4/12/2024 5:34 am. Good morning sweet boy! It is so hard getting up now knowing that you aren't here! I go downstairs fully expecting to see you laying in your spot and it's empty! You would be eating breakfast now and getting ready to go outside. It's raining out this morning. There was a chance of thunderstorms overnight and I can't help but think how frightened you would have been to hear the thunder! Well, you don't have to worry about that noise anymore. You are surrounded by peace and beauty. Are you running with Timber? I hope so. Just don't let him boss you around. Remember you are older than him. I love you to the moon and back and my heart aches at your absence! You were the gentlest dog I have ever encountered and I feel so lucky to have been able to call you mine! Mommy loves you forever and always and I can't wait to see you again. All my love, always!

4/13/2024 5:51 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss you so much! It is such a beautiful morning with the sun just about to come up. You would have finished eating by now and have been outside. Right now you would be laying downstairs. But I know that after I let you in you wouldn't have let me pass you. You would have put your whole body into me so I couldn't pass. Then you would have kept your head right at my knee so I could pet you. That was our routine, right Jameson. I am going to miss that so much! I already miss seeing your sweet face. I miss hearing you bark! The house is too quiet and empty! Daddy and Phoebe sent me a whole bunch of pictures of you yesterday. Most of them I didn't even know existed. You were just so beautiful I can't believe it! I hope you found Timber and are getting to know each other. The mourning doves were back again yesterday. I will check everyday to see if they are under the deck. Please watch over Matthew. He is having an especially hard time. He loved you so much! Well play hard and rest easy my sweet Jameson! I love you to the moon and back!

4/14/2024 5:39 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! The house is so incredibly empty without you! The quiet is deafening! I want to hear your resounding bark. I remember when we first picked you up. The couple said that you never barked. I thought that was so strange but I resolved myself to the fact that we would never hear your voice. Lo and behold on the fourth day we had you, you barked at a dog you saw on a walk. I actually jumped because I was taken aback. From that point on you barked more and more. You sometimes even howled. I miss that so much already! I just miss seeing your sweet face in the morning and just leaning in for your pets! I hope you are running freely without any pain! Say hi to Timber and pa for me and know that we will be together again one day! I love you to the moon and back forever and always!

4/15/2024 5:38 am. Good morning Jameson! How is my sweet boy? I miss you so much! My morning routine is so different now. Right now you would be eating and I would be waiting for you to finish so I could let you out in the backyard. But you aren't here! You deserved so much more. I can't believe that you are gone! I haven't had the heart to pick up your water bowl. I still put fresh water in it. I know, I'm crazy. I just would hate to go downstairs and not see it there. I have packed up your other things. I have your towels, other bowls, shampoo, brush, toys (that you never played with), toothpaste and toothbrush, your medicine, even your heart guard and flea and tick. I have put all of that in a container next to Timber's. I kept your collar and leash out so when we get you back we will put them with your memorial. I hope you are running and playing and sniffing all day long. I would love to see that! I like to think of you and Timber together even though you never met while on earth. But I think the love of a family binds pets together in heaven! I love you forever and always to the moon and back and one day, sweet Jameson we will be together forever! Mommy loves always!

4/16/2024 5:17 am. Good morning my sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I keep expecting to see you downstairs and my heart breaks all over again when you aren't there. I miss seeing your big head in the door waiting to come in. I miss hearing your booming bark. I miss everything about you Jameson! Do you like your memorial? I hope so! I chose spring because I think that was your favorite season. The flowers were coming into bloom, the grass was growing and you could smell nature coming alive. I know how you loved the flowers and bushes. I miss seeing you in the backyard, laying on the grass in your corner eating your yummy. How you loved your kebabs. Well a weird thing happened yesterday. A bird, a dove to be specific hit the kitchen window. I went out to see if it was okay and it was sitting on the railing of the deck. I like to think that you are sending me signs to tell me that you are still around and that you are okay! I love you to the moon and back forever and always! Keep sending mommy the signs and I will see you again one day! I love you sweet boy!

4/16/2024 2:55 pm. Hello my sweet boy! Well you are back home where you should be! I picked you up as soon as they called me so now we are with us forever! You are next to your brother Timber and hopefully you have met at Rainbow Bridge! I am so happy that I have you back and I can never lose you again! All my love Jameson forever and ever!

