My Friend

From the first day I saw you I knew you were special, I just never realized how very important you would become. You helped me through some pretty rough times and were the one constant in my life. I loved coming home after work and seeing your beautiful brown eyes looking at me as if I were the best thing in the world. The only thing you ever asked in return was my love and attention, which I gave to you so willingly. I loved our walks together, playing rocks in the back yard, marbles every morning before you would let me leave for work. I loved just being with you it always made me happy. Now its been almost a year since you left me and I can't stop crying because I still love you so much. I'm know I'm being selfish because I cry for me,and I know in my head it was best for you but my heart won't stop hurting. You are now pain free and happy,and if we could wish anything for the one we love it would be that. But oh dear God I cannot stop missing you. I love you so much and can't seem to let go. I don't know how or if I want to. I don't ever want to forget what you have meant to me. You were and are my very best friend and it hurts so much not to have you here. It gets so lonely and I think if I could have one wish it would be to hold that beautiful little face just one more time. Be happy my angel until we are together once again. Love, Mom

3/12/08 - I went for a walk today and my thoughts went to you. I found this poem and it says how I feel so completely. For you my baby girl.

My Forever Pet
There's something missing in my home,
I feel it day and night,
I know it will take time and strength
before things feel quite right.
But just for now, I need to mourn,
My heart--it needs to mend.
Though some may say, "It's just a pet,"
I know I've lost a friend.
You've brought such laughter to my home,
and richness to my days.
A constant friend through joy or loss
with gentle, loving ways.
Companion, friend, and confidante,
A friend I won't forget.
You'll live forever in my heart,
My sweet, forever pet.
I Love You and miss you each and every day. Be at peace my beautiful, beautiful friend.
Love, Mom

3/24/08 - Good morning my sweet angel - It's been one year today. It has been a lonely year without you but you know you are with me always. I love you very much and miss you just as much. Be happy my sweet angel and I will talk to you tonight at the candlelight ceremony.
Love you always,
Mom

4/13/08 - Hi my sweet angel. I was just thinking of you and missing you so. Just wanted to say hi, god bless and tell you how much I love and miss you. I miss you so my angel. I know you are in a better place but it still hurts so much. Always be happy my angel. I will talk to you soon. Be good and be happy with all your new friends. Say hi to Nana for me. Love you so much baby.

4/18/08 - Hi baby - just wanted to tell you I'm leaving for my trip tomorrow so I won't be at Rainbow's Bridge for a couple of weeks. I will miss seeing your cute little face. Take care of yourself and know you are with me. - Always in and near my heart. I Love You B-Do.

5/15/08 - Hi baby - I was thinking of you a lot today. I miss you so much sometimes it hurts so much not to have you here. I am going on Saturday to look at a rescue cocker who needs a home. I'm excited but oh so scared. I know there will never be another you but I want to have that bond that one only has with a pet. I know you would want me to try to help another that may need a home so I want to try. Maybe the emptiness and hurt will ease a little if I can refocus some of this pain into positive. I just want you to know that I cannot and will not ever, ever try to replace you. It cannot be done, you were and always will be my "special" girl. I love you and miss you so. Be happy my baby. I will love you always, Mom

5/4/08 - Well my sweet angel you now have two new sisters. i haven't named them yet but will let you know when I do. They are so sad my baby, I don't know how to handle them. They have lived their first 5 years of their lives in crates. They have no potty training nor food or human touch. they have spent their first 2 days hiding from me. I take them outside every 2 hours but they just don't get it. They are so sad I hope I can help them to understand that "people" are not all bad and I want them to be happy. I hope you will let them know that I only want to help not hurt them in any way. They are so sad it breaks my heart to think they just don't get it. They are so afraid of everything. It will take some time but I don't have much else so it's ok. I know you will help to guide them so maybe the last years of their lives are good. They have done nothing but live in a crate and have babies. Both are rescues from a puppy mill in PA. I feel so bad for each I hope they will be happy. Please let them know I'm only wanting to help not hurt them. I will talk to you soon, of course I will need your help so please talk to them. I love you so much and realize how very blessed I was to have had you in my life. I will always miss and love you so much. Be good and please be happy my sweet, sweet angel. Love you always, Mom

9/6/08 - Hi sweet girl. I was thinking a lot about you today so I wanted to say hi and I miss you very much. I hope you are happy and well. I have named the rescue girl Maggie. Her sister didn't work out so she had to go to a foster home for a while. Maggie has been here for 4 months and still has very little trust in people. She spends most of her time hiding from me. She will be a work in progress. She's a sad little girl and I hope she learns that some people can be trusted and that I only want to help her. Time will tell and a lot of patience. That's not my strong point but we are both trying. Some days I think maybe she will be ok. I hope so. It's pouring rain outside so I know you are running around like you always did in the rain. I miss so much little girl and can't wait to see you again. I love you always, Mom

10/4/08 - Happy, happy Birthday my sweet girl. I love you always my baby. Let's make it your birthday month. Run, play be free of pain and happy. I miss you so much it hurts. You are in my thoughts each and every day. Be good. Love you, Mom

12/11/08 - It's almost Christmas my baby and I miss you so much. I have tried to give you a few of the things you loved. Snow, baby bunny, present (marbles), tree and Santa. I will be thinking of you through this season and wishing with all my heart you were here. Be good, happy, and always remember you are my "Christmas Angel"

I love you,
Mom

2/8/09 - I'm sorry it's been a while since I wrote you anything. I still visit but don't always want to say anything. I Just need you to know I miss you as much today as if almost two years have not gone by. I still have Maggie and now I'm fostering a blind cocker named Jessica. They keep me busy which is what I need but you are in my heart always. I wish, I wish - but things don't change. You are gone and my very selfish side wants you back. I love so my B-Do and I know we will be together again someday. Have fun and run free my baby girl.

