A poem from my Cupcake:
I know that you can't see me,
But trust me, I'm right here.
Although I'm up in Heaven,
My love for you stays near.

Many times I see you crying,
Many times you call my name.
I want so much to lick your face,
And ease some of your pain.

I wish that i could make you see,
That Heaven indeed is real.
If you could see me run and play,
How much better you would feel.

But our loving God has promised me,
That when the time is right,
You'll step out of the darkness,
And meet me in the light.

Thank you my sweet Cupcake for such a beautiful poem. It goes arm in arm with the beauty of you.
Love, Your Dad
2/13/2016
Good Morning Sweet Girl,
Well another day starts without your love and beauty. Home again with myself and your earthly friends you left behind. Now that you have your Angel's wings, I am sure you have made lots of new friends to play with and keep you company until we all meet up again. I love and miss you so much. It still makes my heart ache to realize you are gone from me forever in this life. But your spirit is still in my heart and will remain there forever. Cupcake I love and miss you so much. It will be 7 weeks tomorrow evening since you took your leave of all of us hear on planet Earth. As I have said before, I would give anything I have left to have you back by my side, healthy, playing ball, taking walks together and just generally enjoying each other's company. Since that can't be for now, I will just have to be patient until the time comes for our joyful and tearful reunion. Just be patient my sweet girl, as time will pass quickly and I'll be there before you know it.
Love You Always and Forever,
Your Dad
2/14/2016
Happy Valentine's Day my sweet baby. Wish you were still here physically so i could give you a big hug and a kiss. But you are still tugging at my heart strings, and that will continue until we are reunited once again.
Love You Now and Forever,
Your Dad
2/18/2016
My Sweet Baby,
Another long day drags by without you at my side. I don't write everyday, I know. It's not that you ever leave me, it's just that I don't want to be so repetitious. I have gotten down to just thinking of you once a day: ALL DAY LONG!!!
R.I.P my Sweet Cupcake.
Love You, Your Dad
2/23/2016
Good Morning My Sweet Baby,
Well another day begins without you. Last night Bette and I watched our first candlelight vigil for you and all the residents at Rainbow Bridge. It is somewhat comforting to see how much other humans miss their fur angels. I can only relate to missing you, but when you see the feeling that others express for their loss, I begin to see that I am not alone in my grief. I think of you all day long and hope you are well, healthy and free of pain and any discomfort. I will write to you again soon and often. You are forever in my heart, my sweet baby.
Love You Always and Forever,
Your Dad
2/27/2016
Hello Baby,
Today it will be 2 months since you took your bow and exited stage right. Yes the curtain came down on your earthly life that fateful day. Now you have the wings of an angel. I truly know you are now once again pain free and sitting at the feet of our God. I look forward to our re-union someday. i miss you so much. It will never be the same here without you, but because there are others that are depending on me, I must struggle on. Jake, Foxy, Cujo and Princess send you many kisses each and every day. You can rest easy knowing that Foxy has been especially good to me since you went away, but you can't and never will have a replacement. As I said before, when God made you, he broke the mold. So, my sweet girl, rest in piece until we meet again. Play and make lots and lots of new friends. Have a wonderful day and I will write to you often. That's a promise.
Love you now and always,
Your Dad
3/11/2016
Hello My Sweet Baby,
We got some much needed rain today. How I wish you were with me, snuggled under a warm blanket as we listen to the rain fall on the roof together. I remember also how you used to chase the birds in the yard. You never did catch one(thank goodness), but maybe you just wanted to fly like them. Well now, since you have your Angel wings, I can ask: Baby how does it feel to fly? I know you have made many new friends that I will meet some day. Say hello to all of them for me. I know you are watching over me from the bridge. I see you everywhere, everyday. Thank you for watching over me. I will never forget the time we shared, even though it passed too damn quickly. But just think: once we are together again, it will be FOREVER!!! Take care up there, and always know I will NEVER stop loving you, my wonderful Angel in heaven.
Love You Forever And Forever,
Your Dad
3/27/2016
My Sweet Baby,
Well today marks the third month I have been without you. Don't get me wrong, you are still here in my heart and soul, just gone from me physically. It just seems you have been gone forever, then sometimes it seems you were here yesterday. Anyway I can see us together again someday, roaming the fields and meadows beyond the Rainbow Bridge. I know you are better off up there, pain free and running until your hearts content. I just hope I can be free of this pain in my heart from being without you. Foxy tries to make up for the loss, but it just isn't the same here without you, no matter how hard he tries. A quarter year without you, and I must have cried a million tears. I would gladly cry a billion if you could come back healthy again. I would gladly walk through hell too, if that would do any good, but I know it wouldn't. So I will be patient and try my best to live a decent life in your memory. I still love and miss you so much, and yes, it still hurts a lot to go on without you. But I will persevere since all the others are depending on me, but it isn't easy without you along for the ride. Until next time, be in peace my baby. I love you and miss you forever.
Love You Always,
Your Dad
4/17/2016
My Sweet Baby,
I will never stop thinking of you, or stop loving you. Peace be with you until we meet again.