4/17/2024 5:21 am. Good morning sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! It is one week since we had to say goodbye and I can't believe that it has been one week since I have seen your beautiful face and kissed your sweet head! The house is so quiet! I keep waiting to hear you bark because you hear the dogs next door and you want to go out! I miss seeing you lay in the grass enjoying the quiet. I miss giving you your yummy in the morning and watching your tail wag in excitement! I have left your water bowl out and keep putting fresh water in it. I still say, "mommy will see you in a little while" when I leave to drop the kids at school. I cannot believe that you are gone! I will miss you until the day we are reunited forever! Stay with Timber and know that you are loved beyond measure! Mommy loves you to the moon and back forever and always!

4/18/2024 5:44 am. Good morning my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! My morning routine is so different now. I actually get up later but I am still awake early thinking I have to get up to feed you. I miss seeing how excited you got when it was time to eat. Well it is chilly and drizzling out this morning. Just a few days ago we were at 82 degrees and now we are only getting to 50 degrees. You were so cute when it rained. You knew to come in and stop to be dried. I think you actually enjoyed being dried off. Sometimes I think it's because you felt like you were being petted. So opposite Timber who hated being dried. He loved to get soaking wet though. I hope the two of you have become fast friends. Stay with each other and go for walks together! One day mommy will be with you again! Play hard and rest easy Jameson and know I carry you in my heart forever!

4/19/2024 5:34 am. Good morning Jameson! I miss and love you so much! It's weird getting up and it being so dark. We used to keep the staircase light on in case you wanted to come upstairs. But now we shut it off and I still have to get used to that. Daddy get you an angel for your memorial. You are right next to Timber! Guess what, Julie turns 16 today. When we got you she wasn't even a teenager yet (12) and now she is so grown up. I still can't believe that you are gone. It feels like yesterday we picked you up in Manhattan. You were even more beautiful in person, I don't think your photo on the computer did you justice. I miss seeing your sweet face and getting hit with your paw. I will cherish those moments for the rest of my life! Are you running and playing with the other dogs and cats? I hope so. You used to bark at them but when they came right up to you all you did was stand there. I think you were a big softy. Mommy misses you so much! One day sweet boy we will be together again, forever! Say hi to pa and Timber for me and always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/20/2024 6:57 pm. Hello sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! Well we have your memorial all set up. You are right next to Timber! Daddy also ordered a new infinity sign that has both of your names on it. He already hang it and it looks beautiful. I have to still put a picture on your ashes like Timber has. Are the two of you walking and running together? I hope so. I also hope you are getting plenty of yummies! I know I already told you this but the house is so quiet. Not that you were loud, but we all miss your barking. I still expect to see you downstairs. One day Jameson we will be together again. Each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Mommy loves you to the moon and back forever and always!

4/21/2024 8:00 pm. Hello my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! It was chilly out today and I know that would have bothered your legs. But hopefully now you can walk and run without any problems. I still expect to see you downstairs and am heartbroken all over again when you aren't there. I saw Lori today. She told me that Addy keeps barking for you. She comes out on the deck, stares at the house and barks, waiting for you to come outside. I saw her today and it broke my heart knowing that you won't ever come out on the deck again. Daddy and I went shopping at Target for the first time in over a month and I could not go down the aisle they keep the dog treats. I am so used to buying your kebabs and I couldn't face seeing them hanging there without having to buy them. I hope you are getting plenty of yummies and cookies at Rainbow Bridge. I miss you beyond words and I hope to see you again very soon! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back! Say hi to Timber and pa for me sweet boy! xo

4/22/2024 1:15 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I know it is really early but I can't sleep. I went to bed really early last night and now I am wide awake. The kids are off this week for spring break so I don't really have to get up. I miss seeing your beautiful face. I miss seeing you looking in the back door waiting to come in. The basement still smells like you. As soon as you walk in all I smell is Jameson. I hope that scent stays forever. Are you running and playing with other animals? I hope so. Keep close to Timber and know that one day we will all be together. Each day that passes brings me that much closer to being with you again. Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/23/3024 3:38 pm. Hello sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! I still can't believe that you are gone. I finally picked up your water bowl. It was becoming increasingly hard to see it there everyday. Well the weather has been really nice. The kids are off this week so you would have been in your glory. I am actually not feeling well. I have a really bad head cold. But I know Matthew would have taken care of you if you were still here with us. Are you hanging out with Timber and pa? I hope so! I hope the three of you are going on nice long walks together! On day Jameson, mommy will be with you again for all eternity! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

