I miss you more than words can say...I have cried every day since you left, and I can still feel your presence and smell your sweet scent. I leave your light on in case you can visit me...if I ever forget, please visit anyway. I am getting older too.... You brought so much love joy to me and to Christian. And others! We went through a lot together, didn't we? I will receive your ashes and little claw prints soon. I will wear them around my neck and proudly display them in our home. I had a vision of you in church, coming right up to me from among other bearded dragons in Heaven, as if to recognize me. I know the Lord is good and will take care of your little spirit, which was so full of love and joy. I am sorry if I failed in any way to save you or care for you perfectly, but I know I did my best and it was always my joy to do it. I don't have any regrets, only that you left too soon, and that I didn't insist that you ate those veggies! Sweet kisses on your little face and I will miss yours on my chin, dear heart. See you in Heaven someday......Love Mommy

P.S. No one will ever replace you. If I ever welcome another dragon, it will only be to ease my pain of losing you, and to rescue one from harm. Don't stop visiting if you can. There is only one "Feller Fell" for my heart....

9/10/17 It is 17 days since you passed now...I still cry every day. I have set up a memorial in your tank. I leave your light on so you can visit. I bring your ashes with me around the house! I miss holding you in my hand and your little hands folded around my fingers. I miss your sweet, handsome smile, your bright striped eyes, your cuddles.....no one will ever take your place Gandalf. Ever.....Much Love to you. Visit in spirit or dreams, my Feller Fell. Love, Mommy

9/23/2017 Hello my Feller Fell!!!! I hope you are soaring the skies with Jesus...and visiting me still. If you have, you will see that Mommy adopted a friend for you. I have by no means "gotten over" your, I never will! I want you to know that I have cried every single day since you left. It was so sad to look at your empty terrarium, so we adopted Frodo! We named him Frodo because Gandalf was the wise man in Lord of the Rings who watched over Frodo, the boy! Do you like it? We wanted you to be his guardian! Will you help me take care of him, Gandalf? I need to know that you are near. I still carry your ashes around and cry without you, my sweet boy. Frodo will never take your place, just help me to go on loving in this life. I hope you like him and make friends with him. You will always be my most special boy....I love you so very much and forever and ever. Please stay close if you can. George and Christian miss you too. Life is short, and we will be together again with our wonderful Lord and Savior Jesus! Until then, lots of chin kisses and cuddles I'm sending you. I so miss our cuddles and kisses! All my love, Mommy

Hello my Feller Fell!!! How is my most special boy???? Well, I have some funny news for you my love...Frodo (we are almost positive) is a GIRL!!!! At first I was so disappointed but then I realized that no boy could have held a candle to you....so I believe I have a beautiful "girlfriend" for you! Ha Ha! We are calling her Galadriel from Lord of the Rings, still to honor you baby boy:) It is a mouthful so we call her "Gillie.) She is finicky and sweet, like your Mommy. Oh my goodness Feller, I don't know how I will get through the holidays without you. I don't mean to sound sad, but I still cry and miss you so much. I probably always will until I see you again. Please visit if you understand and can....I thought I smelled you the other day. It was nice. I so wish I could hold you and kiss your little sweet face (and put that lipstick on your chin...!) You were always so tolerant of me. Your absence is felt every day, but your memory is nothing but sweet. So sorry you suffered in the end, but surely the Lord is caring for you now and your sweet spirit is soaring and joyful. Life is short really, so until we meet again, know how much you are loved and missed. I love you my boy.Dragon kisses and hugs and morning blueberry prayers and cuddles! Love, Mommy

Hello my Feller Fell!!!! I know I don't get on here very often....but know that I think about you every day...look at (and even kiss)your photos and urn and locket with your ashes that I wear all the time:D I just want to say Merry Christmas my boy. You are loved and missed so very much. I still cry, yes, but know that the Lord will bring us together again somehow, some way. He is faithful and loves all His creation. I so wished you could have stayed longer....I am enjoying the usual activities, you know my life is not super eventful. Bonnie, Clyde and Gillie send their love. They miss you too and Gillie looks forward to meeting you someday. She is so different from you so no chance she could ever take your place. She likes veggies, doesn't like dubias...is a girl and is smaller...and a bit timid. I wish you could show her the ropes, but maybe you are in spirit. Christian and George of course miss you too. But I know I miss you the most....my sweet boy. You will always have a special place in my heart, and I will always love you. Hugs and Kisses on your sweet face ,little love...and again Merry Christmas and a Happy New year to you!!!

