Our handsome sassy and best of all good boys,how do I even start?|
First of all let me say that I would do anything to see you again,run my hand through your fur,look into your angel eyes,hear the sound of your claws on our old floor tiles (I swear I can hear them still).
You lived by your rules and left us on your own terms, you were supposed to leave us sooner, we were sure that you were gone already but somehow you miraculously pulled through after I gave you that mouth to muzzle in order to give us another glorious morning by your side and we are forever grateful for that.During your last walk you decided to sunbath a little longer then usual and when I tried to convince you to come home you refused as if you were saying "Just give me a few more minutes dad,I don't think I'm coming from the vet".Setting you free was the second hardest thing we had to do,second only to watching you struggle for every breath, especially during your last few days. Only after we left the vet with you mom realized that you left on the same exact date and in the same exact place that you entered her life 13 years ago,just a week after her birthday, I guess you planned it that way.
We miss you beyond what words could tell,everything about you.
We try to collect every single item that belonged to you,your old leash and collar now rest on the mantle,so are pieces of your fur that are still scattered around the house,your "rainy day" towel,framed pictures,your bed is still beside ours...and the backseat of the car where you took your last ride will never be cleaned because it carries so much of your fur and smell,oh how we wish we could smell you.
We love you.
Sweet baby Jagger, its your mommy writing you (dad's right here next to me).
Hello my precious boy,I can't believe that 2 weeks have passed since you abandoned your physical form and left us for the meadows at the rainbow bridge, I'm pretty sure that you're getting the best food and treats there but still me and mom have visited you and left some of those inferior earthly snacks that you loved so much at your resting place (and we're gonna keep on coming)
We miss you so much,there isn't a day that passes without us seeing and feeling you everywhere around the house.One night,a week ago I woke up because I heard your breath and I can swear that I saw you peacefully sleeping in your bed (it's still beside ours) and in the morning I swear I could feel you rubbing against my leg,which caused me to spill boiling coffee all over myself...so typical of you to cause havoc and injuries,but I know that your intentions were always good and you did it mainly because you loved us so much.Even now as we write this words we can see you sitting beside us,wagging your tail,demanding attention/rubs/food,like you always did.
it's still and i suppose will always be difficult to accept that your're no longer here with us, physically at least. i miss touching your soft fur, i miss seeing you when i wake up beside the bed, all smiles, i miss the feeling you always somehow managed to give me, that no matter what, its gonna be ok. no matter what im going through, with you around i always felt safe. i know you are out there, watching us, always close, but its still not the same and never will be. i miss my sunshine. i miss you. WE love you. i promise to bring pizza leftovers again soon.
My sweet Jager, i know its been a while since i wrote you here.. so much has happened since but one thing staid the same and that is the fact i miss you so much, some days its more intense and full with sorrow and some are just memories and even smiles, but the huge hole in my heart remains as is. i will forever miss you. after you went to a better place not only my soul was hurt but also my body. every inch of it felt the pain and i can tell you i cant breath normally ever since. even the doctors dont know what is the exact cause since the tests are 'normal'.
Sweet Jager, it's been too long since the last time I wrote you. I miss you every day. Whoever says this pain fades with time have no idea what they're taking about. Yesterday was one year exactly since you passed. Yesterday, a year ago, my heart was broken like it never has before and I've lost a part of me . I can't believe it's been a year without you here .i wanted to write but I was too sad.
My sweet Jager, I miss you so much today. I miss you always, but some days are more intense. Summer is fading and we can already feel autumn peaking in. The leaves are changing the color, falling. The air feels lighter during the highs, but you aren't here to see it. I know you see it from els where, probably with a much better view. I was just talking to Leon today and told him I still find it surreal that you are not physically here. I still find it surreal not to be able to cuddle you during the cold seasons . I love you forever, my sweet boy. I am grateful every day for each moment spent with you. You are a gift the universe gave me and lm forever thankful for you. Still. I miss my best friend. 💜