Love You Forever,
Your Dad
4/27/2016
Good Morning Baby,
Well today marks one third of a year without you. Oh how I wish each and every day that we could have had more years together. Right now I would settle for one more day, so I could hold you and tell you how much you mean to me. Always have and always will until it's time to be reunited with you once more. That will be a glorious day for me and I'm sure it will be for you also. What keeps me going day to day is the other 6 that depend on me: Jake, Foxy, Cujo, Princess, Curly & Shaggy. They were your friends and they miss you a lot too. Just always remember, baby, you may be gone from this Earth, but you will always be loved and never ever forgotten. Live in peace and love until I can be there to love and care for you once again. Love and kisses.
You Dad Forever
5/22/2016
Good Morning My Baby,
How are things in paradise today? Things have to be good just because you are there now. I was just going over in my mind all the trips we took to Apple Valley to visit with Cathy for your treatments. Those were special days for me, and I know you always felt better after seeing Cathy. I haven't heard from her since she signed your guestbook. I suppose she is real busy, or maybe she has just forgotten about us. I know for sure that I will NEVER forget you my precious baby. I still tear up from time to time, but I am doing somewhat better. Foxy, Cujo, Princess, Jake, Curly & Shaggy all send their blessings, as well as all the humans that had the honor to know you. All the great times we had together in the past is what keeps me going into the future, as I know with all my heart that we will meet on that beautiful shore someday. Until that glorious day, my baby, play and be happy, make lots of new friends, but please don't forget about me, here still Earthbound and longing to have you by my side, just like it used to be. For now, my sweet, be patient and I will write to you again soon.
Love you Forever,
Your Dad
5/27/2016
Good Morning my Sweet Baby,
Well here it is, the dreaded 27th of the month. 5 months since you escaped the bonds of planet Earth. Now I know you are in a better place, free of any suffering, making lots of new friends, but here I am, still Earthbound, and missing you so very much. I know it's a little selfish to want you back with me, but selfish I will be, because I would love to have you back here with me, but only if you would be happy and full of vigor like you were before sickness took its toll on you. At least I will always have the memories of all the great times we shared together. From just cuddling, to our long walks together, going places in the truck, just playing ball in our driveway, you were always a joy to be around. So my sweet one, think about me often as I think of you constantly. Be patient with my being selfish, and we will meet again some day. Say hello to all your Angel friends and have them save a spot for me. I'll write again soon. R.I.P. my sweet baby.
Love You Always,
Your Dad
6/19/2016
Hello My Baby,
Well here it is Father's Day, but you aren't here to celebrate with me. JJ came out yesterday and today, and John and I will be drinking a few beers later in your memory. I still haven't been able to accept the fact that you are really gone. You were EVERYTHING to me, my baby. I know you won't be missing this heat wave we are having right now. It hit 101 today and tomorrow they say 110. The next 7 days will be over 100. So look down on me and know that everything would be much cooler if you were here with me. I am sure that up there in paradise is always perfect in weather and everything else. But if you could give all that up and return to me, I'm sure you would do it in a heart beat. And you know you would be welcomed with outstretched arms if you could come back in good health and vigor like you were for most all of your precious life. So soon you will be gone from me for half of a year. Like I've said before, sometimes it seem ions ago, and still just like yesterday. I miss and love you so much, and I always will my girl. Take care and have fun, make lots of friends, but please remember me and all the good times we shared together. I'll be back to talk some more on the dreaded 27th of the month.
Love you Forever,
Your Dad
6/27/2016
Hello Sweet Baby,
Well it is the dreaded 27th of the month, and you have been away for 6 months now, half of this year. Words are totally insufficient to say how I miss you and still love you with all my heart. It takes forever to fall asleep at night without you here by my side. I wish you were in my dreams every night, but I also realize that you are in a totally different life now, and I would never be selfish enough to deprive you of anything like what you must now have. So, my sweet baby, live your "now" life to the fullest. We will meet again someday on that golden shore, and be happy together for all of eternity. Until then, think of me and remember me and all the good times we shared. I will always love and cherish all the times we had. You please do the same. Until the next time, R.I.P my sweet girl.
Love you Always And Forever,
Your Dad
7/04/2016
Good Morning My Sweet Girl,
Here it is the 4th of July and you aren't here to celebrate with me. You were always the brave one, never afraid of all the noise from the fireworks. Now I have a bunch of scaredy cats to take care of this evening. Come to think of it, you were never scared of anything, not even death. I know you suffered in those last days, but never a whimper did I hear from you. When my time comes I hope I will be as brave as you my sweet girl. Like I've said many times before, when God created you, he broke the mold. There, I said it again. That's all for now baby. Just wanted you to know I never stop thinking about you. Just once a day, all day long. I'll be back again soon.
Love and miss You So Very Much,
Your Dad
7/21/2016
Hello Baby,
Still missing you so much, I just felt like letting you know. It is so hot here like you won't believe. It will be 108 on Saturday, and it will cool slightly after then. Our water heater went out 2 days ago, and I don't know when I will be able to afford fixing it.My truck has been broken for 2 weeks now, and I have to rely on Bette to take me wherever I have to go. That's enough griping from me. How have your days up there been going? I hope you have made many friends by now. I look forward to meeting all of them some day. Well that's it for now. Everybody here sends their love and kisses to you, especially me. I'll be back on the worst day of the month, the 27th, to talk with you again.