Happy New Year Feller Fell!!!! I'm glad to put a sad year behind us....but you are still in the forefront of my heart and mind always.....I love you my sweet boy! Hope you are flying with the angels and playing with lots of good friends. See you someday love! Hugs and kisses! Know that Christian loves you and misses you so very much too...you always have a big place in his heart! George misses and you and sends his love. Bonnie, Clyde and Gillie are hanging in there. Gillie is wonderful but doesn't take your place as there was only one you! ....I love you dear heart... Mommy

Hello my Feller Fell!!!! Sorry I haven't written in so long....but know that I have thought about you a lot....and I always will even if I'm too lazy or forgetful to write. And know that you are really the ONLY ONE I write too....hee hee! I hope you are happy in Heaven my sweet boy. I sure do miss you!!!! Everyone here is fine....Gillie is adjusting and she is so beautiful....I know you will love her someday! Just not more than you love me, ok? Just kidding. I put some carnations on your page...I love how fresh they smell. Visit me in spirit if you can, my dear friend. If only I could hold and kiss your sweet face...,sigh. Until we meet again. Jesus will make a way. I know He loves you too. Again, I love and miss you Gandalfini...you are forever my Feller, as your little urn says, which sits next to the warm salt lamp on my bed. Hugs and Kisses!!! Mom
P.S. I never knew your birthday, but I think it was in Spring, so I included a birthday cake for you....they don't have any juicy bugs or blueberries! Happy 6th birthday!!!! I'm hoping you were actually older, but we will guess for now. I love you!

August 9, 2018 - Hello my Feller Fell!!!! Well I hope you are happy and enjoying life. It is summertime and approaching a year since you left. I wish I could say I was doing wonderful, and don't worry I am ok...still we all still miss you so much. I met a lady who just say goodbye to her female dragon and when she sent me the photos I cried my heart out tonight. I know I will always miss you, and I look forward to seeing you again someday. I know Christian does too. Bonnie and Clyde, George and Gillie say hello as well... I bought myself a guitar, and I plan on writing you a song someday if I ever learn How to play. I love
you my sweet Gandalfini....hugs and kisses with snuggles....😘😘😘Mommy

