You were the most beautiful, spirited dog I have ever met. I was truly blessed the day you entered my life, and blessed every day you were with me. The second worst day of my life was the day you were diagnosed with cancer, the worst day of my life was the day your fight ended. You fought cancer for over 2 1/2 years with dignity, courage, strength, and a wagging tail. No matter how you felt after your many, many treatments, your tail always wagged when you saw me. When you had given all you could and the cancer and the treatments had ravaged your body, you let me know you were ready to cross over. I have cried more in the last 5 days than I ever have. I miss you terribly, and the hurt has only begun. I will miss our Saturday afternoon naps on the couch after our traditional long Saturday walks. I miss your wagging tail when I get home from work, your funny looks when I got up too early for you, our walks at the dog park, you chasing sucker fish on their spring run in the shallow creek near our home, the way you always let me know you needed some attention, sitting on the porch with you at the end of the day, our walks in the woods, the way you always got excited when I took you up the mountains, the way you used to wrestle with your fur-buddy, Nicki, the way we played soccer together, and too many other memories to list. You were the best companion a man could ever have. All your human friends miss you too, and they all cried when I told them I had to set you free of your physical body because it was failing you. I burn a candle for you every night next to a picture of you near where you slept every night. My only prayer is that I did not wait too long to set you free while I was hoping and praying for a miracle. I tried my best to find a cure for your cancer, but it was not to be. A part of me died with you.
4/30/2007 - Hello, Buck. I can't believe its only been 5 weeks since I last scratched your ears, it feels like a lifetime. Time passes so slowly without you, its unbelievable. I am glad you have sent me messages that you are ok, and I wish you would send more. I hope you were there to greet your fur-buddy Nicki when she arrived at the Bridge last Friday. I'm sure the 2 of you are healthy again, cancer-free, and wrestling together like you used to when you both were pups. I was sad that it was Nicki's time, but I am glad that you have an old friend there with you now to keep you company. I miss you so much I can't put it into words. Take care, my friend, and let me know you are around more often.
6/26/2007 - It is 3 months today that we parted, and I still miss you more than words can express. The emptiness that you left behind has not been filled, and, as time passes, I am more convinced that it will never be filled. I hope you are doing well in your new home, and playing with your friends Nicki and Dudley, who both joined you within a few weeks of your arrival at the Bridge. Think of me often, my friend, and wag your tail when you do. I will feel the breeze of your wagging tail on my face.
1/8/2008 - Hi Buck. By now, you know I have a new friend at home, Holly. She is a rescue, the same age as you. She is a fine dog, but she does not replace you. She does help fill the emptiness in my heart, but that emptiness will never be filled completely until I see you again. I miss you.
3/26/2008 - It has now been a year since I last scratched your ears, my friend. I miss you so much, my heart feels empty without you. The hurt has lessened, but not much, especially today on your anniversary. I take comfort in the knowledge that with each passing day, I am 1 day closer to seeing you again. I hope you are happy at the Bridge while you wait for me. I found this poem that fits my feelings. I hope you like it.
We Have A Secret
12/25/08 - My second Christmas without you, my friend, and my heart aches for you today as much as it did on the day I sent you on your journey to the Bridge. Holly keeps me company, but she does not replace you. Sleep tight, my friend, and think of me often. You are always in my thoughts.
3/26/2009 - Hi Buck, it is the second anniversary of your crossing to the Bridge, and I still miss you today as much as I did 2 years ago. A candle is burning tonight next to your picture and your remains, and a candle lamp is still in the window and it lights every night so you can find your way home. Holly is here with me and she seems to know that today is a sad day for me, as she is staying very close to me, which is unusual for her. I hope that you speak to her and let her know she needs to look after your dad. I miss you, buddy.
10/29/2009 - Hi Buck, sorry it has been so long since I visited, but it still hurts when I remember our times together. Today, unfortunately, I was told that Holly has also been diagnosed with the cancer beast that took your health and life. I again have to do battle with the beast. Please ask God to help Holly and I in this fight. I miss you my friend, and it is too soon for Holly to be leaving me. Please help your Dad.
