I miss you. I thought time would help heal this sadness, but for some reason it doesn't. Time has allowed me to move on, knowing in my heart that you are no longer sick and that God is taking good care of you. I could never wish you back here with me with your health so poor. I could not be that selfish. Still I ask why you got this horrible cancer that took you away from me when I felt you still had so many more years we could be together. I guess only God knows why you got so sick. I have never missed anyone as much as I miss you. You were my constant companion and the most loyal & devoted best little friend I could have hope to have. I have to thank Gof for sending you to me in the first place. We were meant to be together and one day we will meet at the Rainbow Bridge where we will forever be together again for eternity. While I love our little Presley, he is not you. No one can replace you sweetheart. You were one of a kind that simple cannot be duplicated. I hope you have a good day with your friends. Until my next visit, please know Mommy is always thinking of you and will forever love you with all my heart and soul. Sending oodles of hugs, kisses and all my love. Mommy 11/28/23: Hello Little Buddy, Again I was so sorry that I missed getting to see you at your homesite. At least I know you are out playing with your friends and having a good time. It gives me peace of mind knowing you are out playing and not just hanging around the homesite. I'm sure you will notice I changed your homesite for the Christmas season. You have a steak, a nice warm closed in bed to keep you warm at night, a Christmas tree and other gifts. I hope you enjoy everything and also know that Mommy was there to visit. There is not a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts and in my heart. You were always the best baby. You were the most loyal, devoted and loving baby a mommy could ever ask for. No one can ever take your place sweetheart. I will always have a huge void in my heart that only you can or could ever fill. I love you so much with all my heart and will continue loving you forever and ever. You take care and continue to enjoy your time playing and running with your friends. I can not ever tell you enough how much I miss and love you. Sending you oodles of hugs, kisses and all my love. Have a very Merry Christmas Sweetheart! Love,
I hope that you did enjoy your warm igloo bed during the winter months and that you enjoyed your treats and holiday decorations. I'm sure as soon as you return from playing with all your friends, that you noticed I've made lots of changes to your homesite, plus leaving additional treats and new slippers to carry arround with you...just like you used to do when I left the house carrying shoes, flip-flops outside with you. Plus, I changed your background music to "I Will Always Love You". Truer words have never been spoken when it comes to you, my precious Little Buddy. I have been traveling alot attending Elvis Festivals and visiting the kids. Daddy of course has been playing lots of golf and pickle ball. We are all good here except for missing you all the time. I hope you are spending lots of time playing with your friends and not just laying around your homesite. However, I was so wishing to see you during my visit. But, it gives me peace of mind and heart just knowing you're off running and playing...and having a good time with all your friends. Someday when God decides, we will meet at the Rainbow Bridge so we can be together for Eternity. Until that day does come, please make sure you catch up with Wally & Duffey and tell them I love them. It's important to stay connected with family, even though you never got to meet each other. But, I feel sure that you've joined up and tell each other stories of your lives with us. You no longer greet me, I will love you forever and always little buddy! No one can ever take your place in my heart or mind! August 11, 2024: Hi Sweetheart, I just got back from a couple of trips...one to Florida with Jenny, Berky & Bo to visit Bailey (who was with me when I picked you from all the other doggies at the shelter) and Alliyah. The second trip was to Memphis to see ETA Garry Wesley. Sadly, this was the first time in years that we haven't done all the Elvis Week events. We made this decision earlier this year when all the tickets went on sale; but now we wish that we had made a different choice. Anyway I wanted to pop in...hoping that I'd get to see on this fine Sunday evening resting at home. But, as normal, you weren't home. I suppose you were off playing with your friends, which by all means is definitely okay Sweetheart. I'm glad you're enjoying yourself with your friends and that you're able to go have fun and live a very healthy life. I miss you so much! I have thought so many times about stopping in the shelter, where I picked you, and getting another doggie. Presley needs a playmate. But for some reason I stop myself. I think it's because I will be looking for another doggie exactly like you. Then my heart tells me there will never ever be another loving baby like you. I love and loved all my doggies with all my heart. But, Barney there was something extremely special about you, that no other doggie can touch. You were the most loyal, devoted, loving, tender, protective, compassionate doggie I have ever had. I didn't know anything about your life before you came into ours; other than a good samaratian found you walking on the side of Highway 94, stopped to pick you up and took you to the shelter. I don't know what kind of life you had. All I do know ia that it was meant for us to be together. Have to go, will write more later. |
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