Love You Now And Always,
Your Dad
7/28/2016
Hello My Sweet,
It sure is hot today. It will be 107 today and 109 tomorrow before getting some relief by next week. I have decided not to write to you on the 27th anymore, as it's not something to be celebrated, but instead to be reminded of your passing. I just want to remember the happy days we had together. You have been gone from me for 7 months now, but I still can't accept it. You really are with me every second of every day, and you will be until it is time to meet you again on God's beautiful golden shore. Well my truck is broken(as well as my heart) and I don't know when I will have the money to fix it. I am trying to get the house payment modified, and if that works out, it will free up more money for taking care of things around here. If they don't lower it, then I may loose this house I have been it for 24 years, and where you gave me 11 and a half glorious years. There are still many signs that you were here. Well stay happy up there and come into my dreams as often as you can. Like the song in the background is saying, I will always love you.
Always And Forever, My Sweet Darling,
Your Dad
8/09/2016
Hi Baby,
Just a few lines to let you know how much you are missed by me and everyone that had the pleasure of knowing you. We saw Cathy a few weeks ago. Went to see Sarge the horse and to pay my respects to Roy and Dale in Apple Valley. Even though we took you out there for treatments, I still look fondly on those times because it was time spent with you. Thanks to Cathy, I had at least another 1 and 1/2 years that I'm sure I wouldn't have had otherwise. It will be hot again next week, over 100 for several days. Well my doll, that's it for now. Please remember me as I will always remember you and will never stop loving you.
Love You Forever,
Your Dad
8/30/2016
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET GIRL!!!
Even though you aren't here with me to celebrate the day you were born, I will take it upon myself to celebrate for both of us, not because you are gone, but for all the beautiful memories you bestowed upon me and all who had the privilege of knowing you. Even though you have shed your Earthly bonds, I can still feel your presence every second of every day. I have only to look around the room, the yard or in our neighborhood, the park and everywhere we roamed together, and there you are.You are never far from my thoughts, and forever living and very much alive in my heart. I will always love you and will never stop thinking of you. You will always and forever be my hero. So Rest In Peace my girl until we meet again. Please think of me and remember me every chance you have. Visit me in my dreams often, so I know you are thinking of me also. So once again: Happy Birthday Sweet girl!!!
Love You Now And forever,
Your Dad
9/10/2016
Hi Baby,
Just wanted to come by and visit with you for awhile, and to let you know I think of you every second that I am awake. I try to only remember the good times we spent together, and believe me I will forever be grateful for those special times. Only God could have arranged such a golden relationship as ours. On Tues. I will be lighting a candle for Inky. She has been gone for 9 years. How the time flies. She was our first family girl. No other dog got along with her like you. As I said before, you were always the peace keeper among all our dogs. Too bad Curly & Shaggy didn't have much time to get to know wonderful you. OK that'a all for now. Rest In Peace my beautiful girl, until we meet again.
Love You So Much,
your Dad
10/08/2016
Hello My Sweet Baby,
Well here I am on my 74th birthday, without having you with me to celebrate. Sure I have the other dogs and the rest of the family, but nothing is as it used to be when you were here. John took me out last night for food and a few beers. So far he is the only one to wish me a happy birthday. My only wish for this day(and all my days) would be you and I spending the whole day together doing whatever we want. I'm just not whole anymore without you. The days pass so slowly, but time without you has accelerated. I can't believe you have been away for 9 months already. It will be a VERY sad day indeed when the one year mark rolls around. I guess I'll just have to deal with it then. OK baby that's it for now. Have fun up there and keep those beautiful eyes peeled for the day I show up. I will never stop loving you.
Love You For Now And Forever,
Your Dad
10/23/2016
Hello My Sweet Girl,
I hope your day is going great. The weather here has cooled a lot and we may even get some rain later in the week. Two days ago you came to me in my dreams for the first time in the nearly 10 months you've been gone. The first dream showed you walking on a beach with golden sand somewhere. I regret never taking you to the beach while I had you here, but I am looking forward to strolling with you on that golden shore some day. The second dream you were bounding across the yard toward a large black and white Pit Bull sitting on the other side of the street. That is exactly what you would do if you were still here. Oh my Cupcake, you have no idea how much I miss you and still love you so. But, maybe you do. Perhaps that is why you finally showed up in my dreams to let me know you are happy and full of the vigor you once had in the past. If I were to go back just one year from today, I would find you still able to do all the things you always did. Then all of a sudden you stopped eating and that was it. If I could have got you to eat again, things might have turned out different, at least for awhile. Anyway it is what it is. No more pain or suffering for you, and waiting my turn to see you again, and we will some day. We WILL walk Gods golden shore together. Until that day run, play and be happy. You will always be my hero. Love you forever.
Your Dad
11/24/2016
Happy Thanksgiving My Sweet Baby,
Today I give thanks for a lot of things in my life, but especially for the blessed privilege of knowing and loving you for 11 1/2 beautiful fun filled years. Words are just not enough to express my love for you, or the tremendous loss I still feel to know you are gone from me, at least for now. I will be without humans today, but I still have the love of the other 6 you had to leave behind. We all miss and love you so VERY much precious girl. Hardly a second goes by that you aren't on my mind. Be good and kind to all your new friends in paradise up there. I look forward to meeting them all someday. Until then I will do my best to hold down the fort around here and stay as positive as I can without you, wonderful you!!!