3/26/2010 - Hello, my friend. It is now 3 long years since I last kissed your head and ran my fingers through your fur. The days seem longer without you, even though Holly is here with me to help me through. Thank you for your help with her, Holly's cancer is gone and should never affect her again. I wish the cancer beast that took you from me would have been as easily cured as hers, but it was not meant to be. I hope that you understand that I did everything I could to save you, but God wanted you home with Him. I hope that you are running free and healthy, and waiting for the day that we meet again. Please wag your tail for me tonight. I will feel the breeze on my face. I miss you, Buck.
3/26/11 - It's now 4 years since I last held you, my friend. As time passes, the hurt lessens, but it will never go away until we are reunited. I think of you and our times together many times every day. You are never far from my mind. Holly is doing well, and filling in for you, but she is not you. Your dad misses you very, very deeply.
3/26/12 - Here we are again, buddy. Another year passed without you, now a total of 5 years since I last stroked your fur and whispered in your ear for the last time. I think of you everyday, and miss you more than words can say. I still think of our times together. I'm afraid that Holly will be joining you at the Bridge soon, as cancer has settled in her liver. But Dr. Nelson recommended a course of treatment that could cure her. I'll know more in a week. When the day comes that she joins you, I know you will welcome her, and the 2 of you will play together, cancer-free, while you wait for me together. I miss you, my friend.
6/18/12 - Hi Buck. I hope you greeted Holly at the Bridge 11 days ago the way you used to greet me, with a wagging tail and a smile. I hope the 2 of you are running around having fun while you wait for me. The 2 of you were truly lights in my life, and now I am alone again. I am not going to bring another friend into my home for a while. I still grieve for you, and now for Holly. Take care of her, she treated your dad well while she was with him. My time with her, and you, was way too short.
12/25/12 - Another Christmas without you, and now Holly. I miss you as much today as the day you left nearly 6 years ago. I have company here in a foster dog that I have now had for 6 months while I bring her back to good health, and her health has improved greatly. It's time for her to find her forever home. I foster dogs in you honor, and I hope you understand that this is an expression of my love for you.
3/26/13 - It's now been 6 long years since we said goodbye. I miss you as much today as I did the last time I whispered "I love you" into your ear just before you closed your eyes for the last time. I think of you every day, and long for the day we will be reunited. A candle is burning for you tonight, just as on every anniversary of our last goodbye. I miss you, buddy.
8/20/13 - Hello, Buck. I lost another friend the other day, my foster dog, Dee. She was with me for 14 months while I tried to bring her back to good health, but it was not meant to be. I put her at peace 2 days ago, and I truly miss her. I regret not adopting her, since she was abandoned by her prior owners and passed only with a foster dad. Her ashes will stay with me, as I could not abandon her like her prior "owners" did. I hope you and Holly greeted her and are forming a pack to welcome me when it is my time to join you. Take care of Dee for me, and let her know that I love her, and that I miss her greatly.
3/26/14 - Hello, Buck. It's now 7 long years since I set you free. I still miss you every day. I miss Holly and Dee also, but you I miss the most by far. Your candle is burning again tonight, just as it always does on the anniversary of your crossing over. I cannot express how deeply I miss you and long to see you again. Thank you for letting me know you are around, and I wish that I could touch you, but I know I can't. I love you and miss you today as much as I did 7 years ago. Please wag your tail for me tonight. I love you, buddy.
3/26/15 - Hi Buck. I miss you more all the time, even though it has been 8 long years without you. I don't have the words to express how much you meant to me, and still mean to me, even to this day. I say goodnight to you every night, and good morning to you every day. I will be lighting your candle shortly, just as I do every year on your anniversary. Love you, buddy. Let me know you are around once in a while.
3/26/16 - Hi, my friend Buck. It is now 9 years we have been apart. I still think of you every day, and will never stop thinking of you. I miss you deeply, with wagging tail and the way you would greet me with a toy every day when I got home from work. Your candle will be lit again tonight. Know that Dad loves you as much today as he ever did. Love you, my friend.
3/26/17 - Hi Buck, It's now 10 years since I said goodbye to you. I will never stop missing you, and I hope 1 day to be reunited with you. I wish we could go to the woods like we used to. I never drive by there without thinking of you. Your candle has been burning all day. I miss you and I love you.
3/26/23 - Hi Buck, sorry I haven't written in a while. A day never goes by without me thinking of you many times, and I always say good morning and good night to you. You are always on my mind, and forever in my heart.