My dear baby boy. I still mention your name somehow, someway in a conversation everyday. Your passing was difficult but even harder was having to hear you suffer during the last months you were here. I felt so hopeless when I was not able to keep you from being miserable in your illness and guilty because of how you helped me through mine. You were there for me all the way during the breast cancer giving me comfort and hope. When I would cry from the chemo flashes you would literally lick my bald head to cool me off and soothe me. I felt so powerless when myself or the Doctors were not able to do the same for you any longer. I am so sorry you had to suffer one moment of your precious life my sweet little guy. You were and will always be the greatest love of my life. You were so gorgeous and proud. Everywhere we went together was like being with a celebrity. People went crazy when they saw how cute you were. It was amazing to me that God gave me the privilege of being your Mom. Now you are home with Jesus. My only comfort is that you are no longer carrying the burden of suffering from the dreadful illness that took you away from us. I am so sorry I was not with you the night you passed. It haunts me everyday of my life that I was not there. I know the rest of the family was there and I thank God for that. I know you forgive me and hopefully one day I can forgive myself for being so weak. Mom was sick in her own way too babe. I know you are so proud of how I am doing now and it is because of your Spirit I choose to live my life the way I do now. In honor of you, I was able to turn it around after grieving the loss of you. I know that is what you always wanted was for me to find peace within and be happy. You will never be forgotten and live in my heart now. I smile thinking about how funny you were. Looking at pictures, your ability to copy the look on the face of whoever it was posing in a selfie with you. The love you had for certain friends and family members was off the charts. You gave all who knew you so much pleasure and joy. Your fondness of kissing and your funny little moves you would make with your lady friend toy. What a delightful gift from God you were. I know when my time comes you will be the first face I see. Until then, please know I love you with all my heart and soul and miss you to pieces baby! Everybody misses you! Stay close to Jesus and remember Mommy will see you when he calls for me. All my love. Mommy

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