Love you Always,
Your Dad
12/17/2016
Hello Sweet Girl,
Just wanted to stop by and chat for awhile. I have no way of knowing if you receive anything from my writings to you, but I know it certainly does me a world of good to keep in contact. The horrible date of your passing is coming up on the 27th, and it is certainly not something I look forward to, but I will deal with it somehow, someway. I will light a candle early in the morning in your memory, and hopefully it will last into the night. It will be very difficult to write to you on that day, but I will do my best. I never stop loving and thinking of you each and every day that passes. If only I could move the hands of time back a couple of years, believe me things would be so much different. You, my darling, would still be here beside me where you belong, not inside that cold wooden box on the shelf. But I have to take responsibility for what happened with you and live with that until my time is up. I love you baby. Have to go now. See you on the 27th.
Love Now and Always,
Your Dad
12/27/2016
Hello My Baby,
Well the day I've been dreading for so long, has finally arrived, the first year of your passing. This will be a day that will be almost as hard to get through as the day you had to leave us all behind. I lit your candle early this morning, and will keep it lit all day in your beautiful memory. As I've said many times before, words about you never say enough about the profound effect you had(and still have) on my life. Not a day ever goes by that I don't reflect on the great times we had together. I look forward to someday when we will start our new journey into eternity together. Until then, my beautiful girl, know that you are loved and thought of fondly every day of my life. Rest in peace baby, and we will see each other again some day. Talk to you real soon.
Love You My Baby,
Your Dad
12/27/16
Hi Sweet Girl,
Well as expected, today has been a difficult one for me. Your candle is still burning and it will until at least 6:00 P.M. as that was the time of your passing. Then will begin my 2nd year without you. No matter how many years pass until my time, you will always be loved and NEVER forgotten. I will stay in contact all the years of my life, this I swear to you. I'll talk to you in 2017. Until then be happy and make many friends and play, play and play some more.
Love You Now and Furever,
Your Dad
1/01/2017
Hi My Baby,
Well today begins a new year. Yet another year spent missing you, my sweet girl. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday that you were right here my side. Other times it seems so far off in another place and time. I did dream of you a few nights ago, and I thank you for the visit. You know you are welcome to come anytime. I will be waiting 24/7 for you. Well not much more to report for now. Everyone here sends their love. We all miss you so much, we will always love you and will never forget you, wonderful you. Until next time, rest in heavenly peace my sweet baby.
Love you Always,
Your Dad
1/19/2017
Hello Baby,
Just wanted to spend a few quiet moments with you, while I am here alone. If I can't be with you, I just prefer to sit in the house by myself, and fondly remember you and all the fun we had together. Those days will have to be put on hold, I guess, until the glorious day when we will walk that golden shore together. I know that God will watch over you until that time comes. In the meantime I have the other 6 to look after and they do comfort me as much as possible. But they could never take your place no matter how hard they might try. It just started raining again, and how I long to sit next to you on the sofa, drinking some coffee or a beer. Perhaps we could be in the garage with the beer along with a good cigar. A nice thing about you(and most dogs) is you don't judge people. If you like and love someone, it is just totally unconditional. Can you imagine if humans had that concept? What a wonderful life everyone would have. Anyway, thanks for listening to me babble on. Everyone here sends their love to you. Take care up there and say hi to all your new friends. I'll be talking to you again soon.
Love You Furever,
Your Dad
2/03/2017
Hi My Baby,
And so starts another lonely month without you by my side. It rained some today, and how nice it would have been to have you snuggled up beside me on the sofa. I will try soon to deal with the idiots from the mortgage company. I just don't know what I will do if I can't get this payment lowered. I need to think of the other 6 dogs in my care. I don't want them to have to go to a shelter. Anyway, how are things up there? It sure is Hell down here without you baby. I play our song each and every day, sometimes twice, and I will continue until it is time to walk that golden shore with you once again. I miss you more than i can bear, and I will never stop thinking of you. Have fun up there, and always play, play and then play some more. I'll be talking to you again real soon.
Loving You Now and Furever,
Your Dad
2/19/2017
Hi Sweet Girl,
Well we finally got hit with some serious rain on Fri. It was nice seeing the rain come down and hearing it on the roof. They key ingredient that was missing was you, of course. I remember the days when we would cuddle up on the couch on a rainy day. Just looking out the window at the birds struggling to find some wet seeds and shelter. At least that's something you never had to worry about down here, and I'm sure it's less of a worry up there. I hope somehow you have a way of knowing just how much you were, and are, so loved by everyone you left behind. There can never be a replacement for you my girl. I may bring other babies into my life someday, but none could ever bring me the love and loyalty you provided. That could never be duplicated. So I close this message to you with all the love I have left to give. All the others, Jake, Foxy, Cujo, Princess, Curly & Shaggy send all their love and many dog licks to you. Rest in Heavenly Peace my sweet girl, until we meet again.
You are Always In My Thoughts And In my Heart Forever
Love You,
Your Dad
2/28/2017
Hi My Baby,
Well here it is, the last day of Feb., and still without you, wonderful you. Spring is just ahead and I day dream of all the great moments we could be sharing together. Walks, playing fetch, visiting friends, or just cuddling and enjoying each others company. Anything involving you and I together again would just be fantastic!!! I hope somehow, that you can see how much I miss you and still love you. Until the day comes to join you, that will never change. I met a special lady online, and she has signed your guest book twice now. She lost a precious boy named Jake. I hope you have found him and are friends by now. Tell him his Mom sends her love. I know he already knows that, but let him know anyway. No more rain for awhile, but we were blessed this year to have more that usual. OK my sweet. Everyone down here sends love and good wishes. I'll write again next month. take care and don't forget to play, play, and then play some more.