4/24/2024 5:09 am. Good morning my sweet Jameson! I miss and love you so much! Laura texted me to say how sorry she was to hear that you passes. She is Lindy's mom. She said that she knows you were greatly loved and that love never dies! I have to believe that your spirit is still alive and free. I wish I could see you running around without your legs bothering you! I hope you can keep up with Timber! Are you getting plenty of yummies? I hope so my sweet boy! One day, we will be together again forever. Each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you! I can't believe that you are gone two weeks today. It already seems like a lifetime ago that I saw your beautiful face. I can't wait to see you again and pet your soft head! One day I will be able to do those things again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/25/2024 6:14 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! Oh my sweet Jameson, I miss seeing your beautiful face and watching your eyes light up when you were going to get a yummy! I miss you leaning into me so you could be petted and never wanting it to end! I know we only had you a short while but I believe all of our lives were made better while you were here with us! We gave you a loving home and you helped our hearts heal from losing Timber! I just never expected to lose you so quickly as well! Having said that, I wouldn't change the time we had for anything in the world! You were and still are the sweetest boy ever and I miss you everyday! One day we will be together forever! Each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Make sure you hang out with Timber and pa, okay! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!

4/26/2024 5:53 pm. Hello my sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! Just to let you know about current events, Aunt Deb sent me pictures of you that she took the first time she met you back in September of 2020. We went in to Queens for pa's birthday. Do you remember that? Well she took some really nice photos and she sent them to me. So, today I put one of those pictures on your ashes and I chose another one for your paw print. Now your memorial is complete! I sent her a picture to show her how it looks. She loved it! Another piece of exciting news is that Matthew and Julie both got their driving permits today! I know, I can't believe it either. So hopefully soon they will have their own license and be able to drive themselves!! I know you, Timber and pa will keep a close watch over them! Right sweet boy!! The days have been so nice recently and I wish you were here to enjoy them. The backyard is so cool and shady in the morning, you would have loved having your yummy in your usual spot! I miss seeing you out there everyday!! Well Jameson, as I say, each day that passes brings me one day closer to being with you again! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

4/28/2024 11:56 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much! I'm sorry I didn't write to you yesterday, but it was Timber's 4th anniversary at Rainbow Bridge. I'm sorry that I got sidetracked and I did't write to you! Are you doing okay Jameson? Are you running and playing like a puppy? I hope so! Well the weather is going to get warm, fast. Yesterday was a cool and kind of gloomy day with a little bit of drizzle. Today, it is going to be in the mid 70's and tomorrow in the mid 80's. If you were still here with us I would probably put the air on. I would need to know that you were comfortable in an air conditioned house. Without you here I don't think I will put it in. The kids, daddy and I can just deal with the warmer temps for a few days. Are you hanging out with Timber and pa? I hope so my sweet boy! I miss you everyday and keep you in my heart! Hopefully you will come and visit with me in my dreams! I would love to see your beautiful face! Always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!!

4/29/2024 7:30 am. Good morning sweet boy! I miss and love you so much Jameson! I miss seeing your beautiful face everyday! It is so empty downstairs now and I still expect to see you when I go down. I finally took your water bowl up. I washed it and I instinctively put it under the cabinet where I kept your extra bowls. It took me a minute to remember that you weren't here and wouldn't be using it. I still have it under the cabinet, I just have to put it into the container with all of your other things. Well it is going to be warm out today. They say middle 80's. That was too warm for you, I know. Oh Jameson, my heart is broken without you! I still have your yummies. We had just bought a bag of your chompeez and they remain unopened. I don't know what to do with them. I did throw away your bed. Honestly, you never really used this one anyway. The first bed we bought you was the only one you used. Well I hope you are going on walks and running around and playing! Say hi to Timber and pa for me! Remember to play hard and rest easy and always remember that mommy loves you forever and always to the moon and back!