Dear Huckleberry Finn... "Huckie"...my little baby....|
These past few days have been so sad for me. I cry and cry and cry because i miss you so much. I miss your little smile, your beautiful green eyes, feeding you, hanging on the couch and balcony and seeing you each day. I am so broken hearted your not with me anymore and your kind sweet gentle soul has gone to heaven. I want you to know that I tried everything to help you and seeing you struggling each day was so hard for me. I am glad we spent our summer nights together and I loved building you a garden each year so you could eat it.. I know last Sunday was so hard for you and Monday when i came home to see you was just so tough. Monday night i couldn't sleep and i kept seeing if you felt better but it was only getting worse. and then when i layed next to you and tried to hold you it was so hard for you to breathe. On tuesday when the sun came up I knew it was time. The river of tears just doesn't stop and my heart and head are just so heavy. The sun was out, you were so exhausted and i walked in to get you and you looked at me like where are we going... I carried you down the stairs to the car saying the lord is my shepherd I shall not want. We drove to the vet and you were so quiet and confused... when we got to the vet you didn't hiss or meow and i couldn't stop crying.. it was so hard for me to let you go and right before they took you in you hissed and meowed loudly... I knew you were still trying to fight but then they took you and gave you a shot and when you came back you were all loopy and trying to breathe and your big green eyes were just looking at me. I told you how much i loved you and that you need to come back in the form of another kitty when your ready. Then i left the room and prayed and in a few seconds you were gone.. I went back in and saw you and you looked so calm like you haven't in months. you were just soft and still and quiet and i was so sad... We said our goodbyes and I left and came home and have not stopped crying. I feel empty without you, lost and confused... I look back through all the photos and videos of you and WOW you were so pretty and fun to be my best friend. I wish we you could of stayed because i just liked being your mommy and taking care of you. We shared so many wonderful moments that i will keep in my heart for as long as i live..from cold winter nights to thunder storms and hot summer moonlit nights.
Huckie god bless you and thank you for everything and every moment you gave me. I love you with all my heart and soul and you are truly one of a kind. Sleep tight hugs and kisses forever...i love my little baby...