Love You Now And Furever,
Your Dad
3/15/2017
Hi Sweet Girl,
Well this COULD be a beautiful pre-Spring day, except for the one thing that is missing: you, wonderful you. I don't know why, but lately it seems my missing you has intensified. Is it because you are trying to message me in some way, but it isn't coming through? If you have found my friend Monica's boy Jake, try letting him know what it is. Perhaps he can message his Mom and she will pass it on to me. Anyway it is in the mid 80's today and the rest of the week. A great day for a walk in the park, and laying out on the sweet grass with an even sweeter you. I think of you every waking hour. I know that this all sounds like I am writing to a girlfriend. But you were more to me than any girlfriend could ever be. Never angry if I come home late, just overjoyed to see me again. Just as I would be so overjoyed if you were here right now by my side. Some day baby, some day. We will then be together for all of eternity. That's all for now. I will write again when Spring is here. Until then, have much fun, and always remember how much I love you my baby.
Love You Furever,
Your Dad
3/17/2017
Hi Sweetheart,
I hope this will go through this time. I tried to send a message 2 days ago, but it just wouldn't go through. It seems I am missing you more lately than ever. When will the pain of losing you ever go away? Perhaps not until we meet again. If that is part of the master plan, then that is fine with me. Have you met up with Monica's boy Jake yet? I'm sure he is just as special as his Mom is. Well I'll sign off for now. It's St. Patrick's Day, but I have no plans except to remember our times together. I'll write in a few days, the first day of Spring. Till then play, play, and then play some more. I love you and miss you so very much.
I Will Love You Furever,
Your Dad
3/30/2017
Hello Sweet Girl,
Just been thinking about you a lot lately, not that I ever stop. I just hope all is well with everybody up there at the bridge. We are having 50+ mph winds today. Sure wish you and I could cuddle up on the sofa like we used to do. Foxy, Cujo, Jake and Princess are inside with me. Curly and Shaggy are outside, but are protected from the wind, plus they have more fur than all the rest. Summer is just about here, another season passes without you. So sad. Not much more to report down here, my sweet girl. I'll write soon and as often as I can. May God bless and keep you safe always. Love you baby.
Always Thinking Of You,
Your Dad
4/16/2017
Hello My Sweet Baby,
Just wanting to wish you a Happy Easter!!! It sure is lonely here today and every day without you. But especially today as everyone has plans to go somewhere. Sure I will have all 6 dogs to look after and keep company with. But it will never be the same as when you and I had our times together. I play our song and kiss your paw print every day. That may sound absurd to some, but i don't really care. i will continue that tradition until i can't stand any longer. You were everything to me, and still are. I hope all is well up there and that you are making lots of new friends that I will get to meet some day. Until then, stay happy and play, play, and then play some more. Until next time, RIP my sweet. I will try to post another pic of you, Jake and Princess from Christmas of 2014, when you were still healthy and full of vigor. Rest now my sweet girl.
Love You Now And Furever,
Your Dad
5/11/2017
Hi My Sweet Girl,
Well the start of one more lonely month without you here. Today marks the 5 year anniversary of Bingo's passing. I lit a candle this morning in his honor. Gone but NEVER forgotten. Our weather has been mild except for the always present wind. It sure would be a great day for a walk in the park with you, my baby. I sure do miss those times we shared together. A walk in the park, playing fetch or just cuddling on the sofa and watching the birds. Nothing will ever take the place of you, wonderful you. until next time, rest in peace my sweet girl.
Love you Always and Furever,
Your Dad
6/02/2017
Hi My Baby,
Well it's the beginning of another long month without you, wonderful you. Soon we will be in for a long hot Summer. How I long for those early morning walks we used to take before the heat overtook everything. Then we just came back home and spent the day in the garage, or if it was too hot in the house with the AC turned on. I don't even know if you are able to look down to Earth, but if you can, then you must see how much I still love you and miss you each and every day of my life. You are still so special to me. I like to go through my days as if you are still right here beside me. Sometimes I feel you ARE still here beside me. Can it be so? I think I will start changing the seasons here on your memorial. That might make it seem like you never had to leave me behind, I don't know, but it's worth a try. Anything to help ease the pain of your departure. I will never stop loving you or forget you. R.I.P. my sweet girl. I'll be talking to you again soon.
Love Always,
Your Dad
6/20/2017

Hi Sweet Girl,
Well Father's Day has come and gone. So sad you weren't here to cheer me up. I know there are 6 more beings to care for, but it just can't be the same with you gone. It will be 108 today, and you know what that means. Indoor time for all most of the day. I just wish so much that you were still here so we could just be lazy inside all day with the cooler blasting. I know where you are now it's probably 72 degrees all the time. OK sweet baby of mine, time to sign off for now. Put in a good word with God for me, so I can see both of you some day. Everyone down here sends their love to you. I'll write again soon, I promise.
Love You Now And Furever,
Your Dad
7/07/2017
Hello My Baby,
Just sitting here thinking of you as usual. It's been a little over a year and a half since you had to leave me. How I miss you and long for our together days, is not even describable. The tears still come occasionally, but I try to suppress them most of the time. I know you wouldn't want me to feel bad that you are missing in my life(even though I do). It is 106 here today, and I'm sure you are enjoying a perfect 72 up there in the meadows. Have you met up with Monica's sweet boy Jake yet? Tell him again that his Mom misses him very much, and he should visit in her dreams as often as he can. Well that's all for now my sweet girl. Rest in glorious peace until we meet again. I'll love you always and will never forget about you for the rest of my life.
