Its been almost a year now since you left. What a year it has been!
I'm sorry I haven't made this memorial, it has really been a big year for daddy. I gave you the hillside, because I know how much you love the nature. And the sweet smell of leaves.
I think about you all the time, and I miss you more than anything. I still have a hard time when I think of your sweet face.
I wanted to let you know that I'm so sorry, daddy really tried. I know you loved and trusted me to the very end, and I'm so thankful that we could be together. Our time was too short.
I still remember the scared dog that came home with me that day, dirty and covered in mange. Oh, who knew what a wonderful gift you would be.
They say that when god made dogs, he filled them to the brim with love, there wasn't any room left for things like anger. You proved that every day.
I remember the way you would dance around for peanut butter, like a majestic show horse. Your big happy paws bouncing along. Or the way you would just be so happy you would stick your head between my knees for lovies when I got home. How could I forget? They were the happiest times of my life.
Your big puppy paws and your beautiful fur coat are etched into my memories. I know that you had health problems, but you were always the prettiest girl I'd ever seen. It hurt me so badly when you saw yourself in the mirror that night, because it didn't ever matter how much fur you lost, you were my fluffy buffy puppy. You always will be.
I know that over the rainbow bridge there are big fields and soft beds, and big ol' dirt and snow piles you can dig your special holes to lay in. With a nice stream so you can go swimming and cool those big puppy paws off. I know Peaches and Daisy are up there too, with you. Please tell them I will write soon. I love you all so much, you were my reason to go on.
Again, I'm sorry. I know you've seen me cry too many times, but it really hurts, not having you here. I wish I could have done more, that I wasn't a world away when you needed me most. I feel like I let you down, and I'm so sorry. I promised you that things would get better, they just didn't happen soon enough.
I wanted to let you know that you really inspired me, your departure was not for nothing. I've changed, and become a better person. I've cleaned up, and got away from that awful place, and those awful people. It was all you, Buffy. I've written about your inspiring smile. The smile that never left your big face, and that big nose that you loved to have rubbed so much. You never gave up, even to the last day. Always happy to just be with me. I know that when I'm down, and things are hard, that you would have smiled, and I keep on going. Its what you would have wanted. When I laid in bed and cried, you would come and comfort me until I fell asleep. You loved me, and I loved you.
I will write soon, my sweet puppy. I love you.
Hey there puppy. I'm sorry I missed your anniversary. I..I was honestly scared. Your passing was the most significant thing that happened in my recent life, it is something that is still hard to face. The fact is that, just like everything else in this life, your time here was limited. It hurts that I didn't cherish you as much as I did. But I'm starting to heal. I know you loved to see me happy. And I am getting more happy. You never held grudges, you only loved. And loved and loved. I've said it before, but you silly big ol' puppy, you've taught me so much. Thank you. Your big paw print I wear on my heart with pride. I'm glad we got to spend the time we did together, it was the best time. Tomorrow is always another day. The sun is starting to come out again as the weather warms up. The flowers will bloom soon, and all those sniffies you loved so much will be everywhere again. I promise you, my sweet Buffy, that I won't make the same mistakes. I'm not perfect, we never are, but I'll always try my best, just like you did. Thank you Buffy. I love you so much. I'll be by soon. And I'll keep trying to smile, even when it hurts.