August 24, 2018- Dear sweet Feller Fell,
In an hour and a half it will actually be our one year anniversary without you. I think if you very often, and I know I will especially tomorrow. As you know it is Christian's 21st Birthday, and although we will celebrate, we will also grieve. So I will write this a bit early😢.We miss you so much sweet boy. I pray you are free and happy with the Lord. I so wish I could hold you and kiss you! I will do a tribute on Facebook where so many other people with beardies have already loved and admired you! You still bring joy to many hearts Feller even though you are gone... but we will be together again someday! God is good and love never fails or dies!
Be at peace and know how much you are loved!
❤️Mommy, Christian, George, Bonnie, Clyde and Gillie
12/25/2018
Merry Christmas Feller Fell! I hope you didn't think we forgot about you! I've been very busy but I did a Christmas tribute to you on Bearded Dragon Community a few days ago and lots of people loved it....put up a cute photo of you and me as well...we had a good but emotional Christmas, it was a challenging year, as always it seems...and of course we all love and miss you so much. I still wear your urn necklace and keep your photos up...Gille is doing well and I know you would like her a lot. I learned a lot from you Feller and I try to do better with her. You helped me in so many ways. I hope you are flying high with Jesus and I look forward to seeing you someday my sweet boy. Christian and George say hello and miss you too! Jesus is faithful and I know we will all be together someday. He is a loving God. I love you my sweet friend. I think of you often and we really do miss having your with us....you are so special, a real gift from the Lord. Hugs and kisses! Mommy, Christian, George, Bonnie, Clyde and Gillie:)
2/10/2019 Hello Feller Fell!!!! I'm wishing you Happy Valentines Day early (You know I really don't like that holiday...but you are one of my sweetest loves and I miss you so I'm here! Hope you are well. I'm sitting here with Charlie, remember him? He really likes you a lot. Christian is doing well and is in school, he loves and misses you too. He's going to be a paramedic or fire fighter! So keep him in your happy thoughts. Gillie, Bonnie and Clyde are well and love you too! Talk with you soon my boy, I love you so much, you are always in my thoughts and heart!!!!! I wear your urn necklace regularly....your photos are still everywhere. Feel free to visit me in spirit if you can! That would be wonderful. Okay, got to go....I love you, Mommy
9/1/2019
Feller Fell!!!!!! I know it has been too long, but trust me, I think about you all the time, just been lazy to write. Not much going on here, just trying to be a good wife, mom and beardie and cat mom. I learn new things about you regularly as I have joined a Facebook group for bearded dragon Mommies. I wish I had had that support when you were here, I would have done a better job with you. Still, you owned my heart, little you! I hope you always know that. I love my family and animal babies (Everyone is fine here!) but life seems to always have its challenges, and I look forward to being at home with the Lord someday with all of us together. I hope you are enjoying life somehow, some way util then. Our Lord is merciful and full of love, so I don't doubt it. He knows best and wants best. Mom loves you Gandalfi, your photos still are decorating the house, and I tell people how much you are missed. It broke my heart to say goodbye, but I am ok. Talk to you soon cutie! Love from Mommy, Christian, George, Bonnie, Clyde and Miss "McGills!" Isn't that cute? Wait till you meet HER! You'll fall in love.....ha ha. Of course there is only one Gandalf! Mom is so silly. Talk to you soon my Feller.....I love you always!
P.S. Pretty sure you had a birthday, so Happy Belated Birthday!!!!! Goodness, Mommy is getting old....guess you are 7??? Left too soon for us, Feller! I love you!!!
12/25/2019
FELLER FELL!!!!!! How is my sweet boy??? It's been a while I know but you would be so proud of Mommy, I'm manager of our community, finally!!!! Haven't written for a while, just know that I love you and miss you just as much as the day you went back to Jesus....I still have your photos and urn up, and always will:). So everybody here says Merry Christmas, 2019!!!! I hope you are busy frolicking or flying(!) wherever your little spirit is....but you were made by Jesus, so I trust He is taking care of my friend......Gillie is good, so much like a female you, but her own little curious self, you would like her. I miss you though, my boy, I so wish I could have a morning to read my bible with you sitting next to me on your heating pad! I still share your photos with people, and even on the Facebook dragon community where people still admire you even though you are in a better place. I look forward to the Lord returing, life is hard....but we will all see each other again, I believe it. Thanks for being my Feller, for your sweet, patient nature that made our lives better when you were here. You still do, with sweet memories.....Let's have a great New year, I know you will, if you can do a "fly by," please do!!!! You will always have a place in my heart, and of course in Christian's and George's, and anyone who got to meet you..... I'm giving you a Christmas tree for today, if I forget to take it down, well then enjoy, Mommy is pretty absent minded......but I carry you in my heart every day, whether I write on this silly site or not. It comforts me, though. And keeps the important things like love and family and friends in their proper perspective.......so until next time, Lord willing! I love you Gandalfi......your friend and human Mommy...so glad we had you!
8/1/2020
Hi Feller Fell! We haven't forgotten you but this is been a very difficult year. I don't even want to talk about the pandemic....we are ok though! I still think of you my sweet boy! I wonder if you have seen Charlie? Remember him!? He liked you Feller...he left us sadly but hopefully we will all see each other again... Bonnie and Clyde are OK and so is George and Christian of course you wanna know that! I wish I had more to say, just know that you are thought of all the time and we still have photos of you all over the place. I love you as much as ever! And I miss you so much, Hugs and kisses little love.. And happy belated birthday!...you would have been 8?! Goodness, it's been three years and you should still be here...sniff....Love, Mom🥰
PS. Gillie is well also. She is a sweetheart and I love her very much. I know you will too! Just know that she doesn't replace you, or take away any love I have for you! I have plenty of love for you all, and you are all special!!!! ❤️
2/11/21
Feller Fell!!!! 2020 was a terrible year with the pandemic so I'm sorry I can't believe I didn't write anything over the holidays, but I wasn't feeling that well. I'm doing OK though. George is doing OK and so is Christian and the rest of the family. We are hanging in there. Bonnie, Clyde, and Gillie Are fine. Bonnie is getting a little older but she's doing OK. We miss you all the time and talk about you all the time. I love you so much and always plan on seeing you in heaven someday my sweet little boy!!!! Love mommy, George, and Christian ❤️❤️❤️
Feller Fell!!!
Tomorrow is the four year anniversary when you passed on. I will make this brief but I just want you to know that I still think of you all the time. I'm cuddling with Gillie right now and she looks forward to meeting you someday, hopefully not too soon. Just know that no one has replaced you, I have plenty of love in my heart for everyone...and there is only one you. Pictures of you come up on my Facebook during this time of year that are painful. But only because it is when you were not well. I know that is not the case now because you are with Jesus. I know we will be reunited someday because the Lord loves all of his creation and you were very special. I do still miss you terribly and cry occasionally but I am OK. I love you my feller!!! Visit in spirit if you can. Love Mommy, George, Christian, Bonnie, Clyde and Gillie!💋🌷🌻❤️