Love You now And Furever,
Your Dad
7/31/2017
Hello My Girl,
Well as we head into August, the heat is still here. It will hit 106 today with above average humidity, so the cooler won't work as well as it should. I know if you were still by my side, I wouldn't mind the heat as much. We were always able to go to the park and find a shady spot if we needed to. I miss those days together more than words could ever say. I still love you and miss you so very much, and I will never stop, even when my turn comes. Hopefully then we will be united once again past the Rainbow Bridge. I just know for sure we were meant to have many more years together here on Earth, and we got cheated. So just maybe God will let us go on for all eternity when that time comes. I hope and prey that He will. Until then, my sweet baby, you play and have fun with all the new friends you have made. Love you and miss you always. R.I.P. my baby until we meet again on that golden shore.
Love Always And Furever,
Your Dad
08/14/2017
Hello My sweet Baby,
I don't know what's happening, but lately I have been missing you so much, and it's bothering me more than usual. Are you trying to send me a message? The tears have been flowing more than usual and today I decided to place your name and sweet picture on the Monday night candlelight vigil. I've only done this once before and I'm not even sure I will attend, as it is quite painful to hear someone I don't know speak your name. I'll do my best to be there, but no promises. You and God are the only ones that know or care what I am going through without you by my side. I shouldn't say that, as there is one special person, Jake's mom, Monica, that has been going through the same pain. I don't know if she has taken part in the vigil or not, but I will try to find out. In the meantime if you have found Jake up there, please do your best to comfort him and let him know just how much his mom still loves him and cares about him. well it's less than an hour before the vigil, so I'll sign off for now. i'll let you know soon how it went. love you always and miss you more than words could ever say. RIP my baby girl. I think I will send Jake a note while I am here.
Love you Furever,
Your Dad
8/30/2017
Happy Birthday My Sweet Girl,
Well today you would turn lucky 13. For reasons as yet unknown, it just wasn't meant to be. I guess God was looking for another Angel. I grieve for you baby and deeply regret we have had to spend nearly 2 years apart. 2 years lost forever. Time we could have done so many more things together. I only hope that wherever you are right now, you are happy and pain free, playing everyday with all your newfound friends. Someday I hope to meet them all, especially a very special boy named Jake. His Mom stopped by to wish you a happy birthday, and I consider that very special, considering no one around here ever says anything about you unless I mention you first. Very sad, but such is life. Especially my life without you. Well your candle is lit and will stay lit until at least sunset. Your light will forever remain in my heart, and will forever warm my soul. I love you baby and that will never end. You are and always will be my special girl. Until we meet again, R.I.P. my special Angel.
Love You Always And Furever,
You Dad
09/12/2017
Good morning My Little Angel,
This morning I lit a candle in memory of Inky. She has been gone for 10 long years. None of our current fur babys had the chance to know her. She has now been gone longer than she was with us. I remember the day you managed to sneak in the back yard with her. I thought you were dead, but no not you. As I have said before, you were always the peacemaker among all our dogs. You managed to get along with everyone that came before and after you, even with Inky, the "junkyard dog" as we used to call her. I sure do miss her and I hope you have found her up there in Heaven. Next month I will light a candle for Princess the Pit Bull, another friend of yours and mine that left us way too soon. You were playing with her the day she dropped at my feet and sadly passed on. I am sure you have found her up there by now. If you see them tell them they are still very much loved and will never be forgotten. I love all you guys and miss you so very much. Take care and R.I.P. my baby girl. I'll write you again soon.
Love You Always And Furever,
Your Dad
09/22/2017
Hi Sweet Girl,
Today is the first day of Fall. The start of another lonely season without you by my side. I will change your background to the Fall colors today. I am also playing a different song for you each and every day. It is Years by Barbara Mandrell. It makes more sense as it will soon be years since you went away. It is much cooler here. If only you were still here, we could do our walks with more comfort this time of year. Well, baby, not too much more to report this time. I send you my love and good wishes always.
Love Always And Furever,
Your Dad
10/30/2017
Hello My Sweet Baby,
Well today the candle is lit for sweet Princess the pit bull. She left us 9 years ago today. You lost one of your best friends that sad day. I can still see both of you playing rough house and chasing each other all over creation. The day she went away is the day you became my girl. I never intended to steal you away from Bette, but when you saw me crying, you came to my side and never left me. For that I will always be in your debt. Bette has Jake now, and he is great to her as you always were to me. It's coming up 2 years since you said goodbye. That's why i can never really have a happy Christmas because 2 days later you were gone. At least I know you have no more pain or suffering. I also know that we will meet again some day. Might be awhile or could be sooner, we never know. Well baby, that's all for now. i know you have Inky, Bingo and Princess up there with you. Perhaps you have even met Danny Boy, the Collie I had as a boy. Anyway don't give up on me. My love is still very strong for all of you, and I miss having all of you here. To be continued. I love you more than words could ever say. Talk at you soon
Love Furever,
Your Dad
11/23/2017
Hello Baby,
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! I wish you were here to celebrate with me. Thanks for all the beautiful memories you gave to me.