Love you always,
Mom

2/14/09 - Happy Valentines Day my sweet girl. Share your candy with "Baby Bunny". I will love you always.
Mom

3/24/09 - It's been 2 years today and I miss you as much today as I did then. I love you so much my sweet baby girl and miss you more. I know you are happy and at peace so I'm ok but I wish it didn't have to be.

Love you always,
Mom

"A heart of gold stopped beating
A smiling face at rest
God broke my heart to prove to me
He only takes the best.

March is here with deep regret
The day, the month, I can't forget
Whoever said sorrow healed by time
Could never have had a dog like mine.

Take her in your arms dear Lord
Look after her with care
Make up for all she suffered
And all that was unfair.

Though absent you are always near
Still loved, still missed, and ever dear
In my heart you will always stay
Loved and longed for every day.

A heart of gold stopped beating
two shining eyes at rest,
I knew you had to leave me,
but you did not go alone
for part of me went with you
when your soul took its flight home.

To some you are forgotten,
to others a part of the past.
But to me who loved and lost you,
Your memory will always last.

A Heart of Gold Stopped Beating

7/20/09 - My sweet girl, I was just thinking of you and missing you so much, Its a very warm day and I was just remembering how much you would be enjoying your pool. It's so many of the little things I miss. Be at peace my little one. Love you always, mom

9/24/09 - Just a little while and it's your Birthday my sweet girl. I Love and Miss you so very much. Mom

12/24/2009 - Merry Christmas - my sweet, sweet girl. I love you. Mom

1/13/2010 - Well baby girl another year without you. God I miss you so very much. Maggie is still with me and is trying to be a dog - sometimes she almost gets it. I can't believe what we as people are thinking sometimes - she is such a sad little girl. I've decided to keep Jessie with us. She is my blind foster cocker and just the other day the rescue group called to say someone was interested in adopting her. But that couldn't be, I could not let her go. So now I have the both girls and we all love you and thank you for bringing me to this place where I can give my love knowing you would want that for them and for me. I will always love you my angel girl. Be at peace and remember always I will see you again. I Will Love You Forever, Mom

2/14/2010 - Happy Valentines Day - my precious beautiful girl. I Love You

6/25/2010 - It's summer again sweetheart and another year without you. I miss you my sweet girl and hope with all my heart you are happy. I've left you some marbles to play with. Simon should be there with you & Toby now so please be good to them, you guys are my family and I miss and love you all. Love You Forever and Always, Mom

9/30/2010 - Hi sweetie, well it's almost your b'day. 4 more days. I left you some early gifts and I want you to know I will be thinking of you and missing you more than you could ever know. I love you my sweet angel. Be at peace and I will talk to you on Monday. We will do a candlelight ceremony also, talk to you then. Love you always, mom

11/9/10 - Hi my sweet, sweet girl. It's almost Thanksgiving and I want you to know that I love you and miss you so very much. Ham bone for you - there's no Turkey. Also play with your marbles. Be happy sweet girl. All my love forever, Mom

12/24/10 - Merry Christmas my beautiful girl. I wish with all my heart you were here with us.
Tell Nana and all I love them and you most of all and always. Mom

03/24/11 - It's almost impossible to believe it's been 4 years today since you left me. I love you so much and miss you more. It may get "easier" but today it doesn't feel like it. Be happy and at peace my very special angel. I love you always and forever. Mom

06/07/11 - Hi my sweet angel. Today is a very sad day my precious Maggie Mae passed away this morning. Her beautiful little heart couldn't take anymore. I am so sad that we had only 3 years together so I need you to do me a very big favor. Meet her, love her, and take care of her. Her life on earth wasn't very good before she came to live here so I need you to help her "over" and show her there is much love in your world. I will talk to you soon. Be good, love you always and forever. Kiss for you and Maggie also. Mom

2/14/12 - Love you so much baby girl. Happy Valentines Day. Give Mag's a hug. Mom

3/24/12 - I love you my baby girl. Remembering today with sadness and peace. You were and always will be my best friend and knowing you are pain free is good. But for the selfish side of me I wish with all my heart you were here. Be happy my "little bit" until we are together again. Give Nana and Maggie sweet kisses. Love you always. Mom

5/4/12 - I love you baby girl. Say hi and kisses to Mag's, miss you so much. Tomorrow is Derby day so got you your own horse. Enjoy and be thinking of you and our "special" treat day. Always in my heart, Mom