Hello my Feller!!!
I can't believe it's been almost a year since I wrote to you. I certainly haven't forgotten you and think of you all the time. I guess I just get busy sometimes and forget about writing. But that doesn't mean you're not in my heart. I still wear your ashes and think about you regularly and look at your photos. I tell the sweet testimony of when I can smell your sweet sent after your past and Christian also did. That was a little miracle that told me that you were in good hands with the Lord. Someday we will all be together again. I hope you are flying high and your sweet spirit is happy. Jesus is so good to us, I believe we will be reunited with all of our friends someday whether human or not! It will soon be Christian's birthday and the five year anniversary of the day you went home. If I don't come on that day to write, know that I will be thinking of you and that your sweet memory never diminishes in my heart, neither does my love for you my sweet boy! I'm going to bed so sweet dreams for now. I love you, Mom❤️

9/26/23
Feller Fell!!!! I can't believe it has been so long since I've written, but I hope you know that I think about you all the time still. I am still in the same home and everyone is OK. I wear your little urn necklace often still. I realized today when I went through the changes to make on your site that I never really did celebrate your birthday and I'm sorry about that. I think it is because we didn't actually know your birthday. But I will try to remember to go put balloons there for you anyway. Sometimes I feel silly writing to you here, but I know how good God is, and I believe that somehow we will be together with all of our loved ones someday to include our friends that were animals. and we will have much better understanding of each other, and hopefully be able to communicate what we have always known in our hearts. You were very special to me and I believe the Lord is taking care of you. I've taken up ballet if you can believe it after about 35 years , it is very difficult but it is good and I'm trying to stay in shape. Christian is alright and decided to take on a singing career. The rest of us are well. I know George misses you and because of you he has been able to extend love to Gillie. You sure taught us a lot and I wish I had known more about you, so I could've been a better Mom. You didn't live long enough my little love. I hope I can make it up to you someday I try to do better with Gillie and she is doing pretty well and I owe that to you. there is so much more information now about bearded dragons and believe me I make her eat her veggies, unlike someone ha ha . Anyway, nothing more too special to say except I love you. I'm sorry I don't write more. Sometimes I do forget about this site but I never, ever forget about you...So sweet dreams my Feller. Love always...Mom❤️😘

Gandalfini! If it is been a year since I've written off, and I am so sorry. I'm pretty sure this is not updated but if it is, I guess I'm just getting older. I share your story and your life with so many people I want you to know. We never forget about you, Gandalfi my Feller! George, Christian, Bonnie, Clyde and Gillie are all doing fine. I don't know how long she will be with us but I know you will make room for her and she joins you someday. All of them.... God is good. We still have your "college photo" haha. Not much new to say just looking forward to the fall.... I wish you were still here, mommy loves you so much. I know I will see you again someday. PS, feel free to visit in spirit. That was amazing when Christian and I could smell you. But I know you are home. Kisses and love my boy! ❤️❤️❤️❤️MARANATHA