Love Always,
Your Dad
12/12/2017
Hi Sweet Girl,
Just thinking about you as always. Christmas coming up, and it's hard to be in a festive mood with you gone. The dreaded 2 year mark coming up doesn't help either. On that morning rest assured a candle will be lit and burning for you throughout the day. I will be going through Hell all day, but I will just try to focus on all the beautiful times we shared, not on the negative. So my baby, I'll be back on that dreaded day and we'll talk more then. Just remember how much I still love and miss you every day of my life. Until we meet again.
Now And Furever,
Your Dad
12/24/2017
Hi My Baby Girl,
Just wanted to stop by to say Merry Christmas!!! Sure wish you could be here to celebrate with us. I'll be back on the dreaded 27th to talk some more.
Love Furever,
Your Dad
12/27/2017
Hello Baby Girl,
Well here it is, the dreaded 27th of Dec., marking 2 lonely years without you. Sometimes it seems like only yesterday that you were here chasing your ball, taking our walks together, and then sometimes it seems like an eternity has passed since you left. It's too hard to make sense of it all, so I tend to just dwell on all the good memories we made together.Just too many to even list here, but forever etched into my soul. Like your song says, I Will Always Love You, and that is one thing I know for sure. So just be patient and wait for me, for one day, when you least expect it, I will step out of the dark and into the light, never to be separated from you again. Until then, my sweet, enjoy each and every day in paradise. I can't wait to see your beautiful face again.
Love You Always And Furever,
Your Dad
1/01/2018
Hi My Baby,
Just wanted to say Happy New Year!!! Wish you were still here. That would make it the best New Year of all for me. I'll write more later. Love you.
Love Always,
Your Dad
1/23/2018
Hi Sweet Girl,
Nobody in the house today except me and the other dogs. It is always lonely here without your magnificent presence, but even more so when everyone human is gone. Bette will be house sitting for about 10 days. John will be working the rest of the week. I sure wish our days together never had to end, but that is the way things go. Life is what it is. I just wish whatever life I have left included you in the physical sense. You still live on in my heart and very soul, and will until we meet on that beautiful shore someday. I will come back to talk with you soon. Until then I pray you are well and enjoying things in your new realm. May God love and keep you as much as I do. Till next time,
Love Always,
Your Dad
2/06/2018
Hi My Sweet,
Missing you so much and feeling lonely without you here. Just thought I'd spend a few minutes right here with you. I know that will improve my mood for sure, as it did when you were here in the flesh. It's just so sad I can't put my arms around you any longer, that we might comfort each other. It will be one glorious reunion when we are once again reunited. Now mind you, I am not trying to speed up my demise, but being with you once again is something I will always have to look forward to. I am not afraid to leave the Earth, just like you were never afraid of leaving either. Just think of the good times we had down here. It's nothing compared to the times we will have in eternity. I just know God has many good things planned for us. So we just have to be patient, my baby, until that day arrives. I'll say goodbye for now. I will be back to spend more time with you soon. Until then R.I.P my sweet girl. i love you always and am always thinking about you, and will NEVER forget wonderful you!!!
Thanks For All The Great Memories,
Your Dad
2/22/2018
Hello Beautiful Girl,
Another lonely day to suffer through without you here to give me comfort. On top of everything, the damn water heater went out 3 days ago. It's terrible this time of year to take an ice cold shower, but what else can I do? I just plain and simple don't have the money right now to fix it. That's why I know if you were still by my side, all would be fine. I'll make it through anyway, but having you here by my side would certainly make it all better. I hope you have made many new friends by now, including Jake and Jasmine. If you see them, tell them I said hello. Also tell them they are needed in their Mom's dreams, as she misses them so much. Sorry to complain about my life. Even when you were so sick, I never heard so much of a whimper out of you, and even at the end of our time, you never stopped wagging your tail. God bless and keep you, my baby, until we meet up again. Be back soon to talk with you again.
Love Furever,
Your Dad
3/13/2018
Hello Sweet Girl,
Another month without you, half over already. Just sitting around missing you, so I thought I'd drop a line your way. Soon it will be time to change your background to Spring. How I long for the days we spent together seeing the first leaves and flowers come to life. It just isn't the same with the other dogs. Sure I love all of them VERY much, but you were just so special to me. Never gonna be another like you!!! I know it is selfish on my part to miss you so much, but I know in my heart that you are in a better place now, free of all pain and discomfort, and young again. I read somewhere that humans take a lifetime to get everything right. But dogs are born with everything right already, and that's why you are with us for such a short time. Makes perfect sense to me. Anyway, I'll be back soon to talk again. In the meantime, have fun with all your new friends. And come visit me in my dreams sometime. That would be fantastic!!!
Love You Furever And Furever,
Your Dad
3/20/2018
Hi Baby,
Happy Spring!!! The start of another season without wonderful you. I don't know how, but somehow I manage to carry on without you. I guess it's the responsibility I have to the others you left behind. Now Foxy has a bad tooth that will have to be taken care of soon. I think he will get fixed at the same time. I just won't tell him in advance. Cujo will be next on the list. They all send love and kisses to you on this first day of Spring. I hope you can see that your background at the Bridge has shed the bonds of cold Wintertime to Springtime. It would be so wonderful to have you here to take a walk in the park, where the trees and flowers will be blooming soon. We will have rain for the next three days. You never minded being outside during the rain, but not the rest of your siblings. Bette's Jake is the only one that doesn't have to be shoved out in the wetness. That's all for now my girl. I'll be back again soon. Sending all my love and kisses to you.