10/12/12 - I love you my sweet girl. Just stopped by to say that even after all this time I miss you so much. Do me a favor and take care of Parkie when he gets there. He left us last week and I know you will look after him and show him how beautiful it is to be pain free and running happy. Love you all, Mom

11/20/12 - Hi my sweet, sweet girl. Just thinking of you today and wanted to wish you a very wonderful Thanksgiving. No Turkey for my girl, best steak always. Miss you baby, hope you are happy and taking care of little Mags. She needs love so be a good girl to and for her. All my hugs and kisses always, Mom

12/22/12 - Well it's almost time for Santa my beautiful baby girl. I was thinking of you today and remembering all the great Christmas's I had because you were with me. You will always be in my heart and my thoughts. I love you my baby and wish you the best Christmas ever. Give mom and Mag's hugs and kisses from me and biggest hugs and kisses for you. Merry Christmas Angel. Love you always and forever, mom

2/12/13 - Happy Valentines Day my beautiful baby. I love you always. Mom

3/24/13 - Hi my sweet, sweet angel. One more year of missing you so terribly much. Please know I will love you always and forever. Robert signed your guest book sweet girl that was very nice to know someone is sending you kind and loving wishes. Run happy and pain free and please take care of Maggie for me. I Love You always, Mom

6/28/13 - Happy Summer baby girl! Have fun with your marbles. Hugs and kisses always, mom

12/25/13 - Merry Christmas my beautiful baby girl., I love you and miss you so very much. You now have Maggie, Jessie Simon and Toby to keep you company and to guide and take care of. Be my good girl and love them as I love you. Always and Forever, Mom

3/24/14 - Another year my sweet angel and I still miss you so much. I will always love you more than words can say. You were and are my best friend. I know you are in a much better place with no pain and at peace so I'm ok with that for you. Be always happy and I know we will be together again. I love you angel, special hugs and kisses, always Mom

4/19/14 - Tomorrow is Easter and as always I'm thinking and missing you so very much. Be good little girl and have a Happy, Happy Easter. I love you always and forever. Mom

12/18/2014 - Hi my sweet angel, I was thinking of you today so wanted to send you my love and tell you how very much I love and miss you. You are always in my heart and hope you are safe and happy. On November 14th Lexi passed away and I hope she is with you and everyone else safe and warm. Please be her "big sister" she needs to be taken care of, she's a real good girl. Merry Christmas sweet angel. I will love you forever and always, Mom

1/26/15 - Hi my baby girl was just thinking about you so stopped by to give you an early Valentines present and to say I LOVE YOU, more than anything in the world. Be happy angel. Love you always, Mom

3/24/15 - Eight years today, it doesn't seem possible. I was thinking of you last night and the years have gone by so fast. Know I love you today as much as I did then and you will always be the most wonderful loving creature I have ever had the pleasure of sharing my life with. Be happy sweet angel and a very special thank you to "our" friend Robert for being there with a sweet rememberance every year. Thank You from both of us. Love you always and forever my beautiful baby girl. Mom

2/12/16 - Happy New Year my beautiful baby girl. It's been a while and I am sorry. Love you so very much and miss you each and every day. Be good my baby girl. Love you always, Mom

3/22/17 - Good morning my beautiful baby girl. Thinking of you a lot lately so wanted to send you my love and many, many hugs. I Love You so much and want you to always know you are my special angel. Be happy and always run free!! All my love always, Mom

12/24/18 - Merry Christmas my special angel.. Many, many hugs for all my furry babies at the bridge.. I Love You Always!!

3/24/19 - My beautiful little girl, I can't believe it's been 12 years since you left me. I still miss and love you more than I can ever put into words. I truly wish and hope you are at peace and happy, I will never stop loving you. You will always be my best girl.
I Love You always and forever my sweet baby girl.. Mom

9/23/19 -Good Morning... I Love You. Just wanted to say that today, you are in my thoughts. Run Free my beautiful girl... mom

3/24/2020-Good morning my most precious girl. I love you today and forever. It's a very sad day for me remembering all the good and not so good things but also a comfort for having had you in my life even if for just a short time. This day will always be hard for me but believing you are pain free and happy makes me know that I will see you again and I too will be happy and we will never have to be apart again.
I Love You sweet girl and that will never stop, no matter what.
Mom

2/10/21- Just thinking about you so came for a short visit. It's cold today but I know you are warm and happy. I Love you so much my baby girl. Be good
Mom

3/24/2021 - Today is and will always be a sad day for me. I miss you so much my beautiful girl. I know you are happier but wish you didn't have to go. I love you always and forever.
Mom

2/24/2022 - woke up thinking about you today, same date different year. It does get easier but not better, I love you little one and still miss you'll very much. Run free and happy and know I love you always. Mom

5/19/2024 - My beautiful girl, I woke up this morning thinking about you and had to reach out. It's been a very long time since I wrote anything so not sure why today but I just had a feeling. I love you today as much as I did then and sometimes I think of how long it's been and the friends who have come since and I have loved each of them but no one ever again like you. Be happy my angel we will meet again.
Love you always, Mom