10/11/24
I am barely holding on, sleep evades me and mornings are difficult to face. Yesteday, the canvas of you arrived and I just lost it. I thought my tears were over, but i was so wrong... I'm trying to remember the happy days and joyful moments we shared and each are tinged with a deep sense of loss. I had so many dogs when I was growing up in the Philippines (20yrs ago) All of them were special and were missed as well. Your loss feels as if I'm in a very deep and dark well with barely a glimmer or light... I should have spent more walks and fun activities with you while you were in the peak of your prime... I shoulds and what if's are my constant depressing thoughts. They say time heals all wounds... despite all these dark moments, I will go through all the heartbreak and the tears as these are nothing compared to the comfort, joys laughter and adventures we shared. Oh Bon, I miss you so much. I have not felt this sense of loss with any human being.... It's a deep, deep ache and pain. LOVE AND PRAYERS MY DEAREST FRIEND. TILL We Meet Again and run free together.

03/31/25
My dearest Bon,
It's been 6 months since I lost you. My nights are the hardest and the loneliest times. Sleeping is hard so I would stay up late until I would get tired. I remember those nights when you would patiently wait beside me as I watch TV or read. You're my Neverending shadow. Lulu, is still here and she does her best to fill the empty spaces of my heart, bless her little heart and joyful personality. She also misses you a d would spend a lot of time sniffing the neighborhood areas you had marked.
I can't tell you enough how much I miss you my dearest Bon. Till we're together again....