Love Always,
Your Dad
4/06/2018
Hello My Girl,
Here it is April already. Spring has sprung!!! Trees are greening up, flowers are starting to bloom at parks and in our neighborhood. As is said: Life Springs Eternal. Not sure who said it, but it sure hits home. The big thing that's missing in Springtime for me is, of course, you. No more walks in the neighborhood or parks, no more playing fetch with a ball, or just generally enjoying each other's company. Any way I cut it, there's a big part of my heart that is missing. Pain that just will not go away. It seems like you are never off my mind 24/7. I finally had a visit from you in my dreams last night. Thank you so much my beautiful girl. I wish it weren't a dream, but when it comes to you, I'll take what you and God will give to me. It is supposed to rain tomorrow. I'll believe that when I feel it falling on my head. How is it up there at the bridge? Is it always sunny or is there rain and clouds too? Come back to my dreams soon and tell me all about it. I changed your daily song to "Years". It just makes more sense to me, and I hope you don't mind. Well that's all for now. i'll come back soon I promise. Love you baby.
Love Now And Furever,
Your Dad
4/23/2018
Hello Sweet Girl,
Well I guess this will be my last message, as the world will end now at any moment(Ha Ha). But even if that were to come to pass, it wouldn't prevent my loving you. On the contrary it would mean we would be together again, this time never to be separated again. What a wonderful thought!!! It's getting warmer down here. I'm not quite ready for 100 degree plus weather yet, but it's coming soon. Send down some heavenly rain if you can, we need it. Well not much more to report for now. I'll be back soon, I promise(if we are still here past today). Take care up there my sweet.
Love Now And Furever,
Your Dad
5/10/2018
Hi Baby,
Just wanted to stop by and see how things are in paradise today. Well your Uncle John really got into hot water now. He got caught drinking again, and this time they gave him 30 days. He is my Son and I love him dearly, but I fear if he doesn't get help soon, there is no hope left. He IS an alcoholic, but won't admit it. Now why am I telling you all this? I really don't know. While I loved you with all I have(and still do), John never really made the connection with you. His loss really. Well I guess I'm just trying to get it off my chest and no one will listen to my problems better than you will. Thanks for that. I'll try to be more positive next visit. Till then rest in peace my sweet girl. I miss you terribly!!!
Love You Always,
Your Dad
5/30/2018
Hello My Baby,
I just had to stop by on the REAL Memorial Day to let you know you are remembered and thought of 24/7/365. You are and always will be in my heart and soul for all of my remaining days. R.I.P my sweet girl until we meet up once more.
Love You Furever And Always,
Your Dad
6/21/2018
Hi My Sweet Girl,
Just stopping by to wish you a happy Summer Solstice. I also want to remind you how much you are missed. I guess the pain never goes away completely, nor do I want it to. I tend to keep your passing in the background, while focusing on the many miles of life's highway we shared together. You will be remembered always, and when it is my time to leave Earth's bonds, then we will always be together once more. A win win thing for me. what say you? I still love you to pieces my baby. Talk to you again soon.
Love You Furever,
Your Dad
7/04/2018
Hi Baby,
Happy Fourth of July!!! Wish you were here to enjoy all the noise that will come later today. All the dogs here now are wimps when it comes to the fireworks. They never bothered you in the least. Another reason I miss you so much, your bravery. Even that last night, you never once complained, not even a whimper. I will always love and admire the way you were and one special day we WILL meet again. Until then think of me often as I think of you throughout the day. Love you my girl, now and always.
Love Furever,
Your Dad
8/18/2018
Hi Sweet Girl,
I'm sorry I haven't visited in awhile. Don't know what's wrong with me lately. You are still very much in my thoughts every day. Here it is another month without you, and a hot month also. Over 100 nearly every day. I bet it's much more pleasant up there at the bridge. Down here I am past ready for Fall to arrive. I really miss you and wish we were still together doing all the fun things we used to do. Soon enough we will be together for the rest of time. I just couldn't go on one more day if I didn't believe that. For now I will trudge on without you, my best friend. So please be patient my girl, and soon I will step out of the darkness and into the light with beautiful you. I love you now and always.
Love Furever,
Your Dad
8/30/2018
Happy 14th Birthday My Sweet Girl!!!
I just can't help thinking how great it would be to have you here to celebrate, instead of just writing you a note. Unfortunately that's all I can do for now. Some day in the future we will meet up once again, and we will be able to make up all the lost kisses and hugs we have been missing out on since you left. I know somewhere in this universe of ours, there is somebody that knows how to put you back together again. I just haven't been able to find them yet. So until we meet again(one way or the other), I'll never stop loving you nor will I ever forget your unconditional love for me. I can't thank you enough for lifting me up all those years. So enjoy your time in paradise. I'll see you again bye and bye. Love you always.
Love Furever,
Your Dad
10/08/2018
Hello Sweet Girl,
Well today is my birthday. It sure would be much happier if only you could be here to help me celebrate. Otherwise it's just like any other day without you, LONELY!!! I miss you so much, you have no idea. At least the weather has cooled, but no sign of rain yet. I remember you didn't care much for being in the rain, but you went anyway, just to please me. I believe you spent most all of your life pleasing me. I only wish I could have been better for you. I did the best I could baby. So I hope you are smiling down on me today, and remembering all the good times we shared.