10/11/24
I am barely holding on, sleep evades me and mornings are difficult to face. Yesteday, the canvas of you arrived and I just lost it. I thought my tears were over, but i was so wrong... I'm trying to remember the happy days and joyful moments we shared and each are tinged with a deep sense of loss. I had so many dogs when I was growing up in the Philippines (20yrs ago) All of them were special and were missed as well. Your loss feels as if I'm in a very deep and dark well with barely a glimmer or light... I should have spent more walks and fun activities with you while you were in the peak of your prime... I shoulds and what if's are my constant depressing thoughts. They say time heals all wounds... despite all these dark moments, I will go through all the heartbreak and the tears as these are nothing compared to the comfort, joys laughter and adventures we shared. Oh Bon, I miss you so much. I have not felt this sense of loss with any human being.... It's a deep, deep ache and pain. LOVE AND PRAYERS MY DEAREST FRIEND. TILL We Meet